What dreams may come...

[minkydog]

I had a nightmare last night. I dreamed that we were driving and rolled our car, landing in a ditch. (We actually did have a rollover about 6wks ago!) I dreamed that I had to make a decision to rescue either my DH or Christian. I knocked out the window and dragged my husband to safety. In my dream I was aware that someone rescued Christian, but allowed him to wander off. When I went to look for him he was gone.

I dreamed that we got back in the car and started driving, looking and looking for Christian. We went over a bridge and as I looked back, I saw Christian crumpled on the rocks. I knew he was dead. So we turned the car around and went back to get help, but no one would help us. I ran to the edge of the water but I couldn't get down to the rocks. I was just frantic when I woke up.

This dream has bothered me all day. I don't believe that dreams are predictive, but I do think that they are our mind's way of working out anxiety. I don't know if it's just PTSD from the wreck in April--I am still having flashbacks when I drive. Or maybe it's that I feel so torn, taking care of Christian who needs me so much and DH who needs me so much? Maybe its frustration with myself for not being able to do it all? And frustration with the system that won't give us enough help?

Any ideas?

 

[Luv2Scrap]

I have had similar dreams about my son, and they can feel so real that they are very hard to let go of when you wake up.

I think it's probably a combination of everything you've listed. That is really a lot for one person to have to deal with!

Here's a for you!

 

[LadyZolt]

Sounds like that was a vivid and unsettling dream! I think dreams have meanings, but not always the obvious meaning. Like, dreaming about having a baby doesn't mean you want to be pregnant -- it can mean that there's a new stage of life opening for you. And dreaming about someone dying can mean that some aspect they represent is moving away from you. Like you said, taking care of Christian (who I don't know, but I assume is a child?) is difficult. Christian can represent a time in your life when you were less burdened, when people took care of you, and you were more carefree. So, now that you have Christian, your own freedom is curtailed as you have to care for him.

I think that if you were in a car accident in April, that could be why you dreamed about a car accident. But it could also just mean that you feel out of control in your life, too, like a car accident is out of your control.

I hope that you will have more soothing dreams soon! I have had vivid dreams like that myself and also have spent many waking hours thinking about them. So hopefully, you will sleep better tonight.

-Dorothy

 

[minkydog]

Sounds like that was a vivid and unsettling dream! I think dreams have meanings, but not always the obvious meaning. Like, dreaming about having a baby doesn't mean you want to be pregnant -- it can mean that there's a new stage of life opening for you. And dreaming about someone dying can mean that some aspect they represent is moving away from you. Like you said, taking care of Christian (who I don't know, but I assume is a child?) is difficult. Christian can represent a time in your life when you were less burdened, when people took care of you, and you were more carefree. So, now that you have Christian, your own freedom is curtailed as you have to care for him.

I think that if you were in a car accident in April, that could be why you dreamed about a car accident. But it could also just mean that you feel out of control in your life, too, like a car accident is out of your control.I hope that you will have more soothing dreams soon! I have had vivid dreams like that myself and also have spent many waking hours thinking about them. So hopefully, you will sleep better tonight.

-Dorothy

"Out of control..." Yep, that would describe my life. Christian is my profoundly mentally handicapped,autistic 15yo. He is as big & strong as a normal 15yo, but he's nonverbal, diaper dependant, and needs full care and constant supervision, like a 1yo. DH has stage 4 lung disease and this week took a downturn, so he's on oxygen 24/7 and feeling weak & breathless. Very little in my life is within my control. I wonder if Christian dying stands for the realization that my "life", in a lot of ways, is slowly dying? After all, Christian & DH are "my life" Hmmm, let me think about this...

 

[Ember]

"Out of control..." Yep, that would describe my life. Christian is my profoundly mentally handicapped,autistic 15yo. He is as big & strong as a normal 15yo, but he's nonverbal, diaper dependant, and needs full care and constant supervision, like a 1yo. DH has stage 4 lung disease and this week took a downturn, so he's on oxygen 24/7 and feeling weak & breathless. Very little in my life is within my control. I wonder if Christian dying stands for the realization that my "life", in a lot of ways, is slowly dying? After all, Christian & DH are "my life" Hmmm, let me think about this...

I think your brain is sorting out a lot of what you deal with every day. Life hasn't been easy and it doesn't promise to be easy in the future. It could also mean that you're behind on your sleep. Often when you have very vivid dreams it's because your brain hasn't had enough sleep cycles over the last while so it goes into overdrive while sleeping, so to speak.