Yuck--I Feel Like I'm Falling Apart

[Christine]

I'm having one of *those* days where I REALLY don't feel well. Fortunately, this doesn't happen to me much but when it does it really throws me for a loop. As I am getting older (almost 42), I'm finding it happens more frequently so I'm wondering if this is the "perimenopause" years I hear about?

Today, I woke up and just felt sleepy. I'm at work and I cannot snap out of it. I feel HORRIBLY crabby, and then I feel like I'm going to cry. We have our big office pot luck in a few minutes and I just want to cry and go home. I just don't want to be here.

I felt perfectly fine yesterday. Today, I'm a basket case.

I did have a busy weekend. Friday night was my son's birthday party, Saturday I spent hours wrapping gifts and cleaning (only to have the house "messed" up again in a few hours). Yesterday was a 2 hour piano recital, grocery shopping, more gift shopping, and running around. Then DH drops the bomb on me that the in-laws are coming for Christmas.

I guess I can sort of understand why I feel this way, but it feels so AWFUL. Does this happen to anyone else?

 

[agotta]

I think everyone gets in a funk sometimes, and it's definitely allowed!! Do something to make YOU happy today. I get like that, DH has learned to go with the flow and it usually only lasts a day or so. for you!

 

[Pea-n-Me]

Understandable with not only the stresses of the season, but your own health issues you've had to deal with recently. Make sure you make some time for yourself and if you can, let some things go this year. Feel better soon.

 

[Christine]

Thanks. And yeah, I forgot about the breast surgery stuff. I guess it all causes built up stress even though it is OVER!!

I guess the big problem is: I can't find any ME time. Tonight I have to go to my son's band concert (why do they schedule these things so close to the holiday??). Tomorrow I have to get the car in for servicing (which just makes my commute longer) and then on Wednesday it's the smaller company lunch (which I had to plan for my boss). It's just gotten to the point that I'm not enjoying ANY of these things. I used to LOVE holiday season so much and I guess it just bugs me because I feel like I'm swimming upstream.

And I really hate this feeling like I'm going to cry. I'm usually more even-keeled than this!