It was an interesting trip.
I love the lake... but sometimes it is a double edged sword for me. So many of my friends have places up there and I do not. It makes me upset and envious.
BUT... that said... I am VERY lucky to have a friend like Susan who let me borrow the cabin for 4 nights so I could have a little alone time.
It is been a difficult time with work and personal relationships and I had just reached my breaking point.
So... I did just that... I had a small breakdown and then spent the next 3 days recovering from it. I went through lots of emotions and fought the idea of going home almost every day.
I saw the stars & the Milky Way the first night, it rained the 2nd two days, but I got the chance to put my feet in the water and sit by the lake and read. I stitched a bit (which I need to get back to...) and I let my brain clear.
I have made some decisions that will be good for me... not too good for others. I still do not know which direction my life will go in. I do not know if I will have a job after this. I have decided to stop worrying about others that I cannot control. Their decisions are not mine and I'm not doing it anymore.
That's very wise and profound of you to realize. I know it was not an easy decision. I'm sure good things will come of it....when one door closes, another opens. Sending prayers and pixie dust that it happens soon.
It has been nice and quiet this week. I have not had my phone with me 24/7 which is good and I think I will be able to get through TX ok. We leave a week from today... (actually in 1 week... I should be landing in Orlando about now...

and fighting the urge to go and say hello to the Magical Express people...)
& I thank everyone for being concerned and sending love and these...


