Its very rough - mom passed Jan 8 2005 and I have been feeling down the last few days thnking about how the holidays were that year. My dad, who I have never get emotional, was a wreck...I think we were more concerned about him then how WE felt.
I am still fairly young and have only lost a few people that I was close to....my grandfather died in the house that was in the family for years...my mom passed in the same house, same room...(both of cancer). My other GF (actually a step-grandfather- but raised as a GF) died of a heart attack while I was away at college - the odd thing was, I "felt" him go...the last week of school before the summer, I felt really depressed one day and couldn't figure out why...my mom said he passed that day (she didn't tell me until she came to get me from school...all I could say was - "I know...")
I only have one grandparent still alove, shes in her 80's...but HER mother is still alive and very active. Which reminds me, DW!! We need to call her and get her pot pie recipe asap...I've already lost mom's mac&cheese recipe and can't afford to lose the Pot Pie, no way. No crust involved...