Well, I've been doing a pretty crappy job this week. It was my first week at work, and I worked five full days in a row, so I've been tired. I realize that's normal for most people, but this is the first time I've had a full time job, and it's up on my feet all day long and dancing for part of it. Anyway, I'm enjoying it and having a good time so far. And no, I didn't get the higher position that I originally applied for- a friend of mine who has worked there for a long time decided at the last minute to take it, so I was just offered a full time performing position, which I took. However, this same friend was a step above the rest of the entertainers and now that she's moving up, that position will be open, and I don't know when they will be looking to fill it (they might not right away), but when they do, I think I will apply and get it. The only other girls who I think would be possibilities are part time, and I don't think they can get it being part time.
Anyway, like I said, I haven't been doing a very good job with my diet and exercise, but I'm ready to get back on track! The past few days I've been back up to 140, which sucks for me, but I think that if I can have a few good days then I'll be right back where I started. I should have another day off on Tuesday or Thursday and I'll go grocery shopping then so we have good choices at home.
It's hard to work at this job because most of the other girls are more in shape than I am, and some of them are pretty thin. So I'm definitely feeling the pressure to lose weight! It's hard for me to stay motivated because I want to look good as a performer, but I won't be a performer for much longer, and when I'm at home with kids I probably won't be so concerned about being really thin or in shape as much. I feel like by the time I get to where I want to be it will be time to stop performing and be a mom. Well, I still want to lose weight, so I'm going to do it, regardless of what happens in a few months. I need to not equate having children with giving up my performing career. I won't be able to do whatever I want for periods of time, but even with kids, I could be in a show every once in awhile, so I should definitely stay in shape. I'm also getting to an age where a lot of parts are going to be available to me. I'm still young enough looking to be able to play teenagers, but mature enough to play adults, so I need to take advantage of that.
Well enough rambling, let's get on with my poor habits:
Thursday: overall rating-
1. had one soda with dinner
2. probably ate around 1500, maybe more
3. some apple slices, caesar salad, and some corn on the cob
4. didn't overeat or eat when I wasn't hungry, just ate the wrong stuff
5. bought vitamins, but didn't have one on this day
6. no strength training
7. no running, but some dancing for cardio
8. stretched a little at work
Friday:
1. no soda!
2. ate way too much (went to chilis for dinner and splurged)
3. a few pieces of celery
4. ate more than I needed!
5. had a vitamin!
6. no strength training
7. no running, but danced a little
8. stretched a little at work
Saturday (today):
1. a little bit of soda at work and one for dinner
2. ate chilis leftovers, so not necessarily good stuff, but didn't overeat, probably around 1500 calories
3. some veggies in my eggroll
4. ate when hungry, plus a little bit of goodies after work which were given to us by the kitchen staff
5. had a vitamin!
6. will do 200 crunches before bed
7. no running, but danced in a show which was good hard cardio for 20 minutes
8. will stretch before bed
I think I started on Monday, so after tomorrow I will do a summary of how I'm doing and I may reorganize my goals to be able to focus on some of them more. I really want to crack down because I still don't feel like I've been strict with myself at all yet, so I need to get down to it!!! Tomorrow is the start of actually trying for me!
