Untitled DL chat thread. Everyone is welcome! Part 10

[sameyeyam]

DH and I have been together for 24 years and you would think by now I would know him pretty well. Tonight I found a book on his nightstand and it just blew my mind. It's called "The Power of Now, A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment". It is just one of the very last books in the world that I can picture him reading. I tried reading some of it and just about fell asleep! I asked him where he got the book and he said that he buys books like that every once in a while. I think he's hiding them from me, but DD cleaned out his truck today and brought it in. So don't ever think that you know someone, because you really don't!

 

[sameyeyam]

I'm going to go see what the Budget Board people are doing today! PM me if you show up.

 

[staley7580]

So, I just had the worst experience ever!! I put Mikalah down for bed, and she starts crying.. So I layed down with her, and held her for a bit.. I got up to leave.. and she grabbed my arm, and started crying again.."Stayyyyyy mommmmmmyyyyyy....." "Stayyyyyyy...." OMG. I swear i am not heartless... But things seldom get to me like that!! So i had to stay for a bit longer.. But then i left, and she just Sobbed!!!! But she is okay now, quiet.

 

[sameyeyam]

So, I just had the worst experience ever!! I put Mikalah down for bed, and she starts crying.. So I layed down with her, and held her for a bit.. I got up to leave.. and she grabbed my arm, and started crying again.."Stayyyyyy mommmmmmyyyyyy....." "Stayyyyyyy...." OMG. I swear i am not heartless... But things seldom get to me like that!! So i had to stay for a bit longer.. But then i left, and she just Sobbed!!!! But she is okay now, quiet.

Awww....She's so got your figured out! DS has been saying he's scared to sleep by himself lately. So I put one of the dogs in on his bed! Now he has nothing to complain about...except maybe fleas!

 

[staley7580]

Awww....She's so got your figured out! DS has been saying he's scared to sleep by himself lately. So I put one of the dogs in on his bed! Now he has nothing to complain about...except maybe fleas!

I know!! I am so a sucker for that kid!! I dont know what it is, I am not that way with Alex. Maybe its because she is a girl. Oh well.... Shes quiet now!!

So, how are things for you Alison?

 

[sameyeyam]

Is it just me or is the Dis excruciatingly slow tonight?

 

[staley7580]

Is it just me or is the Dis excruciatingly slow tonight?

Mine is okay... Must be you!

 

[sameyeyam]

I know!! I am so a sucker for that kid!! I dont know what it is, I am not that way with Alex. Maybe its because she is a girl. Oh well.... Shes quiet now!!

So, how are things for you Alison?

I'm doing pretty good. Can't believe that I'm on the computer tonight. My boss had a project for me today and I ended up on the internet almost all day. My eyes are shot!! I was researching areas for a new hotel. We are looking for possible locations near National Parks in the Western US. It was fun for the first few hours, but by 3pm I was about to fall asleep and all the National Parks started looking alike.

How are you doing?

 

[sameyeyam]

Exactly 2 weeks from today at this time I will be on the Magical Express Bus and should be arriving at the Carribean Beach Resort! . I went out at lunch time today and walked about 2 miles in the 85 degree heat. I am so in trouble at the Race! Apparently I think I'm going to walk 5 miles in the hot, humid Florida weather!

 

[staley7580]

I'm doing pretty good. Can't believe that I'm on the computer tonight. My boss had a project for me today and I ended up on the internet almost all day. My eyes are shot!! I was researching areas for a new hotel. We are looking for possible locations near National Parks in the Western US. It was fun for the first few hours, but by 3pm I was about to fall asleep and all the National Parks started looking alike.

How are you doing?

Bummer!! I get that way after being on the computer to long myself...

Ehhh.. Im okay. Actually.. I talked to my sister yesterday, and we talked about my dad for a while, and it turns out that we are having the same feelings right now. Weird, huh? I think it is FINALLY starting to sink in with both of us, and neither one of us is sleeping well, and we are both really preoccupied. The weird part is, it just started with the both of us a couple of weeks ago.. Almost on the same day! Isnt that crazy? I dont know.. And I am not really looking forward to going to Reno, but i have to, kwim? Hopefully we will get a few hours of free babysitting out of it!

