Tracy's Journal-The Saga and Drama of It All!

[pettyone]

SO...O Queen of the Oatmeal.... DId ya make it to the gym?!

Yes, I did.



Today is a resistance training day...no cardio for me...I've got a lunchtime parent/teacher conference for DD...

I tried to eat "regular flavor" oatmeal today...gag!! I understand now why my Nanna used to put butter & sugar on it...ugh!! Luckily there was some raisin & spice oatmeal handy, so I choked that down instead.

Looks like today will be 100% OP...I seem to feel better about this journey when I truly look at it as one day at a time...if I even entertain the big picture with the amount of weight loss & exercise that I have to do in order to meet my goal, I get overwhelmed!!

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On another note, I am having the dilemma of a lifetime with my upcoming Disney trip...WHERE TO STAY?!!

I figure that DD will not be able to handle an all-day park experience, so we will need a mid-day hotel break, recharge & then head back out...I'd like to have her back to our room by 8pm for bath, stories & bed...I've stayed at ASMu (Rock Inn) & loved it...but I wasn't 4/5 years old & was gone 99% of the time (was a Disney wedding weekend for a friend)...sooo, I guess my dilemma is whether or not to pay more $$$ for a mod/deluxe, given that we will probably spend more time in the hotel on this trip than on any future trip as DD gets more mobile & has more "endurance".

The contenders are:
1) Value: Pop
2) Mod: POR
3) Deluxe: AKL or WL

I'm driving myself nuts!!! Does it really matter???!!!! Regardless of where we stay, we're going to have a blast...sheesh!!! I'm sure DD would sleep in the car just to go to MK...I'm the one with the hang up...LOL.

I've seen on the resort boards that I'm not the only who is confused...so many choices!!!!

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Have a good day...

 

[sarahsmom73]

It's a bad problem you have!!!! Oh the decsion... Hmmmmmmm... .What would I choose from your list....Maybe WL? I'm not sure.. Let me think about it and I'll get back to you!

 

[pettyone]

Hello, hello!!

I've been successful staying OP this week and exercising like a fiend...UNTIL TODAY!!

Our bank's external auditors took us to lunch today at one of those fancy "dinner clubs" (ooooh, ahhhh)! I shudder to think of how many WW points I used today!! I had a shrimp/veggie salad & mixed greens, tempura catfish w/ mixed veggies and mashed potatoes, and a "pecan ball" dessert...I am stuffed!!

I never did use any flex points this week...I have to figure that they're gone now!! I will be hitting the gym for an hour of cardio & strength training tonight in the hopes of reversing some of the damage done (or at least wiping out the effects of that DREADFUL pecan ball).

Wish me luck!! I hope everyone has a great weekend...I'll be checking back in on Tuesday!!

 

[toystoryduo]

Way to go having an OP week! That is wonderful!

Your meal today at lunch sounds pretty healthy. I bet that the hour of cardio and strength training burned it right off!

Have a great weekend!

 

[sarahsmom73]

MMMMMMMMMMM! Your lunch sounded good!!!

Have a great weekend!

 

[pettyone]

Hello!!!

My trend of emotional eating continued...I didn't sabotage myself over my long weekend--still down a pound!--but really lost my grip on eating "healthy", that's for sure...

I discovered the joy of the Precor Eliptical over the weekend...love it!!! I logged 5.5 hours of heart/bone healthy exercise last week and managed to LOSE ANOTHER POUND!! All this effort and I'm such a slow loser!!!!

I'm feeling pretty good today, much better than over the weekend (emotionally)...DFOMC (DDs Dad, My ExBF, etc) has decided that he doesn't know if he wants to be in a relationship with me or not (isn't this a black or white decision???)...long story short, we were together on/off (lived in different cities, one or both of us had traveling jobs) for 7 years before DD, lived together for 1 1/2 years after DD was born, seperated for 2 years, then decided to give it another shot in July '04...he said he wanted to change his life, get on track, he screwed up, etc., so I thought he had some sort of epiphany!! We did well until November & it's been downhill ever since...DFOMC has a ton of childhood baggage (emotional, not physical) & it's taken ME getting therapy & 12 years to put my finger on it...unfortunately, he would rather continue living his destructive, yet "happy-go-lucky" lifestyle instead of getting help to improve his life...I pretty much placed his options out in front of him yesterday...take the easy road & continue your life as miserably as you have been OR get some help to improve your life (i.e. address the big white elephant or whatever it is)...sheesh!!! Why would you choose to wallow in misery?? I don't get it...

What I did wrong: Letting him back in without him seeking help first...thought we could work on it together since he seemed to geniunely (sp?) want to work it out...

What I did right: DD was in the dark, knew nothing, which was tricky...

What I'm going to do now: Stay busy & expect nothing...he knows where I stand as of yesterday...

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Whew!! Sorry for the downer of a post...but I am not "stewing" anymore...had to get it out...

Have a good day & THANKS for listening!!!!

 

[sarahsmom73]

Tracy! We are here for you! Get it out when ever you need to! You are a strong woman and you can and will do this!

 

[Strings]

Tracy,

I am sorry that things aren't working out with your ex. I think that weight loss is alot like that white elephant you spoke of. You won't be succesful until you are ready. Hopefully, your ultimatum will help him reach that point.

