Sharon's Journal -150 here I come!

[sharoncity]

Hi All - I didn't post to my journal yesterday because I was just too disgusted with myself to bother. I am slowly getting back OP. When I don't see sustained results after only a month, I get pretty discouraged. But I think I am getting back on track. I reminded myself how I need to visualize how I want to look more often. And I definitely need to rethink some of my eating and exercise habits. I am not too sure what the answer is, but I am giving it thought.

Nothing new yet on the babysitting front. Kids have 1/2 day tomorrow. Don't know what I am going to do with them for that.

Terry - no need to worry that the WATP is too old for me. I just started with it this month. My problem is I need to actually DO the tape for it too work!!

Yesteday went fairly well. I was within my points, but too heavy on carbs. I am trying to focus on the fruit and veggies today. Also concentrating on getting the water in. It is a little easier this week because it is not as cold out.

That's the story for today. Hope everyone has a great Wednesday!!

TTFN - Sharon

 

[plutosmyfav]

Sharon!

Read this: http://www.skinnydailypost.com/archives/2005_01_30_skinnydaily_archive.html#001108

I found it really inspiring. I was going through a really tough time in January, constantly going over my points and feeling like my weightloss journey was over for me. I really got alot out of that reading. This journey isn't going to be perfect! And it appears, the ones who succeed are the ones who take the 'bumps" when they come and just keep going. So I'm trying to learn how to "bump" and keep going. Wanna join me?

I hope today is going much better for you

Sunny

 

[geetey]

Sharon,
Sometimes it is such a task just to find out what will work best. I know I am just focusing on staying on my points right now. Trying to keep my carbs down is just too hard for me right now. I know WATP works for me and I enjoy it. Perhaps WATP isn't right for you? Keep plugging away - we are here for you!

 

[Strings]

Sharon,

Getting back op is a great step. You are focusing on the babysteps. Points yesterday. Fruits veggies water today. You'll figure out the exercise that works for you. Keep fighting the good fight.

Take care,
Beth

 

[sharoncity]

Well, I did okay yesterday. Nothing phenomenal, but okay. I didn't get any exercise in. By the time I finally got home last night, it was 8:45 pm. Definitely no energy for exercise.

Today looks to be more of the same. Very busy, but eating okay. I actually feel a little queasy today, so I honestly haven't had too much to eat. I need to stay in this mind set for about 5 days straight!

Don't know if I'll get any exercise in yet again today. Michelle has dance from 6 - 8:30 pm. I have to run to the store for cups, plates and napkins which she just told me she needs for tomorrow. If I have time before I go back for her, I'll try to sneak in the WATP dvd. But I have been so tired in the evenings this week, I just haven't had the energy to do the tapes. But I am going to try to talk myself into it, because I know I will feel a lot better if I do it!

That's about it for today. I have a very busy weekend, but I'll try to check in tomorrow at some point. I hope everyone has a great weekend!!

TTFN- Sharon

 

[geetey]

Hi Sharon!
Just checking in on you. It sounds like I might need to pull that whip on next week. Just giving you a warning. I hope you pull that WATP dvd out. Just get in 1 mile. It can only help. I'll be back!

 

[Strings]

Hi Sharon,

Boy you are busy. I hope you managed to get your exercise in. Have a great weekend. What are your plans?

Take care,
Beth

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Sharon--hope everything works out with the babysitting stuff---

have a great week! "see ya" when i get back

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Sharon,

Thank you so much for the encouragement that you leave in my journal. I appreciate you!

Have a great weekend! Hang in there!

 

[sharoncity]

Hi All - I'm back. Sorry I haven't been around for a few days. Just WAAAAAYYYY too busy! Friday I was running around for school pretty much all day. Saturday saw Michelle and I at dance competition from 7 am to 11 pm! It was an extremely long day. Michelle did okay, she would have liked to score better, but I keep telling her it is only her second year. Yesterday I tried to catch up on cleaning, laundry, housework..... I got a lot done, but not near enough! Today looks to be just as crazy as all the other days. Work, Science Fair set-up, dance class, homework with Bobby.

I have not exercised since I don't know when. I am not making ANY progress with my weight loss. I think it is due to my lack of exercise. But I just can't seem to fit it in. I know I should do it instead of sitting on the couch and watching TV in the evening, but by then I am just plain beat! I do all the running for the kids activities because DH is always at work, so doing it after work is just plain out of the question. That leaves mornings and late evenings. I get up at 5:30 am now. To do it in the morning like I talked about last week would mean getting up at 4:45 am. Can I honestly do that consistently? I don't know. I have to do some real soul searching here to come up with a solution to this dilemma. When I signed up for Curves, it looked like it would be simple to get there 2 times a week and with a little push, 3 times would have been possible. Now, 1 time is a push, let alone 3 times!!! I need to learn to make myself a priority. I know this, but it is still very hard for me. If I make myself a priority, I would have to say no to the kids for their stuff. They are good kids who study hard and deserve to be in activities. We have no other kids in our neighborhood, so that is their socialization as well. Ohhhhh, I don't know, I don't know........

