String's Atkin's Journal (Please Comment)

[DoeWDW]

Beth, here are more hugs for you! What a day you're having to deal with AND on your birthday, no less! I hope things get better in a hurry, girlfriend!

So sorry to hear about your doc appt. I hope you are feeling better soon - how difficult that procedure must have been without any Valium. I hope things resolve themselves within the 3 months.

In spite of everything else,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

You are another year older and another year wiser. You've been doing so well on your healthy living journey that I bet you're in better shape this year than last year on your birthday. Celebrate the changes you've made, Beth!!

and some special birthday pixie dust, Beth!

 

[LAinSEA]

And happy birthday too! (It's OK if you want to put off celebrating it for awhile though, I've put off celebrating some birthdays altogether).

My sister had to have a hysterectomy last summer at age 36. While it was very scarey and difficult for her to accept at the time, she now feels so much better.

Don't get discouraged, you know how much you've accomplished so far.

Sending you some sunshine to break up the winter blues!

-Laurie

 

[A1A1]

I hope things start looking up after these past few days. You have been so supportive to me, I just want to give you a hug and tell you it will all be okay. I think you are doing a spectacular job of managing all the stresses in your life right now. It is hard to have the physical concerns, the dieting, your demanding job, regular daily stresses, and taking care of your beautiful dd. I know her hugs and kisses will brighten every moment for you.

So sorry for what you went through today. Let's think very positively about the pill and it's potential benefits. Just hoping you will feel better.

Happy Birthday to you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will be thinking of you on your birthday and sending you lots of happy thoughts and good vibes.


Take it easy. I'll check in on you tomorrow. Have a good night and a great day tomorrow.

 

[Castillo Mom]

Beth, sorry to hear you're not feeling well, but give yourself a few days and I'm sure you'll be fine. Just take it easy and don't worry about the pill, just do the best you can and stay positive. Good night!

 

[A1A1]

WISHing you a wonderful day today!!!!!

 

[marsh0013]

aw beth, i am so sorry to hear about the awful day you had yesterday. big . you must be a real trooper to make it through such a procedure without pain meds! you are an amazingly strong woman, i know that you will be able to make it through this. i know it will be hard, but it will make you even stronger. i hope that you are feeling a little bit better and that today will be a better day than yesterday

 

[DoeWDW]

Hey, Beth, I hope today is brighter for you! Here's some extra sunshine , in case you need it.

I'm thinking good thoughts for you and sending them your way!

 

[Strings]

THANK YOU!

A1, Castillo Mom, Erin, Doreen, Laurie, and Marcia. Thank you. Your support has meant the world to me, and you really got me through a horrible day. Without you girls, I would have been lost.

Yesterday, I told Won to pick Katie up from preschool. He took her to an indoor playscape. I needed some time alone. I was all set to binge. I rationalized, Who could blame me? Then I thought, I would. I literally had the tollhouse cookie dough in my hands. Then I got on the boards and lurked. I read all of the posts to my journal, and I cried. If these wonderful ladies were behind me, I couldn't let them, or myself down. I put the cookie dough down the garbage disposal. I made a cup of tea. And I thought about what I want. I want to be healthy for my family and myself. To do that, I need to lose 70 more pounds. Yes, it will be an uphill battle. I will have setbacks and get angry, depressed and frustrated. But I won't feel those things everyday. I am stubborn Irishwoman. I can and will do this. Yes, the meds will slow things down, but I have a few days before I start them. I will make the most of those days. I may not be able to exercise, but I can stay positive and on plan. I'm not saying that things are perfect, but I'm a work in progress. So, thank you. You ladies are what WISH is all about.

I stayed on plan. We had roast, salad, snap peas for dinner. I did have 1.5 slices of the cheescake. I'm still under on my carbs fot the day.

Now, it's back to basics.
Breakfast: 1 egg, 2 slices bacon, a slice of lc toast (4 carbs) and tea.

