The leader is important. Two of my fave leaders tend to focus on the achievements and struggles and awards FIRST, and then really fast do the meeting itself. Or they sandwich things in between parts of the official meeting. And both of them have won the big deal leader award. So if possible, visit other meetings, see if there are others that help you more. And don't be afraid to pop your hand up and share or question something! If you are struggling, odds are someone else is struggling with the same thing. I personally wouldn't be able to do it without meetings. Even WITH meetings I've been struggling. DS has an all day dance thing tomorrow so I couldn't go to my normal Sat morning meeting anyway, but I won't lie and say I'm not happy. Why am I happy? Because I went to a meeting today. Today is 2/28. Tomorrow is 3/1. As a free Lifetime member, I have to weigh at the first meeting of the month. So today I went to the LAST meeting of the month.

But this is it. Next week's Saturday meeting starts a new regime. I'm going to weigh every week. I need more than the meetings, and weighing at home isn't doing it for me. Gotta do it. Even if I wimped out this week. [But seriously, his dance thing is half an hour away from the meeting, and the meeting ends half hour before the dance thing...and that's IF the leader isn't having a really good "tell your stories" sort of meeting before calling out what's on sale as we shuffle out the door.

] When I last posted I was having problems. I haven't fixed them, but I'm doing *better*. DH will be home tomorrow evening which will normalize things a bit more and let me relax a little. I've been THE parent since Jan 4, basically, when DS and I went on "vacation" and promptly got super-sick. DH showed up 2 weeks into it but didn't have much constructive to say...yelped at me a few times at 3am when I yelled after DS woke up crying and thrashing while ill and wouldn't tell me what was wrong and headbutted me when I tried to cuddle and help him feel better... That's not useful.

Then we just started feeling better, and DH got it. (took DS and I ages to get through the virus, took DH 4 days) Then we got home and DH went right back to work, just as DS and I got ear infections. And as we started our ND visits for those, DH went on a 2 week work trip. JOY! He says he'll be home for at least 2 weeks. I plan on hiding in the closet while DH hangs out with DS LOL. And I won't bring food in there with me!