Your trip sounds fabulous. I struggled with the decision of where to stay too. Whatever you decide, you'll have a great time.

Have a great day,
Beth

 

[pettyone]

Jen & Beth--

Thanks a bunch for the ! I'll keep you posted on how things go (or don't go).

Thank goodness for the gym!! I gave that elliptical machine a run for it's money yesterday after work ...I think I hurt it!! My workout was great--except for something that was slightly creepy. I've said before that our Y is getting remodel & the cardio machines are packed in the lobby area, like sardines...well, one of my coworkers (who gives me the willies anyway) was on the machine directly BEHIND me yesterday...AAARRRGGHHHH!! He's one of these people who will say, "You look very put together today." That means, "Gee, your 'rear' or 'chest' has my attention"...(shiver).

Here's a funny one...said coworker just came by my office to comment as mentioned above...(shiver).

Anywho...had a BLT on wheat for breakfast (a treat) & doing oatmeal for lunch...pot roast for dinner...

Exercise for the day should be a 30 min walk at lunch & 20 on the elliptical this evening...we shall see...

Have a glorious day!!!

 

[sarahsmom73]

Oh No!!! Not oatmeal..HERE WE GO AGAIN!

 

[pettyone]

WHAT IS GOING ON WITH MY COUNTERS???

 

[pettyone]

Much better...now I'm .

 

[Strings]

Hi Tracy,

I hate creepy coworkers. Fortunately, the one we had left about a year ago. Is he someone you can tell off? Or can you report him to HR?

Have you decided where you are staying on your trip yet?

Great workout yesterday.

Take care,
Beth

 

[plutosmyfav]

Hi Tracy

hang in there I have been through similar "junk" with my Dx (he gets a dear because since our divorce he has taken the "hard" road to recovery and done a great job). But, he never, never would have addressed his problems (including a serious mental illness) if I kept letting him stay as he was. Its a long hard road, believe me, but it sounds like you are doing exactly what you need to do for yourself and your daughter.

We're here for you

Sunny

 

[sarahsmom73]

Wishing you a happy Friday! We made it!

 

[pettyone]

Hi Tracy,

I hate creepy coworkers. Fortunately, the one we had left about a year ago. Is he someone you can tell off? Or can you report him to HR?

Have you decided where you are staying on your trip yet?

Great workout yesterday.

Take care,
Beth

Beth--

The creepy coworker is basically harmless in all respects...he's a pretty good guy with a pretty questionable mouth...I think he gets most of his "jollies" at the Y in the aerobics classes (he'd be the one in the back-LOL).

There are 2 men and 3 women in our department & one of these days he IS going to catch one of us girls in the "wrong mood"...boy, will he get it then!!
HR here is just a figurehead of a department, don't get me started, but I don't think it will need to go that far...

 

[pettyone]

Hi Tracy

hang in there I have been through similar "junk" with my Dx (he gets a dear because since our divorce he has taken the "hard" road to recovery and done a great job). But, he never, never would have addressed his problems (including a serious mental illness) if I kept letting him stay as he was. Its a long hard road, believe me, but it sounds like you are doing exactly what you need to do for yourself and your daughter.

We're here for you

Sunny

Sunny--

Thanks for coming by, I appreciate the support.

I'm not sure how much more of a wake-up call he needed after I booted him out of our house in July '02...that didn't seem to have a whole lot of impact on his life...he got to move in with his folks, pays no household bills, has fabulous meals, a "pony" keg & a cellar full of wine to partake of, & a flippin' maid!! (Can anyone say "ENABLE"???)

As you can imagine, my life is not nearly as plush as his...

I haven't spoken to him since I Monday, although I've seen him in passing while shuffling DD to/fro. He really looks like he's suffering, let me tell you...He does leave for Colorado (works there) on Monday, will not be back until March 18, or so...plenty of time for him to think...

 

[pettyone]

Happy Weekend to All!!

I should be okay for weigh-in tomorrow, provided I don't blow it tonight...I'm going bowling for a Big Brothers/Big Sisters fundraiser with friends from work...we're supposed to go to dinner afterwards at Quaker Steak & Lube...

I completely forgot that it was Lent (oops) when I made the suggestion & there are FEW choices that don't have meat, LOL, guess it's a salad for me!!! Everything else would taste so good, but be so bad for this diet!!!

No exercise today, except bowling (?), but I do plan on hitting the gym in the morning...

I haven't bowled since college, this should be a HOOT!!

 

[sarahsmom73]

Hope you had a great time last night!

Any big plans for the weekend?

 

[pettyone]

Good Morning!

I hope everyone had a great weekend!

I'd say I stayed 50% OP this weekend...fried zucchini on Friday night didn't seem to affect my weigh-in, I was down a pound on Saturday! Unfortunately, I haven't hit that weight again since, so I'm not counting a loss this week.

Bowling was LOTS of fun! I finally broke "100" on the last game...ha ha, I won the game (!) with 102!! The skill and form with which I bowled was truly astounding. You can refer to my post on the general WISH board for the rest of the story...

Gotta get back to my oatmeal before it gets cold (gag)!