Renee's daily journal.....comments welcomed

[wiskband]

thanks you guys........... wowo today would have been a great day to cheat.
Although, I never write too much about my personal life, I have to vetn even if no one is listening. I am so angry that I really did feel like cheating and I was always one to think that my emotions did not affect my eating habits....that is wrong.

The beginning........I have coached my daughter for the past 3 years in playing softball, and I have had the same team of girls in those years. This year we have a new president of the league who I believe does not like me. Anywho I signed up once again with the other parents that usually helpme out and we all signed up to coach. Tuens out they had the draft with out any of us being present and divid up the girls. They gave these teams to 3 woman who signed up as "MANAGERS". Well my fellow coaches and I were so angry, not only did they not give us a team they seperated all the girls this year! So me being the strong one called the president adn was outraged and told him I wanted my money back, he agreed. I then got in touch with another league close by and spoke with the person in charge. He said he does not have room but if I provide 6 girls he would give me 6 of his and I would have a whole team. So my fellow coaches who are a mad as me say great we'll move to that league. Until, someone from the previous league called us and was so apoligetic about everything, he convinced one of my coaches to stay with them. So...now I don;t have enough to start another team and everyone who was gonna follow and was as mad as I was as decided that if I can;t start this team they will simply stay put!!!

Except I can;t now because, I not only burned my bridges by saying I am leaving the league but i absolutley HATE the woman that drafted my kid! I mean I hate her morally ethically in every way!

I took a stand and they said they would follow and now have backed down. I understand they just want there kids to play but so do I, and I can't now. I am having a hard time finding another league for my daughter alone and am so completely frustrated. This has literally brought me to tears! I came so close to binging but I hit the computer first!
I seriuosly, do not even want to talk to these people anymore. Worst of all my kid will pay the price! her friends are here and I thought her friends were following but there not!
I can't help but to be brutally honest and say I am just so bitter at this whole situation. i ultimatley just feel really bad for my daughter.



Anyway.......... now that I have vented,
(B) one egg bacon cheese on atkins
(L) 3 slices of salami and cheese rolled up No bread.
(D) YES another subway cx wrap! I ate one bite of a cheese burger (No bread) dont like it with out the bread
And ate about half the cheese of a pizza!
had my atkins peanut butter cups!
Regular water and my coffee but no exercise.


til tomorrow
renee

 

[Desiree]

Renee I'm so very sorry to read of all this. You obviosly love your daugther very much and I'm thinking that if I were in that same situation I would have done the exact same thing. The new league, can they not squeeze your daughter in somewhere? I'm sorry that she will miss out on playing with all her friends. How does she feel about the situation? Does she want to try to get on a league somewhere else?

My daughter is on a new team this year too. But I think she'll make new friends fast.

Sending you lots of (((HUGS))) and pixie dust

 

[DoeWDW]

Renee, I'm so sorry to hear about your dilemma. Hopefully all will work out for the best in the end. Maybe you can get your daughter on another team in the league you are unhappy with. You might want to call around to some of the other team coaches & see if they've got a slot for her. That way, she can still play but you don't have to deal with the person who the league decided to put her with. Just a thought....

I'm proud of you for turning to the computer instead of turning to the food. That took guts and willpower!

Hang in there, Renee! Sunnier days are coming!!

 

[ZerasPride]

Hi Renee,

I wanted to catch up with you and I see you have so much going on in your life. It is a wonder to me that you can even think about staying on plan. Good for you for making such a great effort though!!!

I am so sorry about your daughter - both the health issue, which I hopes turns out on the positive side for her - and the team sports issue. I absolutely HATE it when I stand up for what I know is right and people say they are going to back me up and then don't. It's so frustrating. Again, good for you that you aren't medicating yourself with food. I hope things improve soon.

 

[marsh0013]

hey renee, i'm so sorry to hear about the horrible softball situation. that really stinks. amazing what some people will do when they get into power...really can go to their heads. i hope that everything works out okay and that you can find a league for your daughter to play in. i know it was hard, but i'm so proud of you for coming to the computer and your wish buddies instead of grabbing for the food! that is so great, and a definite change from what you would have done in the past

hope your'e doing better today, i'll keep you and your daughter in my thoughts

 

[wiskband]

OMG! I cant even believe any of you read that! You must think I am a nut job even writing that,but truth is, I like use this thread as my venting mechanism and well......... thanks for even reading it.....lol.
anyway, that whole situation worked out! Turns out there were many others who did not like this leauge and I found myself organizing a team with all my old players and we found a leauge that will aloow us to play! So the whole team is back together!


