Be strong!! You CAN do it!!
I too am an ex-smoker. Dh and I quite together back in Feb 1996 as a belated wedding gift to each other. I had been smoking on & off since I was 11. Dh started in his teens. He's a welder and could smoke a lot all day at work w/ the guys. I couldn't smoke at my job so gradually weaned down to lunch and after dinner, maybe 5 per day down from 1 pack.
Back then the patch was by Rx only and our ins. wouldn't pay for it. Our dentist gave it to dh when he said he had been wanting to quit due to his bad cough from smoking and stained teeth. It was over $125 for a box of patches then.

We figured it's still cheaper than buying a lifetime of cigs so we got them. I quit cold turkey and let dh have the patches since we thought he would crave so bad at work.
One day he realized he had forgotten to put a new patch on. He was almost done work that day when he noticed so he said to himself, "If I could go all day w/o the patch, then I could do it again tomorrow." So after just 11 days on the patch, he stopped the patches.

Yay! Go baby!
I was so proud of him. He had been up to almost 2 packs per day and kicked it in the butt (lol!) in less than 2 weeks.
We both started chewing lots of gum for a while but eventually didn't need that either. We also drank a lot more coffee but cut back after a while to our old amount.

Dh still won't drink a beer cuz he's afraid it will make him smoke again. He doesn't mind though.
We gave the leftover patches to my dad who we all desparately wanted to see him quit too. He smoked probably 3 packs/day and had the worst cough I ever heard after smoking almost his whole life.
Finally in 2004 (age 62) he had such a bad cold and just couldn't breathe to the point it scared him and he couldn't smoke and decided if there was ever a time to quit, here it is. He did the patch for soooo long and really held out and stayed strong. When my mom first called to say he quit I actually cried. I never thought I'd see the day.

She had quit a couple times before, after having breast cancer, but both times my dad would not quit with her so she'd end up going back.
This time was different. They both did it together!
They repainted their house and figured out what they had been spending all those years on cigs. It was the same amount that 2 Caribbean cruises cost.
So they decided since they don't smoke, they'll go on 2 cruises per year to treat themselves.
My dad now has COPD (chronic bronchitis) so he's dealing with the long term effects of smoking. They both sooooo wish that they had quit earlier and he admits that looking back it was easier than he ever thought it would be. He had been so afraid to even try to quit; afraid to fail.
You have to really want to quit, that's true. You have to want to do it for
yourself, not for anyone else but your kids will thank you. and their lungs will too.
They will say, "My mom is soo strong!" and maybe even cry happy tears like I did with my dad.
Just remember: If you can be smoke free for just one day, you know you can do it
1 more day. Before you know it, it's a month. and so on.
Hang it there!!!!! You can do it!!!!
