Pixie dust request afraid about my health

[Tiggeroo]

I made a new years resolution to get into shape and start taking care of myself. This meant getting to the dr's and dentists. I'm carrying much too much weight and suspected i'd be told my bp was high and my blood sugar and cholestrol as well.
Since two weeks before Christmas I've really been changing everything about myself. I went to the dr's two weeks ago to find out my bp was extremely high. She asks me alot of questions and puts me on benicar for my bp, then orders blood work.
After I started taking the med i've been getting tightness/discomfort in my chest, pain in my side and back, discomfort in my shoulder, etc. I'm going in to see a dr. today. I'm scared to death. I don't want to go. It's been over 2 years since i've seen a dr and a very long time since I had a full blood work up. I've spent the weekend on the computer looking up symptoms. Instead of sleeping that's all i'm doing. I'm truly convinced i'll be told that i have very bad kidney disease and perhaps permenant heart disease. I'm afraid i'll be put on dialysis and be told i'm dying. You can't believe how sure i am of this. All of this fear can't be helping my bp. I don't know if they'll be able to get a normal reading as scared as i am.
I'm only 41. I've spent most of my life dealing with others who have problems such as my bi-polar dh and my gambling addict father. I was actually getting to where I could live for myself a bit. I'm supposed to start going back to college tomorrow. I'm afraid they'll put me in the hospital. Please keep me in your thoughts.

 

[Pop Daddy]

slow down, your jumping to too many conclusions Doctor , there gonna give you thew right medicne and your will be fine, ok

 

[momof2inPA]

It's a great thing you are starting to take care of yourself. Maybe your doctor will just recommend a good diet an workout routine, and it's nice to at least get that help. Good luck at the doctor's. Even if you need medication or surgery, it's still better to know and have it taken care of than to wonder and worry every day. Read the side effects on your B.P. medication, just in case it might be that, too. P&PD.

 

[love the magic]

Just hang in there...and pull out some of the "faith and trust"...it's NOT addressing your concerns that have gotten you to a place that you know you don't want to be....There are always answers....the HARD part is often finding the courage to even ask the questions...and you're doing just that!

 

[Tiggeroo]

what i'm afraid of is that I waited so long and now not even surgery could help me. They'll just look at me and say well maybe you can have 2 years.

 

[kapica3]

I know its easy to say don't worry, but its not easy to not worry. I am the same way as you. I always worry just in case - so that I'm not surprised when I hear the "verdict". I too come up with 100 senarios of what it could be, read all the medical books and spend hours on the internet. I've done this many times and did it help me at all - NO. I've learned a technique when I am worried about medical tests comming back or something else I have no control over- I worry really hard for 10 minutes and then I say to my self - ok thats it for now, I'll worry more tommorow - and make a concious effort to not think about it, as soon as it pops into my head I say to myself - "not now, later". and then the next day I give it another 10 minutes of thought and worry. It might sound crazy but it works. I seem to need to know I am allowed to worry about it later.... that I won't be doing "nothing" that I will be allowed to worry at some point- just not right now. If you don't come up with something on your own that works, speak to your Dr. about it he may be able to help. Worry isn't good for anyone and can actually harm your health. I'm no Doctor but I know stress causes all kind of symptoms, including aches and pains. It could be nothing more than your own worry causing the symptoms. I once had a minor stomach problem that I worried about so much that I actually made it worse, I know this because when all the test came back negative, it stopped automatically. I know now that it was caused by my worrying. Call the Dr and tell him about your stress and try to just hang in there, my thoughts are with you.

 

[Christine]

I am a HUGE worrier and I know exactly what you are going through. You are have a big, blow out case of hypochondria. It is very scary. I'm not going to tell you that "everything will be okay" because, I'm sure, right now nothing can convince you of that.

Just go to the doctor, have the bloodwork done (BTW, I am also on pins and needles awaiting some bloodwork I had done last week).

Consider this all a wake-up call to get your weight down and yourself healthier.

I hope everything goes well for you and please keep us posted as to what your doctor says.

 

[dmslush]

You are probably giving yourself anxiety attacks!! Calm down a little. Talk with your dr about the dosage amount of benicar that you are on. A side effect of a benicar overdose is chest pain, it is possible that you are taking too strong of a dosage.

