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*NikkiBell*

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Hi All,

I just wanted to write a quick post and let you know how things are going for me. It's been a rough couple of months and I am hoping that things settle down very soon. Many of you have reached out to me and were beyond supportive. I just want to let you know that I appreciate all of your kind words, thoughts, prayers, and PD sent my way.

Since May, life has been almost unbearable. I was diagnosed with costochondritis and began having visual disturbances and fainting spells. The extremely high white blood cell count from the the costochondritis caused this along with a very long night in the ER. Thank goodness for summer vacation from school.

During the summer, I had some problems here at home which made it very difficult for me to look at the world clearly. Just when I thought that things were looking better, my best friend, Princess, my beagle of 12 years, had a terrible stroke leaving her partially paralyzed. This was a very sudden occurence and led to her being sent above. I am still not over this and don't know if I ever will be. I don't deal well with change/death and this has been very difficult for me.

I know that some have either said (or thought) that I was being melodramatic, overly sensitive, or just making this situation out to be worse than it really was. However, to me this was an earth shattering occurrence and until one is in another's shoes, he could never know the pain she was feeling. I am still not sleeping at night. Thankfully though, the nightmares connected with my last memories of her and the brutal decision that I was forced to make are no longer a nightly occurrence.

Mold was found in our school a few weeks before work was to start up again. This delayed the beginning of the school year and added to the difficulty of my being home with nothing to do but sit and think about things. Shortly after work started, I then began having symptoms again and bloodwork (mind you, I am a severe needle phobic) showed that the costochondritis had returned. I was put on medication, developed laryngitis, and then had an allergic reaction to the meds. I stopped having feeling in areas of my legs and experienced difficulty walking. Thankfully, this went away. A few days later, I began having tingling and pain in my wrist and sides of my hands. I am currently scheduled to have an EMG test done by a neurologist to determine what is causing this. In the interim, the pain has become a constant in my left wrist and my dentist discovered three cavities on my wisdom teeth that need to be filled immediately or I'll risk having to go through extractions.

The moral of this story, boys and girls, is that when life hits you hard it's like a ton of bricks. The support you receive from those who care helps to remove the pressure weighing you down. Thank you to the DIS, its creators, the podcast crew, and my DIS friends for continuing to be there when it counts.

Nikki
 
(((Nikki)))

I am such a firm believer in things happening for a reason. I find it most difficult to hold onto this thought when life is handing us crud on a cracker.


Hang in there lady......there has got to be a light coming....hopefully i is Mickey shaped!
 
Wow Nikki- just one of those things would have sent me into a tailspin. I can't imagine what it's like to deal with all of that. I do hope the docs can give you some answers and provide you with some relief SOON!

I'm sending lots and lots of positive thoughts your way. :grouphug:
 
Hi All,

I just wanted to write a quick post and let you know how things are going for me. It's been a rough couple of months and I am hoping that things settle down very soon. Many of you have reached out to me and were beyond supportive. I just want to let you know that I appreciate all of your kind words, thoughts, prayers, and PD sent my way.

Since May, life has been almost unbearable. I was diagnosed with costochondritis and began having visual disturbances and fainting spells. The extremely high white blood cell count from the the costochondritis caused this along with a very long night in the ER. Thank goodness for summer vacation from school.

During the summer, I had some problems here at home which made it very difficult for me to look at the world clearly. Just when I thought that things were looking better, my best friend, Princess, my beagle of 12 years, had a terrible stroke leaving her partially paralyzed. This was a very sudden occurence and led to her being sent above. I am still not over this and don't know if I ever will be. I don't deal well with change/death and this has been very difficult for me.

I know that some have either said (or thought) that I was being melodramatic, overly sensitive, or just making this situation out to be worse than it really was. However, to me this was an earth shattering occurrence and until one is in another's shoes, he could never know the pain she was feeling. I am still not sleeping at night. Thankfully though, the nightmares connected with my last memories of her and the brutal decision that I was forced to make are no longer a nightly occurrence.

Mold was found in our school a few weeks before work was to start up again. This delayed the beginning of the school year and added to the difficulty of my being home with nothing to do but sit and think about things. Shortly after work started, I then began having symptoms again and bloodwork (mind you, I am a severe needle phobic) showed that the costochondritis had returned. I was put on medication, developed laryngitis, and then had an allergic reaction to the meds. I stopped having feeling in areas of my legs and experienced difficulty walking. Thankfully, this went away. A few days later, I began having tingling and pain in my wrist and sides of my hands. I am currently scheduled to have an EMG test done by a neurologist to determine what is causing this. In the interim, the pain has become a constant in my left wrist and my dentist discovered three cavities on my wisdom teeth that need to be filled immediately or I'll risk having to go through extractions.

