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If she gets a mic-key, it wouldn't be something we could change on our own, she would always have to be sedated to have it done. Its more complicated to insert then a g-tube, remember she has a gj-tube, so it goes in to her small bowel. She can't handle anything in her stomach, let alone feeds and meds. BUT, we do hope she gets one. The one she has is such a pain, it hangs down so far (thats before you add on the extension for meds/feeds), and we have to have it taped down (and she uses a stat-lock). There is such a risk of it getting caught and pulled (which has happened

). The tape irritates her skin so much, that her skin is now so sensitive. Its awful.
We have talked and asked many times about at home TPN. There are just so many risks, and with her immune system the way it is, they are so afraid of infection. If we lose her port, we are in big trouble. They tried putting a PICC line in her right arm, and they couldn't advance it - her veins are too bad. They finally got one in her left arm, but she went septic after 2 months. So it was pulled, which led to the port. There aren't many other options (and the other central line access ideas aren't good - meaning, dangerous and ICU stays), so ya, it would be a very bad thing to lose it. The idea isn't off the table entirely, but I guess it comes down to how she handles being on the TPN and how she handles being off of it. She might not respond the way they want her to on the monthly treatments and it might be our only option. But spending a week, every month in the hospital is not ideal. But, as you know, ideal isn't always the easy way to get things done for your kids. You make sacrifices. I'm just tired of my kids always having to make the sacrifices and missing out. This first stay will be 7 days, and then I think they want to do 5 days every month after that, again, its just an idea and we will have to hash out the details when she is inpatient next weekend/the following week.
Aren't the outfits the best? Seriously, I was in awe.

My husband just loved Monkey's shirt, he couldn't stop laughing (in a good way

) at how cute he was in it.
I did read about David's meds in your PTR. But remind me, what meds was he on? Is he on any now? Peanut was on edit, and while it worked wonders (she didn't have any bad episodes just mild ones), as we raised the doses she started getting bad side effects. She couldn't see straight or at all, she couldn't walk as she was so wobbly, it was awful. Then they put her on edit, which made her jacked up. She was wired - but in a weird way and she just didn't sleep. So we took her off that. So now she is on edit, but the dose was just increased after yesterdays episode and we increase it again next Friday (you can increase it weekly). Her Paed said it could take 2-3 weeks to really start to work, ugh, so I hope the increase dose at least works a bit better until it takes full effect. She started getting another migraine tonight, so we did the edit/cold cloth on head and in bed like her Paed suggested and she fell asleep after about 1/2 of crying in pain.

She said some kids end up in hospital on IV meds to treat them, so i'm hoping we can get them under control to avoid that.