Stuck In This Cycle...

[Babyjustrun]

I've been stuck in this cycle. And it's horrible. I really can't stand it, I know basically it has to do with my age & that stupid word but I mean it's annoying.
It's kind of pathetic, I get excited over going shopping for clothes, come home feeling successful, and then the next day it just seems like one big well- waste of my life.
It's not just clothes, it's everything I do. I get very optimistic at nightime, and I'll say 'Oh, I'll do this and this and get up early in the morning and everything will be great.'
Morning comes around, and I'm out of it, and all I want to do is lay around in my pajama's.
It kills my life, because I end up spending a lot of time alone. I don't have many friends, because I'm shy and don't know how to act around other people. The same thing will happen, before I go to bed I'll say I'll be outgoing ot others and try to make friends, but in the morning I'm all lonely & shy again.

It doesn't make much sense, but it's just like I'm thinking & living in a dream world, but reality seems to crash in the morning.

 

[JulielovesDisney]

I kinda know what your feeling. I do kinda the same thing occasionally. Like I'll tell myself I'll do this and this tomorrow, then the next day I feel lazy and don't do anything. It's natural, I guess.

Maybe, set your alarm and have it play your favorite CD to get you energized so you'll be able to wake up and do all the things you want. And if you really want to change yourself a little, get some of your friends to help. Have them take you to parties and stuff like that so you can interact with more people and become more outgoing. I was the same, I was really shy around new people (I still am a little), but then I became good friends with different people and they just natuarally pushed me to talk to more people and become more outgoing.

 

[PhntmTllbth04]

I am that way too. My mom tells me to go out and hang out with friends. But somedays I just want to sit at home and watch tv. Not being productive at all. My brother and sister make fun of me because of it. I am a shy person. During the school years I love hanging out with friends at school but during the summer I don't see anyone from school because they live in other neighborhoods. I am really good friends with my neighbor and she's in my grade. We hang out a lot.

Try finding one good friend who lives near you and you can hang out.

 

[pacificnorthwester]

My sister cured me (slightly) of the apathy you're talking about. . .For the friends thing she forces me to invite a friend over to just hang out even though i'm PAINFULLY shy even when it comes to my friends(I can be out going and i have been out going but other then that i 'm pathetic.) and she mocked me relentlessly that earlier in the summer I would spend all morning into the afternoon in my pajamas infront of the computer, Now I walk with mom in the morning and I feel like I've been productive(even though I still spend the rest of my day in front of the computer. . . .) So really just try and hang out with the friends you have and practice being outgoing with them and for being productive. . .try doing ONE productive thing during the course of your day Like. . .the laundry or exercise and not set yourself up to fail by planning a long list of things during the lazy days of summer!

 

[Loves Disney]

My sister cured me (slightly) of the apathy you're talking about. . .For the friends thing she forces me to invite a friend over to just hang out even though i'm PAINFULLY shy even when it comes to my friends(I can be out going and i have been out going but other then that i 'm pathetic.) and she mocked me relentlessly that earlier in the summer I would spend all morning into the afternoon in my pajamas infront of the computer, Now I walk with mom in the morning and I feel like I've been productive(even though I still spend the rest of my day in front of the computer. . . .) So really just try and hang out with the friends you have and practice being outgoing with them and for being productive. . .try doing ONE productive thing during the course of your day Like. . .the laundry or exercise and not set yourself up to fail by planning a long list of things during the lazy days of summer!

That was a productive post...

 

[pacificnorthwester]

That was a productive post...

What is that supposed to mean?

 

[Mara]

Yep... that's me. Well, not exactly, but essentially it is.

I rely on the interent to keep me from being lonely. Well, then again, I have a very large family - so I rarely have problems with the house being lonely 'n' such... Anyway. I don't really have many friends. I have a couple, but I only see them a few times a month. Actually, I haven't seen either of them in over a month.

The first step, methinks, is to stop being hard on yourself for not.. sticking to your plan. Then take things slowly. I know, it is really hard to get out of the habit of going to bed late/waking up late. I used to stay up past midnight just 'cause I was afraid to go to sleep. Right before sleep is when I think the most deeply, it is then that I can no longer rely on distractions to keep me from reality.

Start something before going to bed... Then leave it waiting for completion in the morning.

 

[Sparx]

yeah, that was happening to me about a year ago. I finally just woke up and said "you know. screw it." and now I've been pretty much okay ever since.

 

[MuNkY]

Lmao. Welcome to my life.

 

[GirlWithSpunk]

yeah, that was happening to me about a year ago. I finally just woke up and said "you know. screw it." and now I've been pretty much okay ever since.

P.S. I'm like that too! I didnt know that people lived in this reality/dream world too!

 

[disneygalsdd]

It sounds like what i have been dealing with all summer....
Last year i did bad in school and this school year since im going into high school i decided i would get all a pluses and do alll my hw away from the tv,study for a test for hours and soon and so forth.I also dropped lunches and study halls to take more classes.But today i started think holy cow i am reallly setting my self up for failure and im freakin out!! Has anyone else set themselves up this year?

 

[Sparx]

P.S. I'm like that too! I didnt know that people lived in this reality/dream world too!

oh yeah. I reject reality and substitute my own.

 

[DDRManiac]

oh yeah. I reject reality and substitute my own.

simply an amazing response, becasue in all honesty thats thats the way you should live, in that the reality you choose should be your own, my idea of reality and anothers should be totally different so this dreamworld you talk of sounds to me like your reality so you just have to commit to doing what your reality is telling you and not the reality that seems normal....make your dreamworld your new reality, b/c reality can be unique so its up to you to change it and tweek it to fit you

 

[Dis-Wiz]

What is that supposed to mean?

This is Loves Disney under my sister's account.

Heh, I didn't mean anything by it...or did it?

At least nothing against you.

To put my $.02 in, the way I live life is...unplanned. I don't think about what I'm going to do tonight, tomorrow or the next day. It prevents disappointments and, well, it brings in the element of surprise! lol.

However, it does make school a hell of hard time to deal with...my gosh, they expect you to have papers in on one day and homework in the next....it's order, it's disorder...it's chaos...it's the only thing that keeps me sane! Heh.

I don't remember being the way you discribe yourself as. I've either cared or didn't care and that never affected me. If I didn't care to do one thing, heck I'll do another.

Procrastination...a beautiful thing, eh? It's the time during which you do nothing after anticipating you would do everything. It's the time where you have the ability to live spontaneously. Take it or leave it. If you leave it, aren't you doing what you planned anyway?

 

[CrazyChik]

i often get that im shy too unless im around my best friends then im just crazy if it is anyone i dont know that well(inluding some of my friends) i just sit there like a lemon im always going to bed saying i will do this in the morning andi wake up and i can never be bothered to