I can't even begin to scratch the surface of that answer right now!

Mostly, I feel much better on the lower doses of progesterone. I don't sleep (obviously) which sucks, I'm still sick but onlyfor small periods of time

banana: ), I'm losing weight like mad (which is fine for a while, but still frustrating), and I'm exhausted most of the time.
That being said, that's all great compared to the other crap going on! Prayers for this pregnancy are first and foremost in my mind. But I'm also going through some real heck at work, and questioning whether it's time to find a new job. That kills me, because my job was dropped in my lap as it could only have been appointed by God. It was absolutely PERFECT, and still has some really great qualities to it. But it effectively ruins many days, including yesterday.
And to add to that, I see my husband about 90 minutes every day for the last 8 weeks, and about the next 4. I always hate the life of a residency wife, but usually suck it up because it seems to pass so quickly with monthly rotations. But lately, they've all been back to back crap, so last night was the first night in - literally - 16 days that I was going to spend any time with Kyle. Well, after being on night float and being up since 4pm Wednesday, they called him in to clinic yesterday morning with no regards to a) the fact that he was "off" and b) the fact that he had just worked 15 hours. So he stayed up about 28 hours, but couldn't swing it any more by about 7:00 pm. So we had pizza and I ran errands and then played sudoku on my birthday evening that we had been anticipating so long!

(To be fair, Amy offered to take me out, but I refused to take her up on the offer.... poor Kyle already was trying to hard to make it "right"

) That all also makes it awfully hard for us to be excited (and, if I may be honest... haha ... it makes him very hard to be supportive when I freak out about things) and is putting a strain, albeit a small one, on the little bit of time we DO see one another.
So, there you have (some of) it!

My life effectively has enough little crap going on that I would be (and maybe am) going out of my mind, but I just try and eat a little bit and hope that a heartbeat or two on ultrasound will put it all into perspective in a few days.... and just try to hold it together until then.
I'm QUITE sure you didn't want that kind of answer, but it felt nice to vent!