-Sigh-
There is no way to express how I feel right now.
I wanted to cry at our banquet because one of the girls is graduating, because all her friends were hugging her and they were all crying.
I want to cry now, because I can't take my favorite class because of other classes I love and need.
I want to cry now, because there is never another time to talk to those people.
I want to cry for my friend, and I want to scream her anger even though it's not mine.
I want to cry because I'm suppose to hold off on text messages, even though I've sent only 5 of them, to friends because I couldn't call, like it's my fault for sending 5 messages.
I want to cry because my mom doesn't understand how fun and rewarding it is.
I want to cry because she makes nothing but fun of it, when it's not anything to be calling stupid, when these friends and I love doing the compeitions.
I want to cry for no reason at all, because school is ending, and no matter how much I can't stand these people, they are my classmates.
I want to cry for how my mom calls my friends stupid, and that I need to find better ones.
I want to cry because I know tomorrow how I think everything I said tonight was overreacting and I'm not sure wether it is or not.
I want to cry because I'm still shut up in this town only leaving every couple months to travel to somewhere I've been looking forward to for months and it ending in only a matter of hours or days.
I want to cry thinking about when my friends and I graduate.
I want to cry just because I haven't in such a long time.
I'm not all that happy right now.