Jenny and Kevin went back to the room with us (if anyone else came with us, I seriously have no memory of it!) and dropped off our stuff. Kevin took a few more pictures of us on the balcony in our room turned out to be one of our favorite amateur pictures of the day.
The last picture of me in my wedding dress
I got out of my dress and changed out of the corset and into some comfortable clothes. Im usually very modest but I was changing in front of Jenny & Kevin and didnt care less at that moment in time. I asked Jenny for help taking the tiara and veil out of my hair it wasnt too bad, I have very thin hair so she didnt need to use a lot of bobby pins. The wedding dress that we were so careful with before the wedding was now in a pile on the floor. Lisa and Lynn came up and visited for a few minutes.
I put on the t-shirt my mother had gave to me at my bridal shower, that had Mickey & Minnie in their wedding gear and said Mary & Jim April 24, 2006. Yay I was finally able to wear it!!!
Me and my crazy post-tiara hair
Around 3:30 there was another small surprise for me. There was a knock on the door and a cast member hands me this..
Link to another surprise by Disneys Fairy Tale Weddings:
How very sweet!!
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Jim and I were beyond exhausted and thought we were going to take a nap before doing anything else. Jenny & Kevin said they were going to go hang out with mom, dad, lisa and lynne around stormalong bay. I was sad to see Jenny & Kevin leave though. For some reason in my mind, that signaled the end of the wedding day. That was it. Wedding was over. It was the honeymoon sure, but the wedding was over. I started to get kind of depressed.
We looked through the guestbook and were reading some of the responses. I was so glad I got a fun guestbook and not just a blank one to sign your name in. Some of the responses had me laughing so hard!
At about 4 pm, we decided we should try to take a nap. Jim changed into comfy clothes and got into bed and looked ready to fall asleep right away. I laid down and started to think about the wonderful day I had just had. I started to think about how lucky I was I had just had my dream wedding and married the most wonderful man I had ever met. I was there with most of our friends and family and everything was just so incredibly beautiful.
I cant explain all the conflicted emotions I was feeling at that moment I was incredibly happy, everything had been just so wonderful.. I was really sad that everything was over.. what would I obsess about now?.. I was thankful it was over the pressure was over, no more mentally torturing myself to lose weight as fast as possible for the wedding
I was so happy to be Jims wife
but I really wanted to be around my family all of a sudden.. I was exhausted but there was no way I was going to be able to fall asleep then..
It was like when youre a kid and all December youre looking forward to Christmas, and it comes and you have a magical day and you have so many new toys you get to play with but at the end of the day you get really depressed because its over. I dont know, it was a weird feeling and completely unexpected!!
I was so emotional I kind of started to cry and woke up Jim because I didnt want to be alone. I was being a complete dork and just had so much unwinding I needed to do before I could fall asleep.
I think that going from all the excitement and the beauty of the day to just being by ourselves, closing the curtains, and trying to take a nap was an extremely bad idea. In retrospect, I should have planned something with my family or with jims family or something really low-key. Something to talk about the events of the day and to unwind. I really wish we had done that.
The next 45 minutes I stayed kind of emotional. I couldnt bare to look at any of my wedding things! There was my unity candle
it was so pretty!!! My bouquet just beautiful!! Awww it was going to die soon, that was so sad! There was my wedding dress that I would never wear again.. stupid wedding dress! My wedding planning binder.. I wouldnt be needing that again, everything had been planned and done!! I kept crying it was a happy cry, I was just happy and emotional, but I still felt really stupid about it and didnt know what the heck was wrong with me, I am definitely not usually like that!! Im not usually the crying type. At the same time I was laughing at myself for being so dumb and the absurdity of some of the things I was saying.
And I was married!! I never thought it would feel any different. I had been living with Jim for almost 4 years, I figured it would be a lovely day but our relationship would feel the same. But already I felt like things were completely different! It was weird.. I was married.. what a grown-up thing to do..How could I be married I still felt like I was five years old most of the time!!! It was a good feeling, just a this is so weird feeling.
Jim kept doing things to try to make me laugh to snap me out of it (like pretending to put on my corset and veil, for starters, which had me laughing so hard I was dying..) .. but finally I realized I needed to get out of the hotel room and be around family.
I called my mom and told her I needed some company. She said she was eating at Beaches n Cream with Dad, Jenny & Kevin, and Lisa and Lynn. She puts Jenny on the phone and Jenny said shed be up in a few minutes.
Ten minutes later, Jenny and Lisa knock on my door. I open it and Jenny says you look awful! I said yeah I know, I always look awful after Ive been crying. My sister Lisa says why have you been crying? I tell her I was just really really happy.
And then my sister Lisa says and this is a direct quote Do you want somethign to be depressed about? I can give you something to be depressed about.... and continues to tell me how the happiness doesnt last and how her and Lynn has just been fighting and now she wasnt talking to her and --
I cut her off and was like no, Lisa, I DONT want something to be depressed about She kept going on and then I said bye, Lisa and kicked her out. I hear her say fine EVERYONE HATES LISA! (thats another exact quote)..
(that might have sounded like I was being callous if you dont understand that Lisa is like that ALL the time and everything always has to be about Lisa). Me and Jim kind of laughed about it. Jenny said her and Kevin were going to go eat at the China pavilion at epcot and asked if we wanted to come. It sounded great. My original plan for the day was to eat at Yachtsman Steakhouse that night with Jim, but I wasnt in the mood for steak or for being by ourselves, so I got dressed and tried to do something about how awful I looked.