 

[staley7580]

Exactly 2 weeks from today at this time I will be on the Magical Express Bus and should be arriving at the Carribean Beach Resort! . I went out at lunch time today and walked about 2 miles in the 85 degree heat. I am so in trouble at the Race! Apparently I think I'm going to walk 5 miles in the hot, humid Florida weather!

oh sure... rub it in! I wish I was going!!! I bet you will do better then you think, you sis will be there pushing you along!! (from behind, if necessary!)

 

[sameyeyam]

Boy my computer must really be slow tonight. I don't think I've ever had it take so long to load a page on here. My speed and signal strength are all good, so I don't know what the problem is? So don't be surprised if I disappear altogether! I seem to be stuck in a Twilight Zone Time Warp or something!

 

[sameyeyam]

Bummer!! I get that way after being on the computer to long myself...

Ehhh.. Im okay. Actually.. I talked to my sister yesterday, and we talked about my dad for a while, and it turns out that we are having the same feelings right now. Weird, huh? I think it is FINALLY starting to sink in with both of us, and neither one of us is sleeping well, and we are both really preoccupied. The weird part is, it just started with the both of us a couple of weeks ago.. Almost on the same day! Isnt that crazy? I dont know.. And I am not really looking forward to going to Reno, but i have to, kwim? Hopefully we will get a few hours of free babysitting out of it!

I know that I went through a lot of different grieving stages after my mom passed away. First I don't think it sunk in for a while, then I was really sad, then I cried myself to sleep every night, then I was mad at her, then mad at me, then missing her all the time. But finally after about 1-1/2 years I think I finally reached the acceptance stage. I still miss her and love her so much, but I've had to go on with my life. I'm still always a part of her and she a part of me. I have my memories and I know that someday I will see her again and for now that will have to be enough.

My stepdad had me go back down a couple of months after she was gone and go through her things. I really was dreading the trip. I took the kids and we spent the first few days just trying to ignore the reason I was there. Then finally I started going through her things. It wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. I took a lot of her clothing and things to a thrift center that she always liked shopping at and divided up her jewelry for my sister and I. It wasn't easy, but I knew that it would really help my stepdad. He thanked me for doing it and said that it made it easier for him to be in the house.

You are going to have a lot of different feelings and emotions. Just accept them and realize that they are normal. You know that your dad loved you and that you loved him, that is what is really important. I think it's also great that you are becoming closer to your sister. My sister & I are closer than we ever were before. You'll get through this ok.

 

[sameyeyam]

oh sure... rub it in! I wish I was going!!! I bet you will do better then you think, you sis will be there pushing you along!! (from behind, if necessary!)

Obviously you don't know my sister! She's not exactly an athletic person. I'm sure I will do fine, just not really looking forward to the weather. I've only been to Florida in the spring. This is their absolute worst time of year, very hot and very humid. Not to mention hurricane season! DD was there a couple of years ago in August, she said it was miserable. Not to mention that I was freaking out because there was a hurricane. They made it through just fine, but it scared me just a bit!

 

[staley7580]

I know that I went through a lot of different grieving stages after my mom passed away. First I don't think it sunk in for a while, then I was really sad, then I cried myself to sleep every night, then I was mad at her, then mad at me, then missing her all the time. But finally after about 1-1/2 years I think I finally reached the acceptance stage. I still miss her and love her so much, but I've had to go on with my life. I'm still always a part of her and she a part of me. I have my memories and I know that someday I will see her again and for now that will have to be enough.

My stepdad had me go back down a couple of months after she was gone and go through her things. I really was dreading the trip. I took the kids and we spent the first few days just trying to ignore the reason I was there. Then finally I started going through her things. It wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. I took a lot of her clothing and things to a thrift center that she always liked shopping at and divided up her jewelry for my sister and I. It wasn't easy, but I knew that it would really help my stepdad. He thanked me for doing it and said that it made it easier for him to be in the house.

