TTC thread take 2

[D&DDisney]

well of course y'all guessed it. NOT pregnant. Now we are broke & have a huge loan to pay off, I've gained 10 pounds, and I have absolutely nothing to show for it.

It's totally unbelievably unfair.

Thanks for all of your posts, you really make me feel loved here.

We ran off to Vegas for a few days. My inlaws renewed their vows, I think I mentioned this before. Thankfully they paid for everything. Now being back...just, ugh, facing the reality again.

Oh Cher, I am so sorry. This isn't just unfair it is SUPER, MAJOR, COLOSSAL, UNGODLY unfair!!!!! (now excuse me while I go on a major rant here)

I just don't and never will understand why some of us have to struggle so hard and face such major upsets over and over and over and over and over again. My God, haven't you suffered enough????? It's just not right!!!!

I am so sad for you right now and so angry too. It just hurts so hard when you get so close you can almost feel it and then something yanks you back, as if to say, "Where do you think you're going? You're not supposed to be happy." Just locked forever in this stupid infertility jail you can never really break out of . While so many others out there who don't want, care or deserve children keep getting pregnant. Why? Why? Why??????

Okay, I'll calm down now and give you another cyber . I'm crying just writing this to you. Can't imagine how sad, angry and frustrated you must be. But do know that we share those feelings and will do everything we possibly can to support you through this.

Esbrick - some of this rant is for you too. You need a too with all you've been through.

 

[D&DDisney]

Don't mind me. Just so emotional today. AF arrived and then I found out a friend of mine was just diagnosed w/ breast cancer. Then I came over here and read these posts and I don't know whether to cry or scream.

But Yeah for Gabbie!!! At least your insurance came through for you.

 

[cherbear]

Oh Cher, I am so sorry. This isn't just unfair it is SUPER, MAJOR, COLOSSAL, UNGODLY unfair!!!!! (now excuse me while I go on a major rant here)

I just don't and never will understand why some of us have to struggle so hard and face such major upsets over and over and over and over and over again. My God, haven't you suffered enough????? It's just not right!!!!

I am so sad for you right now and so angry too. It just hurts so hard when you get so close you can almost feel it and then something yanks you back, as if to say, "Where do you think you're going? You're not supposed to be happy." Just locked forever in this stupid infertility jail you can never really break out of . While so many others out there who don't want, care or deserve children keep getting pregnant. Why? Why? Why??????

Okay, I'll calm down now and give you another cyber . I'm crying just writing this to you. Can't imagine how sad, angry and frustrated you must be. But do know that we share those feelings and will do everything we possibly can to support you through this.

Esbrick - some of this rant is for you too. You need a too with all you've been through.

YES YES YES, HE-DOUBLE L YES! Have I ever mentioned my 18 year old cousin with TWO, yes TWO children??? I told DH that we'll just wait until she gets knocked up again and then buy the baby from her. I was half serious....

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I so much appreciate the hugs, as well as the frustration and tears shed for me. I don't get why this is happening to any of us.

And I'm sorry I'm not commenting on other stuff right now. Just know I support you all in your journeys (Gabbie, so glad about the insurance )

 

[esbrick]

Oh Cher, I am so sorry. This isn't just unfair it is SUPER, MAJOR, COLOSSAL, UNGODLY unfair!!!!! (now excuse me while I go on a major rant here)

I just don't and never will understand why some of us have to struggle so hard and face such major upsets over and over and over and over and over again. My God, haven't you suffered enough????? It's just not right!!!!

I am so sad for you right now and so angry too. It just hurts so hard when you get so close you can almost feel it and then something yanks you back, as if to say, "Where do you think you're going? You're not supposed to be happy." Just locked forever in this stupid infertility jail you can never really break out of . While so many others out there who don't want, care or deserve children keep getting pregnant. Why? Why? Why??????

Okay, I'll calm down now and give you another cyber . I'm crying just writing this to you. Can't imagine how sad, angry and frustrated you must be. But do know that we share those feelings and will do everything we possibly can to support you through this.

Esbrick - some of this rant is for you too. You need a too with all you've been through.

Thanks Lady! As I've said before the support I get here helps so much

 

[RachaelRol]

Hi Ladies,

Just stopping in.

I was thinking about Cheri over the last few days and was hoping to find a BFP.I am so very sorry Cheri. I am hearbroken for you. YOU do not deserve this.

Actually none of you (us) do. I just don't understand, really just don't.

E- Hope things go well with te egg donor. I think you should go for it because the cost of "what if" is absolutelty more than trying and it not working.

There is still and always will be a little part of me that will think "what if I had tried the egg donor?" I am glad you are so brave to try.

MSW - Good luck to you with the shots. I hope they work for you.

Gabbie, I hope your meds get everything under control and that you come home with some Disney Magic.

For all of you ladies, I have not met since I "gave up" I wish you the best and hope your stays are short.

I miss you all very much.

Love to you all,

Rachael

 

[esbrick]

Don't mind me. Just so emotional today. AF arrived and then I found out a friend of mine was just diagnosed w/ breast cancer. Then I came over here and read these posts and I don't know whether to cry or scream.

But Yeah for Gabbie!!! At least your insurance came through for you.

I'm so sorry. . .

