OK guys, I am scared and would love all of your good wishes, prayers and hugs!
Some may remember my health scare in August, I mentioned it earlier on in this thread. (blood clots in lungs, emergency surgery for clot in arm, ICU because they couldn't get me off the ventilator, almost died, very lucky to be alive)
tomorrow I need a TEE (transesophageal echo). they shove a tube down your throat to look at your heart, they need to determine what kind of hole I have in my heart and how to fix it. I am TERRIFIED!


I am VERY claustrophobic, strong gag reflux and as a nurse who has been in procedures for patients getting endoscopies (tube down throat to stomach) I have seen way tooo much! the gagging and wretching and panic I see in patients has me over the edge. I AM SOOOO SCARED!!! I did ask for stronger anesthetics, so they will have anesthesia providers do the sedation vs nurse sedation. They can put you deeper. BUt still I am FREAKING OUT!
any good thoughts would be very much appreciated!
(I am also going to post this on the CB, I need lots of support!)