The last couple days were really strange. I had felt like I was getting it together, getting my home/life cleared out and organized, things seemed to be settling and moving in the right direction. Then it all fell apart and a feeling of chaos took over. I think the trigger was two things - the forest fire smoke and the situation with my Brother both brought things in to my house, which I have been able to maintain as a sanctuary.
Today I start putting things back together. This is recycle week, so the cardboard in the basement gets taken out, then I start piling things up for the next run to GW. On the family front, I was planning on taking the first week of October off but my SIL said she wants to go to Long Beach for my Brother's birthday, 10.27, and do a ashes sprinkling and eat dinner at their favorite restaurant, so I'm changing my vacation dates and going at that time to be with her, plus my Sister is planning on going. My Niece figured out what she's comfortable doing for Thanksgiving, we're going to order food in, individual meals so there's no risk of cross contamination, and eat outside. My Sister and I have 10x10 canopies and they have a nice covered deck, plus a fire pit. I'm actually really looking forward to an out-of-doors meals, even if the weather is crappy. Christmas my Sister will still have to figure out... we had talked about going out to dinner Christmas Eve, but the other food/meals are going to be a challenge.. maybe everyone brings their own snacks and we eat out again or order in.
There was some pretty rough play going on yesterday, I did separate the kittens a couple times but for the most part I believe it's up to them to work things out and set boundaries. This morning is much calmer, so they've either worn each other out or settled a few things. I think they are a good match, and when they are grown they will kind of look like they are from the same litter... fluffy and mottled coloring, even tho one is dark and one is light.
My motivation this week is the "what you think is what you manifest", working on turning my thoughts around to where I want them to be.