Food has been so so. I was feeling pretty queasy Thur and Friday and ate next to nothing. Sat, at dance competition, we went out for lunch, which was also my dinner since that was it for the day. No snacking either that day. I was down to 181 on Sat morning. This AM I was back up to 184. UUGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!! I get soooo mad and then I just want to !!!!!! Yesterday, I ate too much, but the foods weren't too bad. No sweets, maybe a little too heavy on the salt (chinese food - ) I am back to trying to be good today. But I'll be honest,when I see NO progress on the scale, it is very hard to keep my focus.

Maybe if I just take it as this one week. For one week, I will stay OP with my food. I will worry about next week, well, next week. I'm just going to think about today and this week for right now. I can behave for one week. That is easy! That banana isn't going to be so happy soon - I'm going to be eating lots of his friends this week!!!!

Alright, that's enough of my rambling for today. Thanks for listening!!

 

[septbride2002]

Okay 1....2.....3 BREATHE! It is going to be okay! You are a busy busy woman! But ya know what - you deserve to make yourself a priority. Your kids are good kids and you do everything you can for them but taking 30 minutes of time 2 times a week for yourself is not going to kill them or their socialization. I think you are letting mommy-guilt get in the way of your exercise. Talk with your husband - see if he can give you 30 minutes one week day night and also Saturday mornings - this is not a lot to ask and that gets you to Curves 2 days a week! But most importantly is that you need to NOT make yourself feel guilty over being able to go to Curves and also when you are not able to go to Curves. Guilt never got anyone anywhere!

~Amanda

 

[pettyone]

Maybe if I just take it as this one week. For one week, I will stay OP with my food. I will worry about next week, well, next week. I'm just going to think about today and this week for right now. I can behave for one week.
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You can do it!!!

 

[Strings]

Hi Sharon,

Sometines you need to take things one week at a time, or a day at a time, or an hour at a time. Do what works for you. Chinese food has an INCREDIBLE amount of sodium. Reweigh yourself tomorrow. You will be retaining water today. I have one word for you woman, WATER!!

You can do this,
Beth

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Sharon,

I think your idea of taking it one week at a time is a great idea! I may join you in that because I am now weighing myself on a weekly basis.

Maybe try to fit some "me" time in this week. It can be something simple like curling up with a good book, watching a great comedy, or my personal favorite, Disney dreaming. (By the way, if you don't have it already, the WDW planning DVD is an awesome way to do some Disney dreaming! The new one is so cool! )

Take care, Sharon!

 

[geetey]

Hi Sharon!
I know that Mommy craziness you are talking about. It's hard to say No, especially when the kids work so hard. Here's a thought though... maybe you could challenge yourself to exercising (walking) for 10 minutes. Just 10 minutes. Now that wouldn't be too hard, would it? A simple break at work. Maybe while you are waiting for one of the kids to finish up at one of their activities. Now, if you could do that three times in one day, you have your 30 minutes of exercise! And you get the same health benefits of doing it in one shot. Your weight loss may not jump in a huge way, but it will help.
Just a thought.

Just take things week by week. You know the only way to eat an elephant is one bite at a time.

 

[sharoncity]

Thanks everyone for all your encouragement! You guys are the greatest!!

Amanda - Unfortunately, DH really can't help with the kids activities or giving me time for Curves. He works retail, closes the store at 7:30 pm, which means Curves is already closed. He also works every Saturday, 7:00 am to 6:30 pm, so that is out too. We are used to the schedule (its been this way for 20 years), but it doesn't help with any "me" time.

Beth - I looked like one of these yesterday cuz I drank so much water!! And I thought of you every time I filled my cup!

Tracy - Yup, I am definitely just concentrating on this week for now. For 1 week, I can do this. And If I see results, that will help to encourage me for the next week..... The "me time" thing, well that just ain't gonna happen for me, hehehehehe........Kids do get easier as they get older, but in some respects it definitely gets harder. And I am one of those moms who likes to be there as much as possible. I figure there will be plenty of "me time" when they are off to college and I'll be missing them like crazy!!!!

Terry - I loved your elephant comment! But, I also really like your idea of just sticking in extra steps whereever. It is not the perfect solution, but it is something I can focus on for now. Thanks for the reminder!!!

Today I'm off to a good start. I had Honey Nut Cheerios for breakfast and that seems to have really filled me up. I brought yogurt, carrots with ranch sauce, strawberries and a lean cuisine for today. Don't know if I'll eat it all, but it is there if I want it.

Todays schedule has me at work till 5:30, then pick up kids from my grandmother's (still no babysitter ), quick dinner of I don't know what and be at school for 7 pm for Science Fair Awards, back home around 8:15. Again, I will be honest and say I won't have the energy to exercise by then. But I am going to try to get some extra steps in here at work today. Maybe a quick trip up one set of stairs, across the building and then back down the other side. It is certainly not much, but it is steps, so I'll do what I can.

Thanks again for the reminders, encouragement and ideas. You guys are wonderful!!

TTFN- Sharon

 

[Strings]

Hi Sharon,

I hope you are relaxing tonight after that incredibly busy day. I am sorry that you are still having problems with childcare. Good job getting in some exercise at work.

Have a good night,
Beth

 

[wilderness01]

I hope your child care issue works itself out soon. Take care.

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Sharon,

I hope you have a great day tomorrow! I also hope that you find a workable solution for child care soon too. Take care and hang in there!

 

[Strings]

Hi Sharon,

I hope you had a good day.

Take care,
Beth