disfanatiks
<font color=purple>Is pretty darn special<br><font
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Throughout this process I guess the one thing that I've learned is for one, I never want to go on another date as long as I live. I'm pretty much tired of dating at this point. I went into this whole process being a big skeptic. Thinking that I might meet one of 25 that I might be interested in maybe; I was very skeptical about it, but here I am. I'm engaged to Helene. She was just as big a skeptic as I was and it's blowing both of our minds. It's kind of freaking us out, but if it's meant to be, you go for it. If it feels right, do it. And that's what attitude you have to have in this process. I'm glad that I thought it was a risk worth taking, and I'm glad that she felt the same way because it obviously had an ideal result. We're two very happy people, and I look forward to getting to know her better and growing with her, and sharing my life with her.
Thank God this wasn't a situation in which I was just like, well, I'll pick the one I like more than anybody else. That's not it at all. I think that Helene and I are going to have a great time sharing our lives with each other. I felt like that when there were 15 women left. I mean, I didn't even know Helene, just based on what I did know of her I was extremely impressed, and that's really how this all played out. I didn't feel any external pressure to propose, and if it didn't feel right then I wasn't going to go for it, but it did. It is a leap of faith, it's a huge leap of faith, but what's life if you don't have faith? I'm at the same point in my life as Helene is and we're ready to share our lives with somebody. We have established careers, we've accomplished all these things, we've gotten all the partying out of our system you know? I think if any two people can make this work, it's Helene and I.
Do I think I misled anyone? It's likely that some of them might think that I misled them for whatever reason. I'm not sure why they would think that way. I feel like I did a pretty good job communicating what I was going through, and my thoughts and feelings with each one. I think that emotions were high after some of the rose ceremonies, so it is apparent to me some of them were shocked by the outcome.
Believe it or not, you do kind of grow close to people in this intense situation. I can't expect anybody out there to understand where I'm coming from because there's no way they possibly could unless they were in my shoes, literally. I was as big a skeptic as anybody, so was Helene, so its just been truly amazing to me how comfortable I am around her, and how close we have become in such a short amount of time. We feel like we've been with each other for a lot longer than six weeks.
Thank God this wasn't a situation in which I was just like, well, I'll pick the one I like more than anybody else. That's not it at all. I think that Helene and I are going to have a great time sharing our lives with each other. I felt like that when there were 15 women left. I mean, I didn't even know Helene, just based on what I did know of her I was extremely impressed, and that's really how this all played out. I didn't feel any external pressure to propose, and if it didn't feel right then I wasn't going to go for it, but it did. It is a leap of faith, it's a huge leap of faith, but what's life if you don't have faith? I'm at the same point in my life as Helene is and we're ready to share our lives with somebody. We have established careers, we've accomplished all these things, we've gotten all the partying out of our system you know? I think if any two people can make this work, it's Helene and I.
Do I think I misled anyone? It's likely that some of them might think that I misled them for whatever reason. I'm not sure why they would think that way. I feel like I did a pretty good job communicating what I was going through, and my thoughts and feelings with each one. I think that emotions were high after some of the rose ceremonies, so it is apparent to me some of them were shocked by the outcome.
Believe it or not, you do kind of grow close to people in this intense situation. I can't expect anybody out there to understand where I'm coming from because there's no way they possibly could unless they were in my shoes, literally. I was as big a skeptic as anybody, so was Helene, so its just been truly amazing to me how comfortable I am around her, and how close we have become in such a short amount of time. We feel like we've been with each other for a lot longer than six weeks.