Im going again! Relationships!
I cant understand people who say you should wait to have sex before you're married. I have seen MANY realtionships and marriages, break up because their sex drives were very different, and it became a dealbreaker.
I think the people that say 'Wait till your married' Probably got married young, probably were forced that idea because of their faith, and some of them are now trapped in a marriage they hate because of they got married too young, and are trapped because of their faith.
I cant understand people that are strict with not living together before marriage. People are just different when you live together. I think practice runs are important.
Those two things right there are too old-fashioned for me. Those ideals were created in a time when women were expected to marry at 14, and start producing children and completley obey their husbands. Not to mention. What if I never get married? I dont know if I want to get married. The divorce rate is so high. So i should just die a virgin, dating someone who lives across town? I dont think so. Plus, you dont see any 35 year old single virgin women saying....Yep.. im waiting till im married. because its a sacred act. I say, wait till you're in a commited relationship, and you love the person.
I hate how confident and cocky I've become. To deal with the last year of my life, I have gained so much confidence in myself that i am cocky. And somewhat of a know-it-all. But I feel like, if I dont toot my horn, who is going to? I need to have faith in myself before I can ask someone else to have faith in me.
I hate that Im single. I like being so close to someone that you can call and tell them asinine things, and they can do the same.
I like and miss falling asleep in someones arms and feeling so very safe.
I hate that im a better friend and girlfriend then most of the ex-boyfriends and friends I have. Im just very caring and giving.
I hate that while my dad likes Disney, he makes fun of me for how obbsessed I am with it.
I hate that I'll probably never be able to afford to have a disney wedding.
I hate that i'll probably never be able to afford to stay at any deluxe resort concerige.
Im sad that, one of the only things Ive ever wanted to do, was kiss someone I love during a fireworks show at Disney, and all my exes havent liked Disney.
I hate feeling lonely
I hate that im moving out ALONE. As a single girl, into a one bedroom apartment. I know i'll be more lonely then I am now.
I hate money more than anything. It complicates every aspect of my life.
I think its funny that I cant HEAR Ariel singing or talking without crying.
I thinks its even funnier that I am articulate in life, but when I get around boys I think are cute, and Disney Princess's I have nothing to say, and im frozen in fear.
I wish my relationship with my father was good, and"Normal".
I hate when people tell me - 'dont worry, he's out there' What if hes not? What if there isnt someone for me? What if im doomed to roam the planet alone, like the incredible hulk?

Its possible.
I hate hate hate when I tell people how old I am, and they tell me 'Ohhhh you're too young to think about marriage and settling down, enjoy your life!" People dont understand that i HATE dating, and would rather just already be with someone then have to go on dates and meet people, and play the 'does he like me'? game.
Im very picky when it comes to who I date. EXTREMELY picky. One time I left a date early because the guys glasses were horribly smudged, and I thought 'Ew. If he cant take care of his glasses, hows he gonna take care of me?'
Jeez. I have issues....

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