I've had 1l of water, and I plan to drink 2 more. Lunch will be roast beef with swiss cheese and mustard. a small salad.
Dinner is chicken stugged with parmesan. spaghettisquash with low carb tomato sauce. Salad.

If I need aa treat I have LC ice cream.

Thank you again. Adn Doreen, A, and Marcia, thanks for checking on me this morning. I'll try to get to all of your journals soon.

Beth

 

[Strings]

I CAN SEE THE SUN!

I can't remember the last time the sun was out here in the frozen north. It is amazing how much better one feels with some sun. I've already done 2 loads of laundry. Busy day today. I need to do laundry, run to Michael's, get a nap, get ready for work, and work a 16 hour shift. I am planning on ham/cheese rollups, spaghetti squash, string cheese, and a sf jello for work.

I stayed on program yesterday. I even turned down a piece of cheesecake. I'll have a piece on Sunday. It might be low in carbs, but I don't want to think about the calories. We were pleasantly surprised by the spaghetti squash yesterday. It will definately go into the meal rotation, DH(doesn't like veggies) even had a second serving.

I've taken my meds and had .5liter of water today. Breakfast was 1 slice toast (LC), 1 fried egg, 2 slices bacon, and coffee with splenda. Actually, I only got 1/2 the egg. DD stole the yolk when I answered the phone. Need to kick up the water.

 

[marsh0013]

good morning beth! isn't that sun a wonderful thing? amazing what it can do for our outlook on the day!!

sounds like you have a busy day for sure. but you've got a plan laid out, and it looks like a good one to me!

i keep hearing all you low-carbers talking about this spaghetti squash. i've also heard that it's better for us ww also (better than regular pasta i mean). i may have to check that out . i am very proud of you for turning down that cheesecake, but also glad that you're allowing yourself a piece on sunday. i have a feeling sunday is going to be a tough day for many of us food wise!

i hope that you have a wonderful day today, enjoy that sun!!!

 

[Strings]

Shh... Don't tell anybody. I hijacked my bosses computer. I needed a WISH fix. I just wanted to post about yesterday. I stayed on plan. Meals were what I said they would be. Ended up having way too much coffee and tea, but I did also drink 3 liters of water.

Work was long, but actually rewarding last night. I had a good team on last night. I had a 91 year old patient, who had a dream that his dead wife was waiting for him. He changed his code status, called his daughter and told her about his dream. She came in and he gave her a kiss. He told her Dottie was waiting, and you know she's impatient. He went to sleep, and died within 45 minutes. Ok, anyone reading this may think it's weird or depressing. I get people asking me how I can work with people who are dying, and don't I find it depresssing. It's nights like that that help me keep doing what I do. I'm the one who dragged a resident out of bed, called an attending and 3 other docs. I' m the one who helped that man die with dignity, so I didn't have to pound on his chest and shock him. Last night, I didn't save anyone, but I made sure that noone suffered. Sometimes that is a much more important and humane thing to do. I did my job well. I just wanted to record what happened, so when I get frustrated with work, I can come back and look at why I am a nurse.

Hope everyone is doing well this weekend. Take care.
Beth

 

[CarolA]

Strings,
That is the sweetest story.

I worked for a company founded by the nicest man. When he died we were all sitting at work wondering if they had told his wife (she was in ICU at the hospital). They had, she passed on within a hour of his death. Their sons said they wanted to go together and be together just like they always had. It was so sad and so sweet.

 

[septbride2002]

Oh your post gave me chills! What a sweet story. My family joke that my Grandfather is the angel of death. We have had 5 family members on their death beds and each one has told us that Elmo (my grandfather) was waiting for them so that he could guide them to where they were going. And they had no fear. I've actually talked to my grandfather once but that is a wild and strange tale.

Just wanted to come over and say hello! and Congrats to sticking with your plan yesterday!

