Pregnant & neurotic thread.

[KiKi Mouse]

Are you newly pregnant, not so newly pregnant and worry about everything?
Do you have irrational fears?
Do you not step on cracks...just in case?
Are you happy yet cautious?
Are you driving your husband or others nuts?

Then this is the place for you to laugh, cry, vent, and discuss your craziness while getting through your pregnancy.

 

[The Mystery Machine]

How about menopausal with teenagers? The fun never ends. Congratulations!

 

[WDWAurora]

You know I'm right there with you! Toward the end of the period between ob visits I can't concentate because I need confirmation things are ok. Minorly better now that he wiggles...

 

[KiKi Mouse]

Since I am the queen of crazy I will go first:

I am currently 30 weeks pregnant with our third daughter. This pregnancy comes after two miscarriages. I have a right to be nuts. I am 43 years old which also give me the right to worry about everything...LOL
I rented a doppler at 14 weeks and still use it quite a bit. DH can tell when I am having a bad day because I come home and ask him to listen to baby. DH is a very understanding and compassionate person and has taken our m/c hard and worries about this baby too but not as crazily as I do.

This morning I found out I have gestational diabetes. My midwife has referred me to a diabetes doctor. When I called that office I was told they would look for my paperwork and if I didn't hear from them in a week to call back. ugh. I am 30 weeks pregnant and know nothing about GD and how to eat, what to eat, and what my blood sugar should be. I don't have time to wait. Now I am worried that I am harming my child by not eating properly etc. DH is sick with worry now.

Other than that we think the baby is breech. At times it also feels like a foot is coming through my ying yang if you KWIM. Midwife says if baby is breech with feet down it is better than folded with feet up near her head.
We are going for a 3D just for fun u/s on the 16th so we will know then.

I would love to go back to feeling like I did when I was pregnant with my other kids when I worried about nothing and everything went fine.

Now I am happy for every day and week I get through. I carry around a sense of doom sometimes as I think that something bad is going to happen.
I haven't been able to enjoy this pregnancy and feel guilty about that too.

I think they should go back to the days of twilight sleep...and just wake me up at 40 weeks...LOL

 

[KiKi Mouse]

You know I'm right there with you! Toward the end of the period between ob visits I can't concentate because I need confirmation things are ok. Minorly better now that he wiggles...

I know!
I thought I remembered reading somewhere that Tom Cruise had bought an u/s machine for Katie. To me that is normal...LMAO.

I told DH this morning that our health care system should pay for our dopper rental because it has saved me from running to the hospital and has saved me from the psych ward.

 

[locolala]

Oh oh I want in! I have definately become more neurotic during this pregnancy. I had two miscarriages prior to this pregnancy, so I was a basket case until we were able to see the baby 2 weeks ago. I have another u/s on Thursday and I'm so anxious about it. I know things are progressing because I'm starting to get the round ligament pain and I know that means things are growing in there. A good thing, really! It hurts but... it's ok lol. I'm also an obsessive planner so I'm looking at ALL the baby stuff we'll need and reading reviews on everything. I can't wait till I can feel this little worm move around! Oh, and I'm now terrified of things I used to be ok with.. like loose dogs. If there's a dog loose in my neighborhood I won't go outside my house. I don't want to get attacked.

 

[DMickey28]

I am doing better now but I still worry. I had two miscarriages before this BFP. I got my BFP on the day of my doctor's appointment to go over fertility. The test was so faint the doctor didn't believe me. I had to force him to give me a Beta draw. He wanted to start me on testing right away, that my insurance may or may not cover until I lost this BFP as well. Nice huh?

I also begged for a repeat beta. I think my first number was 11 and then they doubled appropriately. Needless to say I changed doctor's immediately to a new one. We had just moved so the first doctor was new anyway ...

Then my progestrone number was OK but not great. The new doctor didn't want to give me supplements but I begged again. I was spoting a lot. He gave them to me.

Then at 6w1d I had an U/S where we saw the beating heart but it was only 90bpm. The doctor gave me a 50/50 chance that he would make it.