 

[The Mystery Machine]

I will be 41 next month. Chin up women! It is probably STRESS and the meds possibly, call your doctor...

You know what I want you to do? Start exercising. It really, really helps! Even if it is just stretching. That can help to start with. Reach your arms way high and hold for a few seconds.
Take deep cleansing breathes and hold and relax.

No matter what you think you have, you don't have to be in a state of panic. Get off the internet and go do something positive!

 

[momof2inPA]

what i'm afraid of is that I waited so long and now not even surgery could help me. They'll just look at me and say well maybe you can have 2 years.

Oh, they won't say that. It will be alright, and you will be posting on here after your doctor's appt. about how relieved you feel. If it helps at all, I'm 38, I sometimes get chest pains, and my doctor says I'm fine. At least I know it's just muscles and stress in my case, but if I didn't check with the doctor, I would still be worrying about it.

 

[escape]

Slow down....don't be borrowing trouble. May need some adjustments on your meds.

As others have said, it's good you are going to start taking care of your health. You might want to look into joining Weight Watchers or some other type of support group. A good friend of mine was having symptons similar to yours and it was a wake up call for her. She joined WW, has had great success and just ran in her first 1/2 marathon at WDW last week. Before she lost weight, she could barely walk around the block without getting tired. Now she exercises every day and loves how she feels. She attributes a lot of this to WW and the support she received at the meetings.

Hang in there!!!

 

[Tiggeroo]

You know what I want you to do? Start exercising. It really, really helps! Even if it is just stretching. That can help to start with. Reach your arms way high and hold for a few seconds.
Take deep cleansing breathes and hold and relax

I was walking every day for the past three weeks. Now i'm afraid to do anything. I"m way more afraid about the side/back pain right under my ribs then the chest pain. I'm afraid of kidney problems from untreated bp.

 

[golfgal]

My MIL started on some BP meds a couple months ago and the meds made her feel AWFUL! Her dr took her off them and put her on something else and she feels MUCH better. Chances are it is the med, not you. Try to relax and look up the med on the internet. You should be able to find a list of side effects there and chances are you are experiencing them. Good luck.

 

[The Mystery Machine]

Is the pain on the right side?

 

[Tiggeroo]

left side

 

[Tiggeroo]

i've had pain in this spot before. It was related to my uterus being irritated due to a hormonal imbalance. It's come back whenever my female troubles have flared up, which they aren't now. Now i'm thinking it was never related to that and for years i've actually had kidneys that were struggling.

 

[The Mystery Machine]

Could be from the meds??
Perhaps your stomach is not tolerating it well??

I know as I have reach the wonderful age of 40, I do not tolerate meds so well and pay closer attention to the side effects.

I guess I do not understand why you keep saying kidneys...that would be lower back.

 

[dmslush]

Seriously, you need to stay off of the 'self diagnosis' sites. Stand up right now, stretch, breath deep, relax. You are working yourself into a tizzy!

 

[Buckalew11]

Tiggeroo,

I know you have great faith so I will say to pray for yourself (I will be praying for you too!) and tell God these concerns and fears and turn them over to Him. See a doctor, like dmlush said, maybe the dosage is too much. Adjustments sometimes needs to be made.

Did you know that you can also have pain in your chest, back, shoulders from something as simple as a rib being out of whack? Well, you can! I thought I was dying a few months ago because I was having chest pain and started looking on the net and came to the conclusion that I was going to die. I'm not saying this is what yours is, but, it is a possibility that it could be part of the pain also. Very common in women.

You'll get good advice here (already have) so I will send hgs, calming thoughts and prayers and leave you with a verse to repeat aloud that will give you great comfort:
1 Peter 5:7..."Cast all your cares upon Him because He cares for you."
I think there is great power drawn from God' Word and please think about what this really means.
Hugs!!

 

[Tiggeroo]

sorry, i know i sound stupid.
i'm saying kidneys because i read flank pain, which is what i have, right under ribs which is what i have. Also because I suspect i've been ignoring the bp for awhile and kidney damage is a side effect.
I'm also going to see a good counselor about my worrying/fears and poor decision making process concerning my health. Once you avoid the dr for awhile it becomes harder to go in and see him.