What is wrong with me????

[not-too-old4fun]

I'm so discouraged right now and I'm praying and hoping that some of the motivation that is on this board reaches me.

I have about 20 - 25 pounds to lose. Heck... I'd be satisfied with 10 or 15.

I have worked in the weight loss industry in the past. I have counselled many and seen their acheivements. I know it's possible. I know it works. I just can't seem to help myself.

And I know how wonderful I feel when I lead a healthy lifestyle.

What I don't know is.... why can't I do it this time? Why am I choosing to lead a life that is making me unhappy and unhealthy?

I have never eaten as badly as I do right now. Although my mind and my heart tells me my choices are wrong and are bad for me, I still make them. And I feel awful. I'm bloated and miserable and my clothes are uncomfortable. I hate looking at myself and I worry constantly that my husband also hates looking at me. Thankfully, he is the most loving man and loves me as I am but..... I need to get on track. For me.

I need a starting point. I feel like I need someone to hold my hand this time and yet I can't seem to latch on to anyone and begin what is really easy to do once you begin.

I don't know where to begin. Should I try cold turkey? I eat junk and drink sodas and love bread.

*sigh*

I'm sorry to ramble on like this. My mind is going in every direction.

we are going to Disney in April and I would love nothing more than to go there feeling healthy and happy. It's not necessarily a question of diet. It's a question of lifestyle for me and I have to change mine. I just don't know how or where to begin.

I'm considering Weight Watchers. I've tried them online and it didn't work for me. I'm wondering if attending meetings may be helpful.

I feel foolish. I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes because I feel it's hopeless for me but yet I have read how successful you guys are and how positive you all are.

I'd be really grateful if I could find the strength I need on this board.

 

[MelanieC]

Hi there,

After reading your background I'm positive you can do this. You'll be able to do it if and only if you make you make the DECISION to do it. Unfortunately I've been there and done that and only when I decide to do it can I.

You can however get some motivation from this site and those around you to do it. I do Weight Watchers (I must go to meetings and WI or I don't lose weight). If I don't go to WI's I end up saying tomorrow.

I also LOVE sparkpeople www.sparkpeople.com . This website is great. I love tracking my calories and it really is an eye opener. The website makes me want to eat healthier because I'm tracking it.

You can do this, I have faith.....just DECIDE that you are going to do it!!

 

[OceanAnnie]

Hi NTO4F,

Sometimes I get in a rut too. I think just about everyone does. Don't be too hard on yourself. You know you can do it! When I'm in a rut, I change one habit at a time. Make a switcheroo with the habit you want to change. It has to taste good or it won't work! Instead of soda, I drink water flavored with diet drink crystals. I get the individual serving sizes that come in a box located in the Kool Aid/tea section. They look like pixie sticks. I've gotten them at Wal-Mart and Target. I got a really good diet lemonade (I forget the brand.) But there is all kinds of flavors out there. Crystal Lite is good too. I keep a few in my purse. Great for water bottles. Anyway, I'd chip away on the soda habit and then move on to another area you'd like to change.

The holidays are a tough time to start a big change! My jeans are fitting a little too snug for my liking too. I'm just going to start some more changes after the first of the year. I'm going to "try" not to go crazy with holiday food, but some of these foods I only see once a year. You know, the special stuff. So I'm going to sample it. And not feel bad about it.

I was going to recommend, sparkpeople.com too! I know a lady that lost about 40 pounds using that website. It's free! She told me she met a diet buddy on the forum section and they both had the same amount of weight to lose.

Be kind to yourself. You'll be able to make those changes!

 

[not-too-old4fun]

Thank you Melanie!

You are certainly right. It's a decision that needs to come from meand the need for me to make this decision is there. The reason I haven't made it yet boggles my mind. I'm hoping this is the step in the right direction for me.

I'm checking out that site also and signing up. Hey... I can use all the help right now.

I really appreciate your response. It's amazing how one reply can sometimes make what you believe is impossible.... possible. Thank you again.

 

[not-too-old4fun]

Hi OceanAnnie!

Thank you for your reply too. I didn't see it till I replied to Melanie.

My absolute worst habit right now is Coke. I had kicked that habit long ago but then my migraines started acting up pretty bad and I'd have one coke here and there because it sometimes gets rid of the migraine. Anyways... one thing led to another and all of a sudden, I'm back drinking one or two cans per day.

You are right. One thing at a time.

Tomorrow... no coke shall be consumed.

(I'm going to shop for some of those diet drink crystals. I've never tried them)

 

[tiggerlover]

Hi not-too-old4fun!

I think we all have been in your shoes at one time or another (perhaps two or three times). From my personal experience, I think Melanie is right, this is a commitment that has to come from you and once you make that commitment you will be on your way. It takes getting to a low point to realize that isn't where we want to be and to take the knowledge that we have and put it into action. It is an ongoing commitment and it sounds like you know what to do, you just need that final decision to get you on your way.

I have done Weight Watchers on my own and I have done it attending meetings. I was successful on my own only because I had a good support group, not only did I have WISH and my WISH buddies, but I had a support group of ladies who were following different programs that came together for a common cause. To be honest with you, without support it is very hard. I lost the weight and thought I could go it alone, lost my support team and gained some of the weight back. This time I am going to the meetings because I need the support and I can see myself succeeding once again. I truly believe that you need a combination of factors so that you can be a success and a good step is coming to WISH. You will find a lot of support and good advice here and it makes a world of difference.

Good luck in your quest to get healthy!!!

 

[Judy from Boise]

Excedrin and some fruit should work just as well for those migrains ! You'll be replacing both the cafeine and sugar.