Clear as mud.
So much to do. So much to do and so little time to do it in. And too much life getting in the way.
I guess I should be grateful to have such a wonderful little family to worry over. Of late, I've been going through a lot of personal strife. A lion's share, if you will. Which throws into sharp relief just how much I really need this vacation. And how I wish I could make it permanent. :::sigh:::
But I won't devote this whole chapter to my travails, because quite frankly, it's a book, not a chapter. And quite frankly, unrelated to this report...except that it really, really makes me appreciate this vacation all the more. And I can't wait to go.
So onward with the update. Yesterday I had to make a quick run to
Walmart. There were some items I had forgotten to purchase the first time around, like hairspray and a stain stick. Have to love the stain stick. And since I forsee quite strongly the possibility of laundry on this adventure of ours, well, a stain stick is a necessity. Also, I received an e-mail that my Dropps (the travel size detergent) was in, so I picked that up as well. They're so cute. It's funny to think of detergent as cute, but they're just little and adorable, and I'm having a feeling will be so easy to pack. Excellent criteria, I think.
I also went on a little reading binge. As in I got three books from the library a week ago and have already finished two. And I had some Barnes and Noble gift cards just burning a hole in pocket, so to speak. But I was having a devil of a time deciding what to buy. Since I go through books like water, it feels extravagant to spend money on them. But, they're gift cards. Why waste, eh? So I finally decided on the first two in the Twilight series, and the Imagineering Guide to the Magic Kingdom. I liked the Guide as LL was talking about it, and it looked like something easy enough to carry with us. It is, nice and lightweight. I'm saving it for the plane ride/first day there. I figure it'll get me fired up (as if I need help in that arena) for the trip. And as far as Twilight, I'll say this much. Read it. Liked it. Finished in two days. :::sigh::: I read too fast. Ah well. I'm doing my best to save the second, New Moon for our trip. I have three weeks. We'll see how long I last. Bets, anyone?
I'm a little concerned about the earliness of our departing flight. It is SO early in the morning. I'm not worried about myself and DH, we can handle it. I'm worried about throwing the little nut completely out of whack. Not quite sure what to do. I don't want to lose that whole day, so switching to the later flight wouldn't really solve anything. I'm just hoping that DS gets enough sleep. The plan is to leave him in his PJs so he can fall asleep if he wants to, and have clothes with us so he can change.
My packing lists are fairly complete, it'll just come down to actually doing it at this point. I need to remember which items we need on the plane as compared to what can get checked, and probably the Mon/Tue I'm off before we leave, I'll have DH bring over the suitcases from our storage unit. Then, it'll be real.
And I'll be so glad.
Because I'm burnt out. And on the fast road to a breakdown. Have been trying, trying, trying to put it off. To keep going. To be strong. Because that's what mothers do. They truck on, despite everything else. By remembering that the world is bigger than just me, and there's a little nugget counting on me to do the right thing. It's just become so difficult to determine what that is anymore.
"Up is down...that's maddeningly unhelpful."
"Clear as mud, Jackie..."
Clear as mud.
You ladies have given me much to consider.
Of course I do.
I also have Epcot!....dang but I need to go find those today. They would be great to read on the plane!
Hang in there, that trip's comin'!! 
