Update on original post Page 1 ... I have officially hit "rock bottom"...

[helenabear]

I can't say anything else that hasn't already been said. Go call a doctor and do it now! Many many {{{hugs}}} to you... you are in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[CrazyBoutDisney]

Been there and got through. I am sending you a pm. Please read and answer. In the meantime, my thoughts and prayers are with you.
Beth

 

[zakatak]

Thanks. I know I should get in touch with someone, but my DH is out of town now so I will call someone in the morning. I am fine tonight. I KNOW that I shouldn't hurt myself, that it would devastate my family. What scares me is that I THOUGHT it. It's like I know I shouldn't be thinking these things, but then I do. I'm scared of what will happen when I DON'T realize that it's wrong. See?

Tomorrow I will call someone. I hate to pick a name out of the phone book, but I don't have any other choices. I guess it's better than nothing.

You guys scared me just by reading your responses. I know I am way too far gone... but I don't want to be like this anymore. I just hope something will work. And I am embarrassed. Completely. I just can't see me sitting telling my woes to a complete stranger who could really care less. "Sign the cc receipt, please". ugh

Thanks for the support. I don't post a whole lot, but unfortunately I read everyone's posts (all day long). My little escape. So, I really do know who you all are. And thanks again.

I will let you know what happens tomorrow. I promise.

Karen

 

[Serena]

Karen, look in your phone book. There are crisis hotlines that will talk with you. I know you said everything is fine at the moment and I believe you. But, they can make you feel lots better until you actually see a doctor.

I called them for my neice. I wanted advice on how to deal with her thoughts of suicide. They were very helpful to me.

It doesn't cost anything and you don't have to look at them either.

 

[wovenwonder]

Karen,
I am in a BIG weigh loss struggle right now -- thankfully heading in the right direction though! I know that you don't want that for yourself BUT You need to go get help for your depression now. These are not normal feelings --- there is help out there!

Feel free to PM me if you would like a buddy to check in with daily -- I'd be happy to talk with you!

 

[catsrule]

Karen, Please feel free to pm me if you want to meet up at the World. A small group of us are meeting at Epcot on Sunday, Dec. 1 at the International Gateway at 6:30pm. We would love to have you join us.

 

[WDWHound]

Please read these words and beleive them:
There is hope. There is help. Depression can be treated. I have known several people who were suffering from severe depression who now lead happy, normal lives due to treatment. One of them has actually slimmed down since her treatment began.

There option availables that will help you. Please call a doctor and get help. There are treatments that will help, I have seen it happen more than once, but you must take the first step. Please call a doctor. You can have a happy life again.

 

[snoopy]

I'm just going to echo what everyone else said and encourage you to get help. You'll be relieved once you do it, I promise.

 

[chell]

Karen,

Please find a doctor ASAP and get on some sort of medicine! During the past week I have seen what a difference it can make. My husband has been in a major depression for some time now and only finally admitted it to himself last week. Luckily, he had an appointment with his doctor scheduled for Friday afternoon. She immediately started him on Lexapro. The next day I could see a major change in him and his attitude. It was very hard for him to open up and admit his feelings and thoughts to his doctor, but he found the courage. Now he is glad he did. I am glad and grateful that he did. He has also been suicidal. Please PM me if you would like to talk!

Take care of yourself!!!!

 

[glo]

hey!!!

I sent you a long PM...please read it and know you are not alone. Best advice given is see a doctor, worry about getting better and always know that you are the most important person in those kids lives.

Don't ever think otherwise. Feel free to email me or pm me anytime....you are not alon

 

[ennazus]

(((hugs)))

I started taking Zoloft 1 year ago and I can really say that it has helped me become a better mommy. And although I'm overweight (and I was before the Zoloft) I haven't gained weight this past year.

Please call your dr. and make an appointment to discuss this!!! And report back to us!! We really do care.

 

[SuiteDisney]

Karen, you're reaching out and that's great. The best place to start is with your family doctor. I've been where you are and it got to the point where I called the Dr.'s office, crying, and said that I thought I was going crazy. They saw me right away.

There is help out there and you're not alone. There are many different drugs they can try to see what works best for you and counseling is available. Don't give up! (((hugs)))

 

[zakatak]

Thanks everyone for the PMs. You have no idea how much they mean to me.

Karen

 

[Deb in IA]

SO good to hear from you, zakatak!!

Please do call someone and get help. For yourself, your husband, your children, your family. There ARE treatments available.

Take care, and keep in touch . . .

 

[Dan Murphy]

Good to see you this AM, zakatak. Sounds like a busy morning so far. And please do call, as Deb suggested.

Hope to see you in a couple weeks. PM me.

 

[browneyes]

Most definately talk to a dr that can help you. Soon. {{hugs}}

My mom took Zoloft a couple of years ago for anxiety. It helped with her anxiety but she did gain weight, so she stopped taking it. I know there's something though that can help you.

Have you sat down with your dh and really discussed with him your suicidal thoughts?

BTW, from your original post-it's MUCH worse for your kids to be without you. {{hugs}}

 

[Serena]

{{{{{hugs}}}}}

 

[dizneenut]

Please see a doctor soon. There is help out there. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. {{{hugs}}}

 

[Toby'sFriend]

Wow. What a rough morning. Honestly I would help you out and take them for a couple of hours if you lived anywhere near me.
I've been puked on often enough before and it always washes off.

I hope you can find somebody to give you a bit of a break so you can take care of yourself. Could your husband possibly take a couple of hours of vacation time?

 

[PRINCESS VIJA]

Oh dear, I too am scared for you. Please call, get the help that you need, AND you deserve. I have gone to talk to counselors, they will help and guide you. They DO care! As do all of us. Please take care, and keep checking in to let us know how you are doing.