~Amanda

 

[Strings]

Thanks for posting to my journal Carol and Amanda. There are lots of unusual things that have happened to me. Sometimes, when I tell some of them people think I'm weird. Of course, that is true.

I worked 12hours last night. I've had way too much caffiene, so I'm still awake. At least I'm still on plan.
Breakfast(5pm) Wasn't hungry. Atkin's morning start bar, coffee water.

Lunch (10pm) We ordered frome TGIFriday's. We love that place. The owner was a pt. He delivers right to the unit and always adds some appetizers to our order. I had the atkin's salmon and broccoli. I also split the atkins wings with a friend. YUMMY!

Dinner (4:40AM) I had some roast beef, swiss cheese, 3 strawberries with marscapone cheese.

Today(9AM) Morning start bar and tea. I've had 4l of water since I got up yesterday.

I weighed in last night at the hospital. 231.5. I'm back to where (+.5#) I was 2 weeks ago. I was so worried after binging earlier in the week. I'm really happy with this number. Well, I'm happy it's going down. hope weigh in goes well for everyone. Have a great day.
Beth

 

[DoeWDW]

Beth, never doubt that you are a true hero. Your story was amazing. I am thankful that your patient had you to rely on and that he passed on without fear or discomfort. I am so heartened to hear that there are nurses like you, so willing to go the extra mile and do what is best for the patients, even if it means rousing a couple docs in the middle of the night (I've heard some of those docs can be a real pain in the tushie!!). You did a wonderful thing for that man!! Thank you for sharing it with us.

Now, please get some rest, OK?

 

[Strings]

Well, I dodged a bullet today. Psycho granny and I have the same bday. We celebrated with my inlaws today. My MIL insisted we go to her favorite chinese restaurant today for dinner. I was panicked. I had tuna salad for lunch. We got to the restaurant and I ordered Wonton soup. Don't panic. Theirs is really good. They make it with snap peas, mushrooms, scallions, bean sprouts as well as the wontons. I took the wontons out and gave them to Katie. I then had Chicken and broccoli, no MSG, cornstarch, or sugar. Sauce on the side. I used probably 2T sauce for the entire dish. It was edible. Definately my usual General TSO's. The waiter looked at me like I was insane, MIL told me not to be impossible. I just smiled and ate my broccoli. I had a piece of the lc cheesecake for my dessert. I am feeling much better now.

 

[Castillo Mom]

Hi Beth, touching story you wrote about your patient. I truly respect what you do. I hope that I have someone like you caring for me when it's my time.

 

[CourtasanSatine]

just stopping by to say hi

touching story,

 

[lulu201]

Beth, you've got me sitting here crying. What a beautiful story about your experience with your patient. You must feel proud to be a nurse.

You didn't think I was crying about your MIL story now, did you? No, that one had me rolling in aisle--whose birthday were you celebrating at your MIL's favorite restaurant????? Beth, you're a saint, girlfriend.

So what do you want to do with the clippie? After thinking about it, maybe you should be the one to decide how we play the Cheat Free Clippie game in February--after all YOU ARE THE QUEEN OF THE CLIPPIE!!!!!!! You did such a fantastic and awesome job this month. Beth, you have inspired me to turn myself around and get some serious work done on myself in February. Anyway, what do YOU want to do? Do you want to keep going from where we are or do you want to reset back to Day 1? However you want to play, I'm in.

Again, congrats, Beth, and thank you for letting us share the moments of your life through your journal!

Erin

 

[marsh0013]

beth, i'm with everyone else in saying that that was a really touching story about your patient. thank you for being such a wonderful nurse, and an even better person .

and great job with the chinese. too bad if your mil was being a pain, she can deal with it! you have to do what is right for you, and i'm glad you didn't let her pressure you into ordering something "easy". whatever. they take "special" orders all the time. i'm proud of you for standing your ground and having a delicious and on plan meal

hope you have a great day today