wendy - nothing like girl scout cookies in the deep freeze
, i could eat a whole box of thin mints in a week. i finally fed the last 2 boxes of trefoils i had stashed to the dogs before xmas. I haven't been "hit up" yet...laying low; hope to escape this year.
ps imo u have great willpower!
Thanks! You know, I've never been able to diet and lose weight. I've never been a small person. . . I was one of those chubby kids. Here's the thing though. . .it never seemed to matter in my life. I've got a good sense of myself; I always had HOT boyfriends (and hubbies. . yeah, dh is my 2nd and my forever); I never "saw" myself as a fat person. I turned 40 in December and it honestly changed my life. I was feeling really down and upset for several months prior to the bday. . I even cancelled a big 40th bash because I just couldn't deal with it. Then, one day, I just decided that it was time to take control. I couldn't change the fact I was going to be 40, but I could, by the grace of God, see this as a POSITIVE turning point in my life. It's THE thing that works for me. I'm very committed the the changes I've made and I can honestly say that, as of right now, I've not made one single bad choice regarding my diet. But see, I'm not on a diet because that indicates a person will change their eating habits for a short period of time. I have no interest in that because it's never worked for me. I have changed my life and decided that I want to be healthy for however long I have on this earth. I've never before had willpower, per say, and I don't know what to call it now. . other than real da*n hard! Today, I made chocolate chip pancakes for my kids for supper, and I have pms, and I was hungry while cooking. . . I wanted to rip something to shreds, then something else, then smash something twice but I was by gosh NOT GOING TO EAT ONE OF THOSE PANCAKES!! Yyuuuummmmm. . . fried chocolate. . .it was really, really, really hard and I wanted it, but there was really never a moment when I truly considered even taking one single bite. Over the years I've seen so many stories about people who have lost a great amount of weight and I was so envious. They always talked about THE thing that motivated them and now, I truly understand. I never could find my thing that motivated me. I just went through this turning 40 thing for months and it was a process that evolved to where I'm at now. I can't really explain it very well, but I feel even more committed than I did 2 months ago. I've come this far. . .lost 21 pounds. . . miss my favorite foods every day. . but I still pack my yogurt and fruit every single day and I fight the addiction every single day.
So, wow, I just had some serious insight or something, but that was way too serious and I'm done with that now. . . I'll think of a funny and be back
I want to go on vacation!!!! Oh wait - 56 days left 
...wish me luck!!!
