Said it before and still mean it, you are my hero. On top of all you are going through, you still care for your children and DH. You still take so many others into your heart.
You amaze me. Keep up the good, but difficult, work. I am encouraged by the comments others have made about similar situations as yours. Sounds like you have a good possibility of gaining even more you have lost. One thing that will never be the same is your perspective on life. You have the ability to see things most of us will never understand as you have been there yourself. I see that as a positive change.