About the eating.......you may notice my cheat fre is gone. I did not do so well this weAkend! In fact I did horrible! Started out good in the Am's then went downward,
Friday

(B) one egg scrambled with chees and bacon.
(L) Buger King... whopper with no bread but 6 fries and 4 onion rings literally (yes I counteed them)! Inthe eveing I had yet another low carb wrap from subway. then about 9 in the evening I ate 4 oreos and a ring ding! UUUUUGH!

Saturday

(B) none
(L) out with my frind and the kids we hit friendlys.......
chicken sandwich no bread but fries and mahed potatoes!!
and then the sundae I split with my son.
(LATE NIGHT)
we ordered from fridays.......
potatoe skins nachos and wings not to mention the wine we had with that! UUUUUGGGGH again.

Sunday
(B) 2 eggs fried bacon and atkins bread.
(L) not really a meal but a few nachos with spinach dip and a few oreos.(D) mickey dee's yup! I went he whole dum way of thinkg......I screwed up already may as well go nuts onthe way home I ate a hershey bar. I completely ruin my cheat free and went over board.

BUT.........
tomorrow I start all over again this time I am going for a 7 day cheat free....... I did my 5 days and this week will do 7.
I did however jog 2 miles yesterday.

I feel a good week coming on.

In all honesty, I really dreading having to come back to the journals and revealing allt his but. I vowed to tell the truth and will do just that. Withh that ill write again tomorrow. The first day of my 7 day cheat free.

renee

 

[marsh0013]

aw renee, i'm sorry that you feel like you dread coming to your journal to post your slips ups. but i hope that you realize that we are not here to judge you or tell you you screwed up, and that we genuinely don't feel that way! we are here to support you and to help you get right back on track! i'm so glad to see that you are putting last week behind you and starting anew. 7 days cheat free - you can do it

and i'm so glad everything worked out with your daughter's softball! that's great to know that there were others feeling the same way, you definitely were right to stick to your guns

this is the beginning of a new and wonderful week, hope it starts out with a great day today

 

[Desiree]

I'm so glad to hear that everything worked out with your daughter and the whole softball bit. I'm sure she's excited that all her friends are back with her too. WTG with sticking to your priniciples.

Today is a new day and you're off to a great start. I know you can do it! 7 days cheat free. I want to try that myself!

Have a healthy and happy Monday!

 

[wiskband]

Hi all and thanks...........
was my first cheat free day! although, i didnt eat too good!

No breakfast......
(L) low carb Cx wrap.....(note to self) buy stock in subway
No Dinner........I know I know this is bad but seriouly no time to eat today.. organizing these team!
i did have a few pork rinds and 2 atkins peanut butter cups.


I jogged 2 miles on tread mill and drank all my water
drank 2 cups of coffee.

Till tomorrow......I will definitely eat better.
renee

 

[Desiree]

Well you did have a good day, but need to try to get more meals in girl!!!

 

[wiskband]

Hey all..........
today was day 2 of cheat free!

(B) one egg scrambled bacon and cheese on atkins bread and a diet snapple.
(L) 2 slices of salami and one slice of cheese..and a few pork rinds.
(D) steak and a salad.
(S) one atkins ice cream bar.
drank 100 oz of water and 2 cups of coffee.

I ran 2 miles on treadmill.

Till tomorrow.
renee

 

[Desiree]

Woohoo! I'm on day 3 of no cheats, so I'm right there with you! Sounds like you're doing so well with everything!! Keep up the good work!

 

[marsh0013]

hey renee, your cheat free days are going well, so far so good! i know that you can keep up this streak, i have so much faith in you

and you're doing a really great job getting in that exercise and water! running on that new treadie must be so nice, i'm jealous, i want one

hope day 3 of your cheat free challenge goes as well as the first 2 have!!! have a great day today

 

[wiskband]

Thanks des....... and marsh...
To be honest, I am surprised I could even jog 2 miles. May not be alot but never thought I could get that far.

Anyway, its late now, couldn;t sleep (took a cat nap this afternoon) so I got up was about to dip into those girl scout cookies I just got and then remembered, I never posted here tonight (in journals) so grabbed handfull of pork rinds (NO CARBS) and turned up the computer again. and here I am.

(B) one egg scrambled bacon and cheese on atkins and half of a snapple ice tea.
(L) one lsice of sugar free cheese cake and a cup of coffee.
(D) a big salad (romaine, parm chz, bacon bits and salami) with the other half of my diet snapple.
(S) a handful of pork rinds and a sugar free jello.

Drank a little more than 100 oz of water and about 4 cups of decaf.
I did not exercise today, I got a visit from TOM and its day one, I was real bloated and just seriuosly not feelingup to it.

