that is EXACTLY like me

everyone at my work is like "ok kristyn, just stop talking about it"
i've been taking notes, reading CP blogs, aand this wait is KILLING ME!
but i've been trying my hardest to make sure i say "IF i get in.......etc"
but i'm just trying to have hope. i mean i dont want to look up any stats or anything about how many people get and whatnot, i'm just scared, but i already know i set my hopes high about it, and if i don't get in idk what i'll do, because its like i've wanted to do this for at least two years if not more. and in my time, that is A LOT, i really suck at the patience thing, lol esp. if its something i want....but either way
GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE! and once applications open up, we have to make sure to post and whatnot and see how everyone's app's and stuff went