Kristy,
You know you can come here anytime,,,,you are not alone,,,I know how you are feeling,, having lost my baby girl after 8 months of waiting for her (she was still born),,that was over 25 years ago and I still think of her often,,,it doesnt seem like it will ever get better at first, (an maybe even sounds a little harsh to say it will) but in time the pain is not right under the skin and does get better, and she will always be in your heart and thoughts. Just know she is with God. Somethings we are just not meant to understand!!! I am just a PM or E-mail away if you ever need to talk...that's what's so great about this place,,we may not KNOW each other in person, but we all have somethings in common, there is always someone we can talk to ..God Bless you !!
BIG HUG
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Linda