Very eager that the scale will be under the 160 mark tomorrow. But if not its cool I know TOM may have something to do with that.

till then
renee

 

[marsh0013]

hey renee, great job picking the dis and pork rinds over girl scout cookies! that is always a good trade off to make

you're doing such a great job sticking to your plan, i hope your efforts show on the scale at weigh in tomorrow! but if not, i'm sure it's because of the bloat fairy, because you've been eating and exercising so well!

have a great day today, and good luck with weigh in tomorrow

 

[wiskband]

MARSH. them girls scout cookies are still scraming my name but, I havent gone near them. I ut them in the cabinet and the atkins shake has been takignthe place of my chocolate cravings!!!!!

DES............
please be sure to read the thread you began about jogging.

Weird thing is I got on line this evening to post a thread about jogging and there it was, also, I noticed another thread you mentioned coaching your daughter. I m thinking, we have alot on common.

Ok people............my best news of the year and probably the rest of my life is...........

My daughter (bean, age 5) has tested negative for cystic fibrosis.

for those of you who have read my previous threads, I wanted to keep you updated on this.

She had the 2 sweat tests and both were borderline, last week we went for genetic testing and I was told today that she is fine!

Ill tell ya, I really exhaled (after I cryed for about an hour)! I asked if I should investigate further into this and was told everything is fine!!!!

My older daughter (ANA, age 10) ( the softball player) things are going smooth, we got 8 girls together found another league ( they will give us the rest of the player).
and of course, my boys, who are just fine. AJ age 8 was awarde best math scores in class.

Andrew age 2, is doing fine as well, is anyone has checked out the web site posted at my signature, you will learn that he was born with a congenital heart disease called tetralogy of fallot.

He had his annual card. check up last week and they were very please with his progress.check out the site!!!!!!!!

Back to me.
(B) none ooops. got on the road ealry!
(L) at walmart the kids begged...Mcikey DEES.
I caved, not too bad I ate about 10 fries and had the remainding half of andrews burger no bread of course!!!!!!!!
(D) Tuna salad on 2 slices of atkins bread.
(S) a few pork rinds and one atkins peanut butter cup!

Drank about 100 oz of water and 3 cups of coffee.

And yes, i just ran 2 miles!!!! woo hoo.
My only dilemma is my CHEat free clip....... you know the fries..

although fries are not low carb, did I really screw up? what do you guys think?
I vowd to be honest, I have now whats my cheat free clip destiny? lol

Love you guys.
renee

 

[Desiree]

RENEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG WHAT GREAT NEWS!!!!!!!!!!

I know you must be so relieved!!! Your kids are all healthy and happy! That has to be the best news in the whole world! I'm so happy and relieved for you!!

I read your post under the jogging but I need to go reply to it! Yes, it does seem that we do have alot in common!!

I'm not really sure about the cheat free. I suppose if you still managed under your calorie limit for the day, I would think that that could classify as no cheating? I'm not sure!

Other than the french fries, It seems that you are really doing well! Keep up the good work and have a great Friday!!!

 

[Strings]

Hi Renee,

I'm so happy for you. All of your kids are healthy. Wow your family has gone through alot. Tetralogy of fallot is major. I'm so glad your DS is now healthy. I'm glad that syour DD doesn't have CF. Asthma is enough to deal with. You and your family are in my prayers.

Beth

 

[marsh0013]

aw renee, i'm so happy to hear that everything is fine with every single one of your babies!!! what a relief, especially with bean!

and i know you posted on the main wish board that you made it into the 150s, thus breaking through your plateau! look at what staying on plan and getting in that exercise will do for you!!! i'm so proud of you for sticking to it and not giving up

as for the cheat free, i think it's a totally personal thing. i say, if it was a conscious decision, and you didn't go overboard, it wasn't a binge or anything, it's cheat free. but you have to do what feels right for you. so if you feel you were cheat free, then you were

alrighty renee, i hope you have a great rest of the day today, and a wonderful weekend

 

[wiskband]

HI all saturday evening now. I tryed posted yesterady and kept getting that annoying "can not find web page" page. Anyway,
HAd 2 "OK" days.
Yesterday

(B) one egg scrambled bacon and cheeae on atkins bread.
(L) no lunch, just afew pork rinds.
(D) went out to fridays with hubby.
I had wings, a piece of steak, 2 ribs and about 4 forkfull of mashed potaotes.
We then headed over to the movies, I had some swedish fish and about half small box of goobers.
Did not exercise today but drank all my water and a few cups of decaf/


Today
(B) one egg scrambled one sausgae cheese on atkins bread.
(L) no lunch
(D) we hit bk. I had a whopper no bread and a few fries and about 6 onion rings.

Drank all my water and one cup of coffee.

No exercise.

I am helping my dad spackle and paint a room so I am very tired.
Tomorrow, I plan on hitting the treadmill!

Till then.
renee