Thank you so much Lisa.
I am too sorry for your loss. Does it ever get better??? I miss him so much and cannot help but sometimes dwell on all the things he will miss....My oldest son was only 14mths old when he died and my youngest was born 34 days after he died....
I know I will get through it....but it is hard. Thanks for the "virtual hugs"
Does it get better? Yes, it does. Does the pain of not having your dad go away, no. You know, I am still so jealous of my sisters wedding photos. Isn't that terrible? My oldest sister is 14 years older than I am, my other sister 5 years older than me. They have wonderful photos of dad in their weddings, not me. I was stuck with my self centered brother.
I know dad was with me in spirit, I know he has been with me when I had my children, and you know what? I feel him around me sometimes.
I know it may seem weird, but I just know he is still checking on me.
I have to tell you this story...
My dad died Dec 16, 1977. Well, I was an obnoxious teenager and thought the world revolved around me. When dad died my world came crashing down.
I was very close to my dad.
Ok..so he was in WWII, and my brother, the one that walked me down the aisle, got his medals. Fast forward quite a few years, my mom gave me the flag that was on dad's casket. My brother in law made a cabinet for it, looks nice. My sister asked my brother, can you give Lisa the medals? Oh sure, yeah. Well, I am still waiting on them...
In the meantime, I contacted the government to see if I could get my dads medical records. I explained that I was only 15 when dad died, did not get to ask him a lot of questions cause I was a stupid teenager, etc.
On Dec 15, 2006( almost 29 years to the day he died) I received a small package in the mail. It had my fathers name and my name on it. I gave it to my 12 year old son to open. I was very apprehensive. Out came a copy of all but one of my dad's medals.
I cried for 2 days. I called my sister and she cried.
I thought she might have done it for me, but no, some nice guy at the records dept I think, took pity on me and my letter.
I showed my father in law the medals and he said, "Someone was looking out for you." I said, "Yeah, my dad."
I think my dad is tired of brother dragging his feet!!!
Sometimes it's the little things that take you back to remember your dad.
I don't cry as much these days, but you know, it still hurts.
My mom passed away this past Aug., and she and I were not close.
I don't cry over her like I still do my dad.
I think it has to do with the age I was and am now, and also how close I was to dad.
Take it a day at a time, remember the good times.
Lisa