KarenP99
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- Jan 14, 2004
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I am not a writer. Ill even go so far as to admit to you that I failed English in high school (which will probably become quite obvious). I apologize in advance for my bad grammar and inappropriate use of punctuation.
I like to think Im a scrap-booker, but since DD#1s baby book is almost done (now that shes 4 ½), and DD#2s and DS#1s are still wrapped in the cellophane that they were shipped in, I will admit that I am not the scrap-booker that I once imagined myself being. I had great aspirations of having beautiful books for the kids, and I will someday. I just get sidetracked and have a bad habit of perfectionism. I need to take my sister, The Meanest Mothers, advice and realize that done IS better than perfect.
What am I really good at? Creating and embracing vacation moments & memories. Unfortunately Im just really bad at journaling them in any form other than photographs. And even that tends to be a bit inconsistent. I love to go back through the pictures and recall the moments. I remember story behind each of them, but live in the fear that no one else will be able to remember the story and the great moments as I did. There is too much detail to journal in photo albums (especially since Ive already admitted I have way to much scrap booking to catch up on already). So Im going to put it down in a Disney Diary. Now although I consider myself a perfectionist, I am going to step outside of myself and just get it done. Not to get all morbid, but there is nothing like being a parent to awaken you to reality of living. I often have minor motherhood meltdowns. Just the awesome responsibility it is to be a parent, and the desperate desire to raise good, decent, honest people. Then the terrifying what-ifs creep into my mind. You see the terrible stories on the news every day. You want to shelter your children, protect them but at the same time encourage them to dream big, have courage, go places, do things. These meltdowns are typically just a few concealed tears, a proud, hopeful smile and big silent hugs to my kiddos.
It was at DSs one year checkup that I was talking Disney with our wonderful pediatrician. She was telling me about her father and that when he was dying he told her to take more vacations, that in essence at the end of life when youre looking back, those are the good times that you recall and cherish. Those words make perfect sense to me. Take more vacations. So knowing that vacations are what you look back on and recall, I looked back on my childhood vacations and wonder if the memories really were as good as I remember. My parents divorced when I was twelve, and my adulthood granted me more information about my family than I think I really wanted to know. There wasnt anything tragic or horrifying, but simply sad and disappointing that our family may not have been as perfect as I seem to recall. I now have to question if the memories that I had really were as good as I remember, or it was somehow just childhood innocence and protective parenting that candy-coated the truth.
So I want to put down on paper our familys vacation memories. I want my children to be able seep into my mind for just a few moments. I hope they will get a glimpse of just how much I enjoy being a mother to them, and rejoice in those moments that I hope will be looked back on as the best in our lives. I dont ever want my kids to have to wonder if these really were the good times. Yes kids, life is good.
I like to think Im a scrap-booker, but since DD#1s baby book is almost done (now that shes 4 ½), and DD#2s and DS#1s are still wrapped in the cellophane that they were shipped in, I will admit that I am not the scrap-booker that I once imagined myself being. I had great aspirations of having beautiful books for the kids, and I will someday. I just get sidetracked and have a bad habit of perfectionism. I need to take my sister, The Meanest Mothers, advice and realize that done IS better than perfect.
What am I really good at? Creating and embracing vacation moments & memories. Unfortunately Im just really bad at journaling them in any form other than photographs. And even that tends to be a bit inconsistent. I love to go back through the pictures and recall the moments. I remember story behind each of them, but live in the fear that no one else will be able to remember the story and the great moments as I did. There is too much detail to journal in photo albums (especially since Ive already admitted I have way to much scrap booking to catch up on already). So Im going to put it down in a Disney Diary. Now although I consider myself a perfectionist, I am going to step outside of myself and just get it done. Not to get all morbid, but there is nothing like being a parent to awaken you to reality of living. I often have minor motherhood meltdowns. Just the awesome responsibility it is to be a parent, and the desperate desire to raise good, decent, honest people. Then the terrifying what-ifs creep into my mind. You see the terrible stories on the news every day. You want to shelter your children, protect them but at the same time encourage them to dream big, have courage, go places, do things. These meltdowns are typically just a few concealed tears, a proud, hopeful smile and big silent hugs to my kiddos.
It was at DSs one year checkup that I was talking Disney with our wonderful pediatrician. She was telling me about her father and that when he was dying he told her to take more vacations, that in essence at the end of life when youre looking back, those are the good times that you recall and cherish. Those words make perfect sense to me. Take more vacations. So knowing that vacations are what you look back on and recall, I looked back on my childhood vacations and wonder if the memories really were as good as I remember. My parents divorced when I was twelve, and my adulthood granted me more information about my family than I think I really wanted to know. There wasnt anything tragic or horrifying, but simply sad and disappointing that our family may not have been as perfect as I seem to recall. I now have to question if the memories that I had really were as good as I remember, or it was somehow just childhood innocence and protective parenting that candy-coated the truth.
So I want to put down on paper our familys vacation memories. I want my children to be able seep into my mind for just a few moments. I hope they will get a glimpse of just how much I enjoy being a mother to them, and rejoice in those moments that I hope will be looked back on as the best in our lives. I dont ever want my kids to have to wonder if these really were the good times. Yes kids, life is good.