OT: I'm having a "moment"

[1rockinmamato2]

Today is one of those days when I take a break from the craziness, step back, look at my children in awe and ask myself...

Why are they growing up so fast?
Why didn't the 10 years before them go by that quickly?
How I ever lived my entire life without them?
Will I someday forget how they look right now? Or how their breath feels on my neck while they're sleeping?
How can one look from them be felt inside me so deeply that it touches by soul?

And lastly, will I remember all of this when they're teenagers?

 

[robinb]

Awwwww!!! You're just starting your journey. My DD still cuddles with me at 7-years old but I start to wonder how long that will last ...

 

[Rapunzel]

So sweet! Your post made me well up with tears a bit...then actually cry when I saw your babies are adopted. I think its the most selfless thing you can possibly do. You're amazing for opening your hearts and home to those babies!

I was adopted when I was 11 days old, and I love my mom so very much. Out of all my friends I'm the one with the closest relationship with my mom. I'm also the only one that was adopted!

 

[TheDizMom]

Just like they can make you crazy, they can turn you into a blubbering idiot wrapped around their little fingers too . They grow sooooo fast and before you know it they make a perfect head rest. When my DS turned 10 in December and I realized he had reached the height where his head was right at chin height for me I thought I'd cry. How could he be that tall and old already ? Where did the time go . But he is a very unusual 10 year old in that he still likes to cuddle with me, hold my hand and give me hugs and kisses even if he has friends around . My DD drives me crazy and has been going on 20 since she was about 2! But then she'll come home from school and want to sit on my lap and tell me she loves me and I forget that she once had every wall in my house decorated with crayon and once painted my bathroom with you know what straight out of the toilet . But I lost my first DD to a stillbirth at full term so there isn't a day that goes by that I don't thank God they are here for me to love laugh at and with watch grow and yes even make me so mad I want to scream: . I totally get your "moment" and as an adoptive parent you, like me. understand how our children are truly a blessing and a gift. Enjoy every "moment" even the not so great ones because they will fly by before we know it and all of a sudden we'll be grandparents .

 

[jiminy]

Aw, such sweet posts, you guys are going to make me cry!!

I often tell my boys (6 and 4yo) that they need to stop growing. I look back at their baby pictures and am amazed that they were ever that small.

 

[HappyStamper]

As the mother of a 25 year old, a 23 year old, and a 15 year I say enjoy every moment because it really does pass by before you know it. BTW- Your post would make great journaling on a scrapbook page.

 

[ekball]

OK - I'm better now. Sorry about that. My kids drive me bonkers sometimes (they are 3.5 and 1.5 - so I guess that's normal) - but my lord do I adore them. I just don't want this time to go flying by too fast (only the challenging days) .....

 

[Twingle]

I agree with the pp, if you are a scrapbooker, save your post, because someday your children will REALLY think it's sweet. My DS is seven, and just the sweetest little guy. Still very huggy and won't leave for school without giving me a big hug, kiss, and telling me he loves me. My girls, while very sweet, are very . . . . let's say spirited. There are days that I have to remind myself to enjoy their messes, because they are growing up so fast.

In rereading the OP post, it makes me think of the saying "deciding to have a child is choosing to have your heart walk around outside of your body for the rest of your life".

 

[Ariel8676]

OK well ya got me all teary eyed here..lol
Seriously though what a sweet post. I wish everyone thought about their children this way..the world would be a much better place.
I feel the same way..my girls are 5 (going on 35), 4 and 1...i can't believe how fast these last few years have gone by and that my baby is going into 1st grade in September ...
My kids are my life...and they are such good kids.
My DH and i just try to have as much fun as we can with them, spend as much time with them as possible..and take TONS of pictures..lol

 

[1rockinmamato2]

Isn't it crazy how fast they grow? I guess what got me all worked up was looking back through some pictures on my computer and noticing not only how much DD has grown, but how much DS is looking like a little boy instead of a baby.

I wish I had the time to scrapbook. I do some journaling from time to time when I have a chance so I will paste my post into my journal for them.

I would like to share this entry with all of you. It's from February '05, two months after completing our homestudy and four months before meeting our children's (DS and DD are biological sibs - long story, I'll share some other time since this post is already turning into a novel) birthmom. I just KNEW we would soon be parents and I wanted the nursery done. It was delivered the weekend before my first contact with birthmom! Here's the entry:

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Yesterday I cried...

...happy tears.

As we were ordering our nursery furniture, the saleslady (who also adopted her daughter, now 37, at the age of 6 weeks) called me "Mama." At first, I thought it was just kind of cute. But, as she continued to talk about combos and hutches, and this and that...my mind was racing with that one tiny, yet powerful word that she used to describe me. I stood there and stared at her...not hearing anything...only watching her lips moving.

It was the first time that I have ever been referred to as "Mama"...as in the present tense, as in my title. And it was at that moment that I realized that although I have not given birth, although I do not yet have a child...I am and always have been a mother. It has always been a part of me, in my heart, someone I was destined to be, a lifelong dream.

So, as our saleslady turns to leave for a moment to total up our order...I let the tears that I'd been holding back flow. Hubby wasn't sure what to think and then I smiled and giggled as I said to him, "I'm mama"...and he immediately understood and gave me a hug and let me wipe my tears on his shirt.

He was strong, he was manly, he was laughing at my silliness...until the saleslady returned and called him "Daddy."

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Now, I must say that day pales in comparison to the first time DS called me mama.

Thanks for letting me share!!!

 

[robinb]

So, as our saleslady turns to leave for a moment to total up our order...I let the tears that I'd been holding back flow. Hubby wasn't sure what to think and then I smiled and giggled as I said to him, "I'm mama"...and he immediately understood and gave me a hug and let me wipe my tears on his shirt.

He was strong, he was manly, he was laughing at my silliness...until the saleslady returned and called him "Daddy."

Double awwwww! You are full of tear-jerkers!

Now, I must say that day pales in comparison to the first time DS called me mama.

Believe me, it won't be long until you say "That's my name. Don't wear it out!".

 

[Kellyscrapbooks]

I had a moment myself yesterday. I was talking to a friend who's son is off in his first year of college about some difficulties I've been having with my son who's in kindergarten.
She said, "It just goes so fast" and although I've heard it a million times, for some reason it hit me yesterday that my daughter is NINE! That's halfway to 18!!! I think I cried for a half hour.
I love that they are bigger and more independent, but I do miss the baby side too. I'm so glad they are mine.

 

[ekball]

Yesterday I cried...

...happy tears.

As we were ordering our nursery furniture, the saleslady (who also adopted her daughter, now 37, at the age of 6 weeks) called me "Mama." At first, I thought it was just kind of cute. But, as she continued to talk about combos and hutches, and this and that...my mind was racing with that one tiny, yet powerful word that she used to describe me. I stood there and stared at her...not hearing anything...only watching her lips moving.

It was the first time that I have ever been referred to as "Mama"...as in the present tense, as in my title. And it was at that moment that I realized that although I have not given birth, although I do not yet have a child...I am and always have been a mother. It has always been a part of me, in my heart, someone I was destined to be, a lifelong dream.

So, as our saleslady turns to leave for a moment to total up our order...I let the tears that I'd been holding back flow. Hubby wasn't sure what to think and then I smiled and giggled as I said to him, "I'm mama"...and he immediately understood and gave me a hug and let me wipe my tears on his shirt.

He was strong, he was manly, he was laughing at my silliness...until the saleslady returned and called him "Daddy."

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Now, I must say that day pales in comparison to the first time DS called me mama.

Thanks for letting me share!!!

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