I just wish I can give you all a hug right now.
I just got a call from my Dr today that I will be starting IVF next month. I am so nervous about the whole thing. My ins doesn't cover it so that's just one stress ontop of everything else. The job I have now is a contract position and my contract is due to end in 1 year....so I have to start looking for a job as well as my husband b/c we work together.
A little background: I am 37 and my hubby is 42. We have been trying for over 3 years to get pregnant.
Last Oct 09, I had an ectopic pregnancy (naturally) in my right tube and was treated with Methotrexate. The worst experience I have ever had for 2 months.
Had many tests (3 HSGs, Tubal catherization etc) My right tube was completely blocked and went on to have a Laporoscopy to cut and cauterize my right tube. Left tube "seemed" to ok
Over the summer I had 4 IUIs using injectables and no luck. All out of pocket also.
So now I get the news today about the IVF and as much as I should be excited, I'm scared, nervous, thinking about money etc. I don't know what to think. I just feel so emotionally drained that I just can't think anymore and actually just feel like crying.
All my friends have kids, just had kids or are already pregnant (of course with no problem). It's always in my face so to speak and all of them know what I have been going through but for some reason I keep getting phone calls or emails of their kids with comments like, lil 'Joey' misses you when are we getting together. Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Thanks for letting me vent
ps.s gosh this is long