Really missing my dad today.

[binny]

Its been 12 years for my dad too. Next week is his birthday. It makes me sad that he never saw me got married, never saw his firstgranddaughter, etc. Even though its been 12 years, I still have my bad days too, and we weren't even close. I think of what I missed out on while he was still here and it wasn't too late and that hurts the most. for all of us.

omgosh Jules that is exactly like my story. Except my dad and I were very close.

My dads birthday was Dec 9th, he died 6 weeks before my wedding and thus didnt meet any of my kids. I feel robbed. My brothers all had my dad be at their wedding if not perform them. Not me, He died before that.

Today I was talking to my cousin and a question came up that only my dad would know the answer to. Now I dont think we will ever know the answer. Its things like that that just set me off.

 

[Tuffcookie]

Binny,

I still have my mom but her health is not good at the present. We spent Thanksgiving together but I had it in the back of my head, this could be the last Thanksgiving/Christmas we have her.

It's going to hit me like a ton of bricks when it happens.

TC

 

[hockref]

My Dad died in February 2004. He was my hero and I miss him everyday. I miss him most when things aren't going well and I could bounce things off of him.

 

[tiggersmom2]

 

[Serena]

 

[Colleen456]

My dad died on New Years Eve in 93 so I guess the time of the year makes it worse anyway.

I just feel like a blubbering mess some days, you know?

Part of me feels so stupid about it because its been this long and it SHOULD be easier by now. Most times it is but for some reason Ive really been thinking about him a lot lately.

Binny I'm sure you know that I lost my little brother a long time ago. The one thing I have learned is that it NEVER gets easier. Sure the good memories don't hurt like they use to and I can now laugh when I see Ryan acting just like him. Which is really strange since he died 9 years before Ry was born.

I've just decided that I will always have my off days and its ok. I'm allowed to just cry because I miss him and miss that he doesn't know my kids or that he wasn't at my wedding.

So no more feeling stupid. Death is a part of life but that doesn't mean that we have to like it. Life goes on, but so does love and memories.

Wish I could pass you some tissues, Mike just bought 2 boxes since Bailey has a drippy nose. So we now have about 12 boxes all over the house...poor child isn't even a year yet, don't think she's got that much snot!

 

[tiggerlover]

{{{{HUGS}}}}}

My dad has been gone 4 months at Thanksgiving time. I know it is still early in the grieving process, so all I can say are some days (or weeks) are better than others.

The other day we were watching a promo for Three Wishes so I asked my DH and my son what they would wish for if they had only one wish. Their answers surprised me, DH said he would wish for a million dollars and DS said he would wish that grandpa hadn't died. Things like that really choke me up. Sometimes it is simply something someone says or something I see driving down the road. But I imagine that the holidays are especially hard for all who have lost loved ones because holidays are so intertwined with family.

I am sorry for your loss.

 

[4nana]

Binny, I am so sorry, and as many others, I share your pain. We lost Dad almost 3 yrs ago after a 15 yr battle to cancer. Watching a loving parent suffer and from a horrible disease, and not being able to help, has got to be one of God's greatest tests.

I feel it is only natural there will be good days and bad days. Seems all the special occassions and holidays have a big void and after losing a parent, a sudden bout of crying come as second nature now. It brings me such comfort to know he is in a place and no longer suffering and his memories live on in my heart forever.

We are so blessed to still have dear Mom at 76yo., who has had quite an adjustment, as he was her whole world for 56 yrs. With the faith of an angel, she keeps herself busy and striving. We spend every Sat or Sun with her and are very fortunate we can visit Dad's resting place often. We planted a little tree there we will decorate for Christmas for Dad and my younger brother. It's small things we still do in their honor that seem to bring some peace.

to all those missing a parent or loved one.

 

[wvjules]

omgosh Jules that is exactly like my story. Except my dad and I were very close.

My dads birthday was Dec 9th,

My dads birthday is the 7th, mine is the 8th.

I'll never forget the day he died. I lived in an apartment wiht my best friend and we didn't have a phone yet. My mom comes over and knocks on the door with a box of tissues in hand. You know when someone comes to visit you with a box of tissues, its gonna be bad news. September 17 was 12 years.

 

[NMAmy]

to all of you.

My dad's been gone for 3 years in March and I still miss him like crazy around this time of year, particularly at Thanksgiving. He was an excellent cook and, as I recreate his dishes, I remember him showing me how to prepare them. We were very close and I miss him everyday but the holidays are always worse.

 

[crz4mm2]

Yep. 10 years here. I miss him some days like it was yesterday. sigh.
Most of the time I remember him with a smile. but some days not.

 

[binny]

Hey Colleen, welcome over

everyone.

I am sorry we have such a sad club here. Maybe we should start a support group to get us through the Holidays.

 

[wickey's friend]

{{{binny}}} and to all of you who are missing someone this holiday season.

 

[FergieTCat]

Absolutely! My dad passed on 3 1/2 years ago (Memorial Day 2002) and there are some days I wish I could pick up the phone and ask him for advice. Or a question about politics or history (he was a whiz at that).

I always say something that "sounds just like my Dad".

 

[dis ms.]

My older sister died almost 5 years ago, and it still hurts. I was at work when I got the call that she had stopped breathing and that she had been taken to the hospital.

When DH and I got to the hospital, he let me out and went to park the car. None of my family was in the ER waiting room and I couldn't figure out why. Finally my DH comes in and he tells me that he just ran into my dad who was crying in the parking lot. So, my DH had to be the one to tell me my sister had died. I was so mad at him for saying such a ridiculous thing. I remember screaming, hitting him in his chest and just dropping to the floor. I'm crying right now thinking about it because I remember it so vividly.

My DS was only a year old and my sis just loved him to pieces. She would call me and say, "I'm coming over to get my Reed fix." It's such a bummer that he doesn't remember her. The worst is that she never got to meet my DD, who is 3. It really sucks because my sis would have gotten such a kick out of her fiesty little niece!

My sister was an oncology nurse (her friends and coworkers ended up being the ones trying to save her life). Having seen death a lot at work, she talked about dying more than the average person. The one thing that gives me some comfort is that she seemed at peace with the idea of death. I don't think she expected to go at 34, though.

to everyone missing a loved one.

 

[Piglet]

My stepdad died last February. It is so hard having these first holidays without him but we are trying to go on. My 9yo DD had a breakdown last evening about missing her Pap and how he missed her birthday. I didn't realize how much she thinks of him. She said that it is so sad that her new baby sister will never know him.

 

[live4christp1]

to all of you missing loved ones this year.

 

[allie&mattsmom]

to everyone who's missing a loved one. It's coming up on three years since my Dad passed away. He was such a great person! I miss him so much. I feel robbed that he was taken so suddenly from us. He was 69 and had just signed papers to sell his business, he was finally going to retire after working his tail off forever! The morning after he signs the papers, he suffered a AVM (arterial venous malformation - major bleed in the brain) and never recovered. Thank God for all of the wonderful memories - I cherish them.

 

[elan]

I too miss my father, it will be 10 years this jan.

to all with tears in their eyes and sorrow iin their hearts.

 

[TxDisneyFan]

Yesterday was the 31st anniversary of my father's death. I was 12 when he died. Yes, I still miss him.

This month is also the 2nd anniversary of my brother's death. It is still painful to think about his tragic death at age 47.

My mom passed away a year ago this past September. So many deaths.