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Thanks Deb... 
It's just that I think that I am beginning to fall apart...
It's not that the money won't happen, but I'm running out of time on SO many things this summer that the stress has gotten to me...
I am feeling quite embarrassed by it all and I wish that things were very different...
It is essentially out of my hands... my future is in the hands of people I don't know and I am feeling very weak right now...
I've started the all too familiar feelings that people will see me as a failure and a fraud and I've worked too hard for that to happen.
Even if I get the call tomorrow - some things will work out well... others not.
It's going to take alot to recover...

It's just that I think that I am beginning to fall apart...
It's not that the money won't happen, but I'm running out of time on SO many things this summer that the stress has gotten to me...
I am feeling quite embarrassed by it all and I wish that things were very different...
It is essentially out of my hands... my future is in the hands of people I don't know and I am feeling very weak right now...
I've started the all too familiar feelings that people will see me as a failure and a fraud and I've worked too hard for that to happen.
Even if I get the call tomorrow - some things will work out well... others not.
It's going to take alot to recover...