The moral of this story, boys and girls, is that when life hits you hard it's like a ton of bricks. The support you receive from those who care helps to remove the pressure weighing you down. Thank you to the DIS, its creators, the podcast crew, and my DIS friends for continuing to be there when it counts.

Nikki


Nikki, we don't really know each other, but we've posted on a few of the same threads.

I just wanted to tell you that you are in my thoughts and prayers and I am hoping you receive answers very, very soon. As for losing your beloved Princess, I totally understand. When we moved to our new house 16 years ago, about two months prior to the move, we discovered our beagle, Bagel, had kidney failure and some other issues. They told us he had maybe six months to live and they could keep him comfortable on meds. We made the painful decision to put him down before we moved to our new home as we felt the move would be traumatic for him and for the kids with moving toa new house and then losing their beloved companion. 16 years later, I still think of our beloved Bagel even with having brought Cookie, our Bichon, into our home 11 years ago.

Keep the faith...it will get better.
:hug:
 

Hi Nikki,
I'm sorry you are having such a tough time, but hopefully good things are right around the corner. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger, right? I have found enjoyment in a lot of your responses on the threads, and am glad that you are getting support in return for all you do on the boards.
 
Nikki

The best I can say is hang in there. It sounds like the last several months have been very difficult. You know your DIS friends are always here for you.:grouphug:
 
:grouphug: I am so sorry to hear things have been so rough for you this year. Please hang in there. I also believe everything happens for a reason, even if you can't see it now.
 
Hi Nikki,

You a wonderful and thoughtful person. I'm sorry to hear of your rough time. Wishing you all the best for a bright future.:):grouphug:
 
Hang in there Nikki! Think of the triplets ;)

Things will get better :cloud9:
 
Wow Nikki- when it rains, it pours, doesn't it? You are strong though! I don't know that most of us ever get over losing our special 'family member'. I am still so sorry for your loss.

I hope your health improves and just know you have tons of support here- always!
 
Nikki,
Thank you for sharing with us so we can lend you as much support as you need. Stay strong, stay away from the Cool Whip!
Lyn
 
Oh Nikki, I'm so sorry you have been having such a hard time. I knew you were having tests, but somewhere along the way missed your diagnosis.

As a Beagle Mom myself, I can fully understand your sense of loss with Princess' passing. In fact, my Mom swears she will leave town when our Megan (now 15) heads to the Rainbow Bridge because I will be such a wreck.

I am guessing it is annoying right now to keep hearing 'it will get better,' but I do believe it will. In my life I have found that I have been through times that I thought would never end, but they do and things do get better.

Hang in there and lean on us when you need to.
 
So sorry Nikki that you have been going thru so much this year. It's not been a good year for many of us. We've had lots in our life as well with layoff's, surgery's and to top it off losing my dog. I still tear up and have sleepless nights when I think of my Molly girl. So I know where you are coming from. I hope the tests come out okay and things start improving for you.
 
Wow.

Nikki - I know it's not easy what you are going through.

I'm sending :hug: and a hand for you to hold, should you need it.

The DIS family is always here for you, and I'm pleased to feel like your DIS family member.
 
Nikki -- I'm sorry you've been through so much over the last few months. I sincerely hope things turn around very soon. We're all here for you and wish you the very best. Hang in there honey! :hug:
 
My thoughts and prayers go out to you. I pray your pain will ease and that the prognosis you receive is a good one. I understand about your grieving about the loss of your pet. If I lost my dog (of 3 years), it would be...................extremely upsetting to me and you had your pet much longer.
Hopefully time will ease the sorrow you feel for the loss and you will be able to smile when you think of her. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Bannermouse
 
Hey BFF,

Please know that I continue to think about you all the time and am here for whatever you need. I know I have told you this before but it bears repeating... We have little control over the hand we are dealt and your has stunk these last few month but it is what we do and how we handle these situation that makes us a stronger person.

You are an amazing, beautiful, caring, loving, strong person who is always there when others need them. You will get through this difficult time and come out that much stronger for it... even if you don't feel that way now.

Please keep your chin up and know that there are lots of people who care about you and that you have amazing support systems... even if you have not met many of us face to face.

Plus as Don said... there are the triplets to think about... You think life is crazy now... LOL

Luv You!!
 
Sorry to hear you are having a tough time at the moment :hug:

You must know that you have the support of all your DIS friends and there is always someone here to talk to when you need it !

Look after yourself xxx
 












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