paigevz said:I was that way Jay. When he was diagnosed, we thought positive and prayed and decided to have more time together..........we made some changes..........he got a new job so we could be together more. We took more family vacations.................
I'm sorry I'm not being that way now. I"m just not. It's just come to the point where the future isn't very pretty, and I don't want to go down that path, and I'm just being pulled down it. And I don't like it.
mom2taylorandemily said:Paige the anger and frustration you are feeling is normal, and I know you don't need me to tell you that. I also know you don't want us to tell you to be positive, because all that will do is make you madder at the whole situation. It is normal for you to ask, "Why Me?" and all I can say is that you may never get an answer for that, just do the best you can to keep your kids aware of what is going on, without scaring them. I do believe honesty is the best policy, but on their level. You might be surprised your kids will help you find the positive even when you can't find it.
jaycns said:Right now you can kick, scream, claw, smash things, cuss up a storm...whatever. Anything you feel is fine. Give yourself that permission...that is all I ask of you tonight.
We want to keep you here! 
Well said!!!jaycns said:Paige, you don't have to be sorry...and I wasn't that way when I was diagnosed...most people aren't. And nobody has to feel the way I felt...I just learned a hard lesson...and even if that is the only silver lining that ever comes out of it...it's a valuable gift. It's nothing I would think anyone would see as a gift "in the thick of things" but coming out the other end...maybe just maybe it gives you something good to hold on to!
Right now you can kick, scream, claw, smash things, cuss up a storm...whatever. Anything you feel is fine. Give yourself that permission...that is all I ask of you tonight.
jaycns said:Paige, you don't have to be sorry...and I wasn't that way when I was diagnosed...most people aren't. And nobody has to feel the way I felt...I just learned a hard lesson...and even if that is the only silver lining that ever comes out of it...it's a valuable gift. It's nothing I would think anyone would see as a gift "in the thick of things" but coming out the other end...maybe just maybe it gives you something good to hold on to!
Right now you can kick, scream, claw, smash things, cuss up a storm...whatever. Anything you feel is fine. Give yourself that permission...that is all I ask of you tonight.
Toot Sweet said:Hi girls. I went in to watch TV after I signed off earlier. I fell asleep and just now woke up! That was like 5o-6:00, something like that. Guess I was tired!

Let er rip honey, we are some pretty tough cookies around here!paigevz said:Well, good, but............some of what's in my head is not too nice. Don't want to scare you!
Me too, I wasn't going to ask, glad you did!Toot Sweet said:Sorry, Jay...I imssed it. What were you diagnosed with?

Okay...this is totally off topic...but I can't get it out of my head...I keep hearing the guys from Monsters Inc saying "We scare because we care"paigevz said:Well, good, but............some of what's in my head is not too nice. Don't want to scare you!
when I read that post.Good Night Tiffer!Tiffer said:Good night all. Time to hit the hay... talk to you inthe Am.
Well, I tell you what............I don't think mom better call about that party for a few days, because I'm just about to tell those people where they can stick their sodas.mom2taylorandemily said:Let er rip honey, we are some pretty tough cookies around here!
That sucks!!