THEN I was spotting again for the rest of the first tri. They finally found a SCH and I had an U/S every week for about a month and half. I had a few episodes around 12 weeks of bright red bleeding but everything was ok. I finally stopped the supplements and spotting around 13 weeks.

Since then everything has been going well. I am worried because I am gaining NOTHING this time. I gained 35lbs with my DS but I am up MAYBE 4lbs so far. I am fluffy but at the same weight as when I got pregnant with DS. I am not one of those that can stand to lose or not gain anything but I am a little overweight. I am worried but so far the doctor is not. I go again tomorrow. I had the 1 hour glucose and heard nothing so I am taking that as a good sign.

I am also a lot smaller this time around. My tummy is barely measuring on target but my little boy is always at least a few days ahead if not a week ahead so who knows where he is hiding.

I pull out my doppler once or twice a week but this guy is so wiggly I don't really need to. I know exactly where he is and HE IS LOW!!!

 

[sbell111]

You guys should really consider joinging the Moms to be thread, if you haven't already.

 

[KiKi Mouse]

Sbell,

I have. But I don't think most people on there want to listen to others fears.
I can't think about cribs, bedding, colors etc. All I care about is having a full term live birth. So I can't relate to that other stuff right now and I don't want to rain on anybody's parade.

 

[paintnolish]

Every little twinge or pain was a sure sign of disaster. They're 8 and 9 now. You will be fine. Good luck!

 

[sbell111]

Sbell,

I have. But I don't think most people on there want to listen to others fears.
I can't think about cribs, bedding, colors etc. All I care about is having a full term live birth. So I can't relate to that other stuff right now and I don't want to rain on anybody's parade.

I hope that you're wrong.

I do think that sometimes the people that dominate a thread like that one tend to set the tone of it. If they are in a much different stage than you are, they might not be already discussing the things that concern you, but they still will likely be able to offer some good advice.

Try not to think of discussing your issues as raining on the parades of others. They, for the most part, have been where you are. There is plenty of room in that thread to discuss the scary parts of pregnancy as well as the more frivolous bits.

 

[harleyquinn]

I hope that you're wrong.

I do think that sometimes the people that dominate a thread like that one tend to set the tone of it. If they are in a much different stage than you are, they might not be already discussing the things that concern you, but they still will likely be able to offer some good advice.

Try not to think of discussing your issues as raining on the parades of others. They, for the most part, have been where you are. There is plenty of room in that thread to discuss the scary parts of pregnancy as well as the more frivolous bits.

I have to totally agree there! As a former member of that thread, I can say we discussed that sort of thing often and having people that didn't feel the same way helps to avoid feeling some extremes yourself.

But you have every right to start a new thread.

 

[justhat]

KikiMouse - Don't feel guilty at all about venting your concerns on the other thread. My 2nd child was preterm so I know where you are coming from with wanting a full term, healthy birth. When I had my son, even though I was 36 weeks so really not that bad, I was terrified that he wouldn't be okay. Overall he was, but he had a rocky beginning. This time I am just thrilled that I have made it to nearly 36 weeks, with the help of weekly progesterone injections, as I really didn't think it would happen easily.

 

[remyandhollandsmommy]

Oh this is so me right now! I am driving my poor DH insane and scaring the heck out of him though not intentionally. For DH this is his first child but I am prego with my third daughter and have a csection scheduled for the 25th of this month. You would think since this is my third child and third csection I would be a pro..but I have been having those dumb ol braxton hicks contractions bad lately (which I never had before) and since I have NEVER been in labor or even dilated 1cm with my other pregnancies I am paranoid that I am going into early labor all the time lol. Wouldn't be so bad but my OB is a 45min drive away (I am high risk and have to have a specialist lucky me) so I am scared if I do go into labor I won't get to the hospital and the OB in time for my surgery. There is NO way I can have a natural birth without killing myself so needless to say I am about ready to just move into the hospital but my OB won't let me...I asked today when I saw him lol. I should be happy right now since this is by far my easiest pregnancy (my last DD (6) almost killed me when I started hemorrhaging after the surgery) but for some reason its my most paranoid one. I am just so ready for it to be over so I can relax!!

