It's hard for me to talk to people, because I don't like people to see that I am weak. and talking about this kind of stuff I will start to cry because I never thought I would be like this EVER, I used to help people like this, and I don't like crying in front of people. I can't talk to my mom because she lives half way across the country while I am at school. I can't talk to my best friend because I am in boarding school and she is in public school 45 mins away and we have totally different scheduals, I can't talk to my bf because he is also in a boarding school about 20 mins away and again we have completely different scheduals. I don't want to talk to my advisor because of the whole pride thing and the fact that she will send me to a shrink and I have been going to a therapist since forever and they dont do ANYTHING!!! they just try and tell me how I should live my life and I don't take well to people telling me how to live my life. and it's hard to talk to anyone in my dorm because they all know that this girl and I are in a huge fight right now(who used to be one of my closest friends and we were pretty much best friends at one point) and she has this ability to manipulate people, and i don't want to say that she wont let people talk to me, its more of she knows I wont talk to them or they wont talk to me if she is with them, so she is constantly with them. I am seriously considering public school in the south. (which btw is a HUGE step for me, because the only reason I am in boarding school is because in 6th grade i decided that the public schooling system wasnt challenging enough for me, and that was the public schools in New England, now I live in TX and the public schools near me like lost their acredidation.) I just feel like my life is falling down around me and I can't do anything about it.