I'm so sorry, I feel so bad for you! ((HUG)) My precious Louise (white, long-haired indoor cat) is about 7 years old and already I'm dreading the day when I don't have her anymore. She is such a loving cat, and I never had one of those before. She will jump into my lap almost any time I'm sitting down, and she especially loves it when I have a blanket and pull the top part down to cover her up. She purrs constantly, follows me all over, and she simply adores my husband's feet. When he gets home and takes his shoes off and sits down, she's right there wanting him to rub her back with his feet....it's so funny! Our pets are almost like children...hard to let them go....