You are going to have a lot of different feelings and emotions. Just accept them and realize that they are normal. You know that your dad loved you and that you loved him, that is what is really important. I think it's also great that you are becoming closer to your sister. My sister & I are closer than we ever were before. You'll get through this ok.

Thanks.. I knew you would under stand. My sister and i cleaned out his apartment while we were down there.. It wasnt as hard as I thought it would be, she went and picked up her things last month, and I guess we are picking up some things when we go down. My sister said that it wasnt as hard as she thought it would be, picking up his stuff, and setting it up in her house. Right now i am angry at him... and I just have this feeling that i wont get over that feeling for a while. Namely because of how he died... My sister said that she keeps waiting for him to show up on her doorstep, and telling her it was all a mistake...
I am so grateful to have my sister around right now, I really dont know what i would do without her!

 

[staley7580]

Obviously you don't know my sister! She's not exactly an athletic person. I'm sure I will do fine, just not really looking forward to the weather. I've only been to Florida in the spring. This is their absolute worst time of year, very hot and very humid. Not to mention hurricane season! DD was there a couple of years ago in August, she said it was miserable. Not to mention that I was freaking out because there was a hurricane. They made it through just fine, but it scared me just a bit!

that is the only thing that worrys me about going to WDW... The weather!! i HATE hot weather, and the humidity! I dont think so! If we there, it will have to be in January or something!!

 

[sameyeyam]

This is taking so long to post I keep forgetting what I'm going to say! Oh well, I'm sure it was something charming & witty.

One of my breast cancer friends emailed me today and asked what type of reconstruction surgery I was having.

I sent back my reply "BREAST"!

I thought it was funny!! hehehehe It's ok she knows I'm a Smart ****!

 

[staley7580]

This is taking so long to post I keep forgetting what I'm going to say! Oh well, I'm sure it was something charming & witty.

One of my breast cancer friends emailed me today and asked what type of reconstruction surgery I was having.

I sent back my reply "BREAST"!

I thought it was funny!! hehehehe It's ok she knows I'm a Smart ****!

OMG!! You nut!!

 

[sameyeyam]

Thanks.. I knew you would under stand. My sister and i cleaned out his apartment while we were down there.. It wasnt as hard as I thought it would be, she went and picked up her things last month, and I guess we are picking up some things when we go down. My sister said that it wasnt as hard as she thought it would be, picking up his stuff, and setting it up in her house. Right now i am angry at him... and I just have this feeling that i wont get over that feeling for a while. Namely because of how he died... My sister said that she keeps waiting for him to show up on her doorstep, and telling her it was all a mistake...
I am so grateful to have my sister around right now, I really dont know what i would do without her!

You will get over the angry feeling. I was mad at my mom. I kept thinking if only she took better care of herself, had more regular checkups, etc... Once I finally got over being mad at her I started getting mad at myself. I was mad at myself #1 for being mad at her, then #2 I started feeling like it was my fault. Maybe taking her on vacation on the plane trip caused her aneurysm to burst. You will get over that feeling, but there's nothing you can really do but sort out your feelings over time.

that is the only thing that worrys me about going to WDW... The weather!! i HATE hot weather, and the humidity! I dont think so! If we there, it will have to be in January or something!!

Spring Break in Florida - April -- NICE!!! It's 75-85 degrees, nice breeze, very little rain, just perfect!! Need a light jacket in evening, low humidity.

 

[staley7580]

You will get over the angry feeling. I was mad at my mom. I kept thinking if only she took better care of herself, had more regular checkups, etc... Once I finally got over being mad at her I started getting mad at myself. I was mad at myself #1 for being mad at her, then #2 I started feeling like it was my fault. Maybe taking her on vacation on the plane trip caused her aneurysm to burst. You will get over that feeling, but there's nothing you can really do but sort out your feelings over time.



Spring Break in Florida - April -- NICE!!! It's 75-85 degrees, nice breeze, very little rain, just perfect!! Need a light jacket in evening, low humidity.

Hmmmm.... We might try that!! It doesnt sound TOOOO bad. Plus, it would be a nice break from our rainy springlike weather.