Sleepless Knight
Jedi Knight Seeking His Jedi Princess
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Thank you. I really appreciate this. Training had been going fine and then I hit a setback. Paces that were once difficult, but doable suddenly became impossible. My calf muscles began to act up and I had to cut a planned run short, something I haven't done in a couple of years now. Combine that with other frustrations in life unrelated to running and I felt really down.NOPE! You may not quit, I will not allow it. You will regret it for the rest of your life. You will always doubt yourself and anytime you attempt it in the future you will pysch yourself out of doing it. Yes, it is an intimidating distance. It is 100% scary for probably everybody that ever tries it for the first time. I even contend it is scary for repeat runners too, it is hard. HOWEVER, you CAN do it. Look how many people do it every year and keep going back for more. Doing it at Disney is even better because there is so much around you to keep your mind occupied and the time and miles will pass, I promise.
Everyone has ups and downs in training. There are some fast people on here, @Wendy98, for example. Go back about 2 weeks and read her story of how she got there. She worked at it, she believed in herself, and she made it happen. I don't know if you use Instagram. If you do go follow run2pr. Her name is Amanda. She is a mother of 3. She started out like a regular person, out of shape and fully doubting herself. She's in her mid 30's and she is going to the Olympic trials next year. She is currently injured with a torn labrum in her hip. You would never know it by her messages. I am not saying we will all be able to run in the Olympic trials, however you are only limited by your mind. If you tell yourself you can't run the marathon, you can't. If you tell yourself you will finish no matter what, you will finish!!! Don't limit yourself. I am telling you that you can do this and if you don't believe me then do it for me because I can't be there this year.![]()
During training for my first half, I made a lot of mistakes. But I believe the biggest came from not telling anyone my fears about not finishing. I allowed those negative thoughts and feelings to fester inside of me. On race day itself those fears manifested themselves in starting out way too fast in an attempt to "build the cushion" and nearly resulted in being injuring myself and withdrawing less than 1 mile into the race.
I appreciate your thoughts as well. Heading into my first marathon, I'm determined to not repeat the same mistake I referenced above. So on here I try to be honest about how I feel. I think it does two things for me.+1
Thought about posting something similar but didn't. I agree 100%. Thank you @Waiting2goback for spelling it out so clearly.
1. I think expressing those fears and feelings somehow validates them. It also allows me to confront them and examine them instead of internalizing them and letting them consume me.
2. So many people here are so wonderful about sharing their successes and failures. And as I hoped, some would respond with encouragement and a heartfelt and sincere pep talk.
Speaking only for myself as you addressed at least part of your response to me, I needed it. I even told coach that I wasn't sure if I needed encouragement, a brief respite from running, to get out of my own head, or a swift kick in the rear.I was afraid to write it too. I am a very direct and blunt person so I was worried it would come across the wrong way but in the end I felt it was worth having people mad at me. : )
And honestly, I don't think it came across as too blunt. I interpreted it as encouraging with real examples of people who have overcome great difficulties in pursing their running hopes and dreams whatever those hopes and dreams are. And at least for me, the phrase "I will not allow you to quit" came across as don't give up because it suddenly got hard.
Will it surprise you to know that I usually throw in The Empire Strikes Back on the eve of leaving for runDisney events just to pump myself with the widsom of Yoda? But I truly appreciate the reminder. This whole week and the responses here have reminded me of something that became easy to forget.+1 here too
@Sleepless Knight , based on your previous postings and your Avatar, I think you should throw in The Empire Strikes Back, jump to Dagobah, and let Yoda take over
Yoda: "...Only different in your mind. You must unlearn what you have learned"
(shuffling around of an X-wing)
Luke: "I don't believe it!"
Yoda: "That is why you fail"
You're done stacking rocks, time to move an X-wing
This reminds me that I also need to add Bolt to the pump up movie rotation because of the sheer manic energy of Rhino the hamster from that movie. "Let it begin! Let it begin! Let it begin!"
"Destiny? I've been expecting your call."
Honestly, today I feel a lot better than I did two days ago. I truly appreciate the support and encouragment I get here. My non runner friends and family offer plenty of well wishes and encouragement. This community also offers those things and experience that has come firsthand.
I don't know what my marathon experience will be, but I will not quit. And knowing that so many people are cheering for me as they go about their own races or tasks of that day will help sustain me on the course.