So I tried really hard to open my mind to tracking - for all of you.
I tried. I tracked the entire first week. It almost killed me.
So I go in after the first week. First weigh in. I feel smaller. Can feel it. Like honestly feel it. And she says "you want to take that shawl off?".
And I go NO.
She asks again.
And I go NO.
I'm up one pound.
I'm not alluding this has to do with WW. It doesn't. The shawl ended up to weigh more than a pound but who cares. Laughing - I actually checked when I got home. So funny.
And it was a beautiful moment. They ALL cared that I gained the first week. in the "it's okay - don't worry - wonder what she did? etc:"
I didn't. I didn't care about it. Thought it was amusing. Thought I don't want to take my shawl off so that I can be *OKAY*. I am okay.
Paula, get a$$ back here. This is a lot to do with you.
I didn't care. I knew it was off. I knew I felt smaller.
The leader said she too gained her first week and said because she probably had thirty last suppers before her first week that caught up.
And I knew that wasn't me either.
And didn't feel the need to say so either.
What a breakthrough. I'm not caring about a gain. I know this week at WW was not special. I had no last suppers. OMG - that wouldn't have even occurred to me!!! What an insight.
And I realized that my brain is becoming more and more rational. The only thing I've ever wanted as much a goal. Actually I believe I want it more.
So this 7.2 is really 6.2 in two weeks in the end - I knew the plus one the first week was off.
But 6.2 for two weeks is weird too. But it's probably just been lingering and walking/water sparked it.
Or maybe I'll find out next week that it wasn't 100% - probably with Thanksgiving too. But who cares.
So tracking.
I still don't know how you guys do it. I didn't do it most of last week and probably won't do it regularly. But I'm addicted to etools.
Great, another addiction.
I plug in some foods and go *interesting*.
So that's all I can write for now. Or more than you all care.
Can you imagine I'm sitting there like a fraud when they talk points and tracking. Oh well. I respect it BIG TIME.