Bless your heart sweetie . Happy Birthday to your dear Mom in heaven . I know how much you love and miss your dear Mom, however, I am a firm believer our loved ones smile upon us and guide us from above. If you're up to it, perhaps you could honor her by doing something she loved doing with you. I know it seems to helps me with my beloved Dad.
Today would have been my Dad's 89th birthday. He was an older man when he had me (late 40's) but the best Dad ever. I adored him and I still do. My ex and I got married on his birthday 25 years ago today and he was thrilled. I miss my Dad every single day and talk to him every single night even if it is just to tell him I love him or ask him for help through something. I feel him with me all the time, but when I was in treatment for my cancer, his presence was amazing. I hope I've made him proud.