Plateau Ponderings
Well, it is safe to say I wont see a loss this week, or just another tiny one like the past five weeks. So, hows my perspective?
Actually, its pretty good; up and down. Ive done some deep thinking. One of my WW leaders posed the question: what was your last straw? The one that brought you into WW? And what keeps you coming back, because you goals now will be different that your goals then. Well, it took me a while to digest that. But I realize now that I have met all but one goal from my last straw days that brought me to WW. At 222 lbs my goals were:
Be able to move freely (I could run but I could barely tie my shoes)
Be able to get up off the couch (I used to do the ole heave ho to get up
Be able to be active and play with my son (I used to lay on the couch and feel horribly guilty)
Be able to wear nice clothes, fun clothes that I bought because I like them
Now, going back to pre-WW days to my highest weight of 242 lbs I thought if I could only get down to 180-185 lbs Id be happy.
Now present day:
I can and do, do all the things in my list. I am at 170 lbs and holding (that could be looked at as a positive thing!).
I am known by all who know me as a fitness buff, counted among the elite at my gym.
So many people have complemented me on my weight-loss and many have told me I am an inspiration. I must never stop counting my blessings.
So where does that leave me? Well, I said all but one of my original goals have been met. The real one that is left (aside from actually reaching goal) is making peace with food. I still have my binges. But I am learning to make peace with them, to somehow peacefully coexist. If there was one thing I could change right now it would be my love of food!
It seems that my new way of life supports a weight of 170 lbs. Maybe thats where I should be. I am definitely not thin yet, but if being thin means living hungry and obsessed with my food then maybe I wont make it. I dunno. Maybe its still to early to tell. Maybe Ill keep losing at a snails pace and get there one day. I just dont know where there is!
I guess if I had to really put into words what my current goals are, they would be:
Be as strong as I can
Run as long and fast as I can
Where a size 8
Tweak my food plan to provide the maximum energy throughout the day
Start participating in group fitness activities more (like run a half marathon)
I wish I could commit to the Disney half this year, but I just dont know yet if I can swing it.
As for my exercise... well its going strong

I ended March waaaaay above goal on minutes. I'm nearing Hartford on my Disney run. I'm happy
Sunny