 

[KiKi Mouse]

My DW has been driving me nuts at times, but there is on thing I must say. I'm so proud of her doing everything she can with this pregnancy. She has taken her vitamins, being careful with not lifting heavy things, going on fertility medication and sticking to a schedule during that time of the month.

So to my DW, I thank you so much for everything you have done and we will get through this, TOGETHER.

Love you,
Your DH

 

[susykt4]

I'm not pregnant now, but I was in-freaking-sane during my pregnancies. I had tons of bleeding and spotting with my first very unexpected pregnancy. I also had a nasty OB who told me I'd probably miscarry and put me on bedrest for the first half of my pregnancy. I spent hours each day of my bedrest time reading boards on miscarriage and pregnancy loss. Other than a hand-me-down crib and some clothes from a good friend, I bought NOTHING before the baby was born. I finally bought an outfit a couple weeks before she was born because I figured she'd need something to be buried in. We couldn't find Doppler rental or I would have done it in a second. I also would have bought an U/S machine if I was Tom Cruise rich! Anyway, my daughter is now 9 and was born healthy on her due date. My husband had a few major shopping trips in the week after her birth

 

[DMickey28]

Aww Kiki's Husband ... Very sweet!! Thank you.

Kiki - I understand about the other thread. I didn't start posting on it until recently and even then it's still sporadically. For a while there most of the girls where much further along but now that I am catching up and there are more newbies it's easier. I like being able to help ease concerns of others and would never view those posts as being rain on my parade. I think you are two weeks ahead of me ... We will get there and it's coming fast! Each day ...

 

[KiKi Mouse]

SusyK,

I totally understand! I have had some of those same emotions and thoughts. Once this baby got big enough I thought at least I can bury her instead of cremate her like our other babies. I was VERY disconnected until we had our 20 week ultrasound and found out baby was a girl. She was named right away and I felt a bit better. My family, especially my inlaws have been exceptionally supportive. My MIL gives us a card every week. She lost three babies after DH was born. It took her 10 years to have DH's sister and then his brother who is 13 years younger than him and born at 32 weeks.

Yesterday was a gong show as I found out I have gestational diabetes. I am waiting for an appt. with the specialist...how long I will have to wait I don't know. This is rather urgent dontcha think? In the meantime I had to see my GP for a note for work as my work would not accept one from my midwife. So I talked to her about the diabetes thing and she wrote me a prescription for a blood glucose monitor. At least I can monitor what is going on until I see the specialist. If my blood sugar gets too high I have to go to the hospital for insulin. Let me tell yah, I will not be letting it get that high. So today I have to figure out some meal planning and change my way of thinking and eating. fun fun fun

 

[Mrs. Charming]

My DW has been driving me nuts at times, but there is on thing I must say. I'm so proud of her doing everything she can with this pregnancy. She has taken her vitamins, being careful with not lifting heavy things, going on fertility medication and sticking to a schedule during that time of the month.

So to my DW, I thank you so much for everything you have done and we will get through this, TOGETHER.

Love you,
Your DH

AWWWWWWWWW!!!! What a sweet hubby!!

 

[Mrs. Charming]

Well, I'm going to jump on in here, feet first. I'm 5 weeks pregnant with my second kiddo. It took us 2 years to conceive this one, with a miscarriage last year. SO.. I'm terrified. I've already been to do the Dr. three times, once on Sunday because I was having low back pain and some spotting. Panicked? You bet. I go on Thursday for my first scheduled u/s, and then I dunno how long until the next one from there. I don't know how crazy I'd be if I wasn't being monitored until 12 weeks. Seriously, I'd be cuckoo for cocoa puffs.

So that's my story. Oh, and as soon as there's a heartbeat, I'm buying a doppler. They're not near as expensive as I thought! $75 for peace of mind? Yep!

SO my moment of neurosis today was that I didn't have sore "girls" this morning.. then I got up and walked around, yep, they hurt. Phew!

Oh and I'm really glad you started this thread.. I'm not a "nursery theme" mom either.