Beth:
Before I could start on your journal, I had to run out back and gather in my kitties. They are so good, they stay on the back patio and do not venture off. However, I just heard the hawk making noise as he flew over - a big redtail. He's gone after Tilda a couple of times, Jeff's hit him with the water from the hose at least once...still he's looking at our Tilda as his meal!
It got me to thinking, I'd do anything to keep my family safe. I'm not a big gun fan either, especially around children. My husband's guns are in the gun safe, locked up (I know how to get to them and use them) but I'm more worried about if they get into the wrong hands than either of us ever having to use them. I agree with you, a gun is not the answer. I have carried pepper spray when I was going to school at the University and when I worked downtown. We have it for hiking in the backcountry in Yellowstone...supposed to head off the grizzlies - but it is not something I want to test.
Being safe, means being aware of your surroundings and not putting yourself in harm's way (if that can be helped). You should not walk by yourself...go to a very public place and at least walk where others are walking or running. I prefer to walk outside too. But even in my neighborhood, if someone was out to harm me, there would be plenty of opportunity without someone around to see them.
Seeing someone who you can talk to is especially valuable. You need someone to be an advocate for you and can help you keep your family strong.
This is really terrible to even say; but I'm pretty sure that your instincts about PG's state of mind and anger towards you will not be of service for her in counseling. There will be an escalation of behavior. Something is bound to happen, sooner or later. Don't let the restraining order lapse. Make time to speak with the police in your area. (We had to do this when my niece's step mother was "slapping" her across the face, the local police would make sure that there was a presence in the neighborhood and it served as a deterrent.) Keep everyone involved with Katie's activities up-to-date with the situation. Bring a picture so that they can recognize PG and contact authorities.
I'm so excited that Katie is starting ballet and tap - I loved taking dance when I was her age (still do). All these activities are bound to keep her mind off the adult problems around her and watching her enjoy herself will hep you to relax a little too.
-Laurie
Many positive thoughts and prayers for safety and peace are coming your way.
Beth.
At least PG will be getting some help for the time being. 
I don't blame you one bit for being frustrated at the way The System handled things. I have said a prayer that you find the strength and peace you need right now.
But I don't like them, and I won't use one. We have agreed that I am not to go on anymore walks by myself, and I need to carry my cell with me at all times. We also have Victor who will continue to work on his dad and keep us informed.
Your FIL seems to want to be of no help but perhaps if his practice is threatened he will see it another way. It's a shame it would have to come down to blackmail but before I let anything happen to myself or my family I would do what I had to do. What does your attorney say? Would Won's brother be willing to give an affidavit about his mother's behavior? Maybe you could file something in a different court? Just some thoughts for you. I hope you can get a little rest tonight. Please take care of yourself.