 

[esbrick]

YES YES YES, HE-DOUBLE L YES! Have I ever mentioned my 18 year old cousin with TWO, yes TWO children??? I told DH that we'll just wait until she gets knocked up again and then buy the baby from her. I was half serious....

~~~~~~~~

I so much appreciate the hugs, as well as the frustration and tears shed for me. I don't get why this is happening to any of us.

And I'm sorry I'm not commenting on other stuff right now. Just know I support you all in your journeys (Gabbie, so glad about the insurance )

We know Cher! Take care of yourself ok and vent here all you want/need. This journey sucks for us all and we so appreciate the support you have shown us and we are so glad we could be there for you as much as we can.

 

[Kennywife]

Oh Cher, I am so sorry. This isn't just unfair it is SUPER, MAJOR, COLOSSAL, UNGODLY unfair!!!!! (now excuse me while I go on a major rant here)

I just don't and never will understand why some of us have to struggle so hard and face such major upsets over and over and over and over and over again. My God, haven't you suffered enough????? It's just not right!!!!

I am so sad for you right now and so angry too. It just hurts so hard when you get so close you can almost feel it and then something yanks you back, as if to say, "Where do you think you're going? You're not supposed to be happy." Just locked forever in this stupid infertility jail you can never really break out of . While so many others out there who don't want, care or deserve children keep getting pregnant. Why? Why? Why??????

Okay, I'll calm down now and give you another cyber . I'm crying just writing this to you. Can't imagine how sad, angry and frustrated you must be. But do know that we share those feelings and will do everything we possibly can to support you through this.

Esbrick - some of this rant is for you too. You need a too with all you've been through.

Hugs to you Cher and everyone else.

I know how you feel D&Disney. I can't tell you how many people I know who got pregnant and then, complained about it. To me, it's like getting an early Christmas present and complaining about the wrapping paper while some people had to wait to get theirs.

I think we could all use one of and maybe one of

Gabbie

 

[esbrick]

Hugs to you Cher and everyone else.

I know how you feel D&Disney. I can't tell you how many people I know who got pregnant and then, complained about it. To me, it's like getting an early Christmas present and complaining about the wrapping paper while some people had to wait to get theirs.

I think we could all use one of and maybe one of

Gabbie

And maybe a few of these

Seriously though, great anology and very well put Gabbie. . .

 

[skuttle]

Cheri, I'm so very sorry.

 

[D&DDisney]

And maybe a few of these

Seriously though, great anology and very well put Gabbie. . .

So when are we going to get together and have some :??

Maybe we should have a TTCer meet where we could all have a few of these?? Anyone game?

Rachael - Nice to hear from you again.

 

[MommaSnowwhite]

So when are we going to get together and have some :??

Maybe we should have a TTCer meet where we could all have a few of these?? Anyone game?

Rachael - Nice to hear from you again.

I would love to meet you ladies (in real life!). This thread has been a God send for me too! No one else wants to hear me obsess!

I don't know how we would do it geographically - I know Eillis is in the Chicago area, I'm in E. Michigan and D&DD you are behind the cheese curtain (WI ). I don't know about anyone else...

By the way, my first name is Rose... much shorter than my screen name.

 

[D&DDisney]

Hi Rose. I'm Deb.
I think Joanne is in the area too. Don't know how far you are from Chicago but I'm about 2hrs. Maybe if we could find a place around Chicago???
Any other mid-westerners out there?

 

[MommaSnowwhite]

My in-laws are ourside of Chicago (far West suburbs). We are about 4-5 hours from Chi town.

 

[D&DDisney]

My in-laws are ourside of Chicago (far West suburbs). We are about 4-5 hours from Chi town.

My in-laws used to live around - Darien/Bollingbrook area. I am familiar with that area and the northern suburbs of Buffalo Grove/Arlington Hts area. Or anything near the airport or Woodfield Mall.

 

[Kennywife]

Hi Rose. I'm Deb.
I think Joanne is in the area too. Don't know how far you are from Chicago but I'm about 2hrs. Maybe if we could find a place around Chicago???
Any other mid-westerners out there?

Hi Rose, Hi Deb! I'm Gabbie, well you know cause I sign my name to my posts. Force of habit I guess.

I'm in Oklahoma, Tulsa to be exact.

 

[cherbear]

I'm way far away from all you gals, in southern Louisiana!

I had plenty of in Vegas. Started with Mimosas in the morning, ended with cranberry & vodkas, margaritas, and red bull/vodkas in the evening. I even had a Margarita on my way through the hotel to the cab. Once I was sober and on my way home, I cried. The alcohol keeps you numb.

 

[D&DDisney]

I'm way far away from all you gals, in southern Louisiana!

I had plenty of in Vegas. Started with Mimosas in the morning, ended with cranberry & vodkas, margaritas, and red bull/vodkas in the evening. I even had a Margarita on my way through the hotel to the cab. Once I was sober and on my way home, I cried. The alcohol keeps you numb.

Wish there was some place we could all meet. Hmm...Let's keep working on this.

Sobriety is overated. The song "Comfortably Numb" by Pike Floyd comes to mind. Only we're talking alcohol here and not drugs.

If music is a help to any of you, here are some others that get me through the constant let downs
Blessed - Elton John
Boulevard of Broken Dreams - Green Day
What Have I Done to Deserve This? - Pet Shop Boys

 

[KiKi Mouse]

I too wish we could all meet up.

Back to lurking now.

 

[D&DDisney]

Hi Rose, Hi Deb! I'm Gabbie, well you know cause I sign my name to my posts. Force of habit I guess.

I'm in Oklahoma, Tulsa to be exact.

Hey Gabbie. Any chance you'll get up to IL any time soon?