Jedi Knight Seeking His Jedi Princess
- May 15, 2008
Remember this. We train not only to build our endurance up to the distance of our race, but also to learn what works really well for us and perhaps more importantly, what does not work at all for us.2 Little and very dumb mistakes kept me from running yesterday.. I wanted to run so bad too. I even jogged a little on a dog run but instant pain set in. It was 55 degrees and Sunny!! The most perfect weather but nope. I had to procrastinate and push myself way beyond what I ever should have done... kicking myself!
Don't beat yourself up too much. You went out there and did it. It's too easy to say I'll do it tomorrow and before too long, you've been saying I'll do it tomorrow for 3 months.Not my proudest moment.
I know we say it all the time and it can often begin to feel like a cliche, but it remains true. Trust your training. And especially remember that coach is seeing the big picture. Sometimes he has to bring me back to the reality of where I'm actually at instead of where I wish I was. His constant reminders to me about how to approach my goal race paid off perfectly on race day itself. Consistency will carry you to success.My magic mile was 13:05. I should be around 12:44 and since it was my first MM and I started out a little too quickly, Coach Billy thinks I’m just where we thought I’d be. I was initially disappointed. I’ve been feeling so strong recently, I was upset that there wasn’t actually any improvement. However, now I’m feeling a little better. It doesn’t matter that I haven’t actually made any speed improvement, the important thing is that I feel strong. Coach Billy also told me that the first little bit of the plan was just focusing on fundamentals so I really wasn’t supposed to make huge gains.
I hear you, I see you. I understand you. This year motivation has been tough. Training has been a chore although my recent race experience was fun...likely bc it was not on a treadmill. And like you I had a lot of big goals recently mixed with just being an adult which is stressful enough by itself.Long post alert!
Hey! How ya been? You been running? That makes 1 of us. What started off as a few scheduling conflicts, has turned into a complete lack of motivation and me rage quitting my plan. I’m probably not going to do my 10k or Half Marathon any more..,
The trouble is that, I honestly don’t know why I’m struggling so hard. My diet has gone completely out the window and where I had almost lost 10 pounds I’m not back to where I started at the beginning of the year.
My last run was only a mile and it was an attempt to bring motivation back to me, but my feet have not stopped hurting from that one mile. (2 weeks ago) It’s not extreme pain, but it’s there. When you add on me not wanting to get injured (although it kind feels like I already am somehow) with my already low levels of motivation…. It’s not pretty.
I’ve also rage quit all my other challenges this year. My husband and I haven’t paid anything extra towards our debt and our google calendar that had our lives organized and planed out hasn’t been updated for over a month.
I think I piled up too much on my plate and tried to attack each and every area with the exact same amount of enthusiasm and then I burnt myself out quickly. So my husband and I sat down and made a list of everything we think is important to us and listed our priorities in order of most importance. They are kind of personal, but that’s never stopped me before, so here they are in order:
1. Good Health
2. Trained Dogs
3. Maintained House (like a reasonable level of organized)
4. A Yearly Vacation
5. Functioning House (AKA Getting our Basement Fixed)
6. Monthly Experiences (think day trips and long weekends)
7. Self Care
8. Spoiled Dogs (Don’t Judge! LOL)
9. Nice Things for Our House (decorated and stuff)
10. Good Quality Food (eating out twice a week or cooking fancy new things)
11. Being Debt Free
12. A Beat-up Pickup Truck
14. Another Nicer Car
15. Kids (not necessarily having them but being ready for them)
I was actually fairly surprised that our Health was number one on the list. Neither one of us go to the doctor ever, but I think that as we were comparing the things it just seemed like a no brainer, obviously Good Health is more important than a truck or food or nice things. We certainly aren’t living in a way that reflects this list. If I’m being honest, I think it would be right above kids, and that’s just because I’m more terrified of kids than a doctor right now.
I have to say that typing this out is actually giving me a revelation into what’s happening inside my head. One of the reasons I’ve been struggling so much is because last year running took up so many of our resources. Our money, our time and our vacations were all planned around what race I was doing that month. It was all I ever talked about. I was obsessed. So This year, I promised my husband I wouldn’t do a race every month because that was too expensive. I’ve felt so guilty that this year we’ve already had to buy new shoes, new tights, new sports bras, a case of GUs, AND start saving for a trip to Disney just incase I managed to get myself where I needed to be for the big ole 26.2. None of those things are cheep!! To be honest, I’ve known that I need to go to a doctor since the 3rd week of this plan but I’ve been lying to myself. And I now I think I was denying it so hard because it’s going to be expensive! I kept saying “oh I just need new insoles.” Or “I just need to foam roll my feet more.” I thought our biggest priority was getting out of debt, so I felt so guilty that we were spending so much on this thing I could technically do for free. I was also trying not to talk about it so much. I’ve been trying to only bring it up a few times a week instead of daily… I’ve been trying to down play it so much that I actually down played it.
I shouldn’t feel bad about any of that! According to the aforementioned priorities, we are both in agreement that our health is #1. Also, my husband never once complained at all about me talking about running. Not a single time. What the F was I thinking?!
I feel really dumb now. I need to email Billy and make an appointment with a PT yesterday!
Okay! It’s been a few days. My appointment will be on 4/4. Don’t give up on me just yet. I’m not running until after I meet with the PT, but I am going to break out the ole 21 day fix on my run days. I feel like I’m back! I haven’t even been for a run yet but this was a huge break through and I feel rejuvenated and mentally ready to run my butt off!