sandam1
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So I've been struggling with this - if I can't finish the HM, I don't think I can bring myself to collect the medal. Is that just me? It will always have an asterix next to it in my head whenever I look at it again for the rest of my life. It's one of the reasons I want to run/walk the 10k - so I come home with at least one medal! Ugh.
I struggled with this A LOT with my marathon medal from Marathon Weekend. I "only" did a mile before pulling myself due to aggravating my plantar fasciitis in the half. I was at peace with the decision (or so I thought), but I will admit that that medal got put to the side. All of my photos were taken with the other three medals (5K, 10K, half). After coming home, as I showed people my bling, I found myself either not bringing out the marathon medal or feeling the need to explain what happened. But I realized that no one cared in the slightest that I didn't actually finish the marathon. They were impressed by the whole concept and what I did do. (Hey, I finished 22.4 miles in three days. How many people can say that?)
I also realized that the marathon medal celebrated a different type of accomplishment. In the past, I would have run myself into the ground (probably literally) to avoid "failure" and wound up really hurting myself. I've done A LOT of mental work in the past few years that allows me to look at the medal not as a failure, but as a sign of my growth (I chose to "live to run again") and as a "not yet, but some day soon" symbol.
As a practical manner, I know people who have collected the medal and then sold it on eBay (and yes, they do get some crazy prices immediately post-race) to fund their next trip. But I could never do that.