Okay...........now it's Weight Watchers Here I go again!

[septbride2002]

LOL at the Dog Biscuit! Next time you are craving something crunch here is what I do - Peanuts, Almonds, and Sunflower seeds seem to do the trick. Also I know that Pork Rinds are allowed on Atkins. I am going to have to try these one day but the thought of it sometimes makes my stomach queezy. Great job!

~Amanda

 

[DoeWDW]

The idea of pork rinds make me queasy too! I haven't had the guts to try them!

A, I sent you a PM yesterday, so check your private messages, OK?

I am envious of your folk group at church! I love to sing and would love to have a group like that to participate in - something more casual than the church choir. I think it's great that you went and that you felt it was uplifting to you - good for you!!!

You've been working so hard to stay on plan - I truly admire you for that! I sometimes get the WASA Fiber Rye crackers at the store and top them with tuna salad or chicken salad - makes for a nice crunch and still qualifies as a low carb meal.

Hope all goes well with your visit today. It must be so hard, but you are doing something so loving. Take the scissors along, in case DH needs a haircut!

 

[Strings]

A,

I just read your edit. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers today. Take care of yourself.

Beth

 

[A1A1]

Once again, I couldn't bring myself to see DH. I love him more than anything, but can't stand to see him in this condition. It is very difficult to go there, and have nothing to say. He doesn't speak, and rarely makes eye contact unless I get right in his face. It is tough. Sometimes, I just can't do it. I miss him every day all day long. I am sad every day all day long. I hate myself for not seeing him. It is a 40-45 minute drive to his home. I have vowed to go on Tuesday while dd is at school.

Anyway,,,,,, here is what I ate.

Breakfast posted above.
Snack - 7 almonds and water
Lunch--none
Snack - about 15 almonds
Dinner - very large antipasto salad. Contents of the salad: lettuce, tomato, garbanzo beans, salami, ham, pepperoni, cheese, black olives, green olives, artichokes, onions, two large shrimp, italian dressing.

I am stuffed, but am pretty sure I will have the ff fudgesicle later. I have such a sugar craving lately. Chocolate mostly.

I had one small, teeny, tiny bite of dd's cheese sub. I am not mad at myself. It was small, but I felt I needed to have it. I think it says in the SBD book that if you feel you really need to try something, then do it. I did. That one bite was enough. I am really missing bread lately, though. I think it might be time to move on to phase two of the diet now. It has been 2.5 weeks now. I thought I could go on for longer than that in phase one. I had previously done Atkins induction for 4 months and didn't have many problems.

I am working tomorrow. Half day. That's good. A few dollars.

I am going to try to catch up on journals tonight, but have to get going on that scarf.......


Doe-I pm'd back. Thanks.

 

[DoeWDW]

A, if the situation were reversed and you were the one in that home, I bet you would understand your DH's feelings - how hard it would be for him to see you, even though he still loved you very much. Some days we feel strong and other days we feel more fragile and have to take things easier. When you're feeling strong, you'll be able to visit with him. Please don't be too hard on yourself.

Did thinking about visiting DH have anything to do with your low food intake all day? You hardly ate anything and then had a huge salald. I've seen this pattern before in your journal and you usually say you don't feel well after eating a large meal. I just wanted to point it out to you so you could think about it, OK?

Hope you can enjoy your knitting this evening. Crocheting always seems to help me relax. Also best wishes for a good time at work tomorrow.

dear A,

 

[Strings]

A,
I sent you a PM.
Beth

 

[Castillo Mom]

A, I wish I had some miraculous words of wisdom for you. All I can say is that you're in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs to you A.

 

[CourtasanSatine]

just stopping by with a

 

[marsh0013]

A, i'm so sorry that you are feeling down. but you shouldn't beat yourself up about not going to see dh. i know that it is very difficult and emotionally taxing for you, and you're not going to be up for it all the time. like doe said, you should go when you're feeling strong enough, but don't expect too much from yourself all the time. great big

as for the south beach diet adn moving on to phase 2, i don't really know how it works, but i think that it is probably a good idea. you seem to want to do it, so unless i'm totally wrong about how it works, i'd say go for it. 4 months on induction for atkins is amazing! i don't know how you survived that for so long! (well, actually, i do...you are an amazingly strong woman, that's how. we already knew this, but this is just another example.)

i hope you have a wondeful day today

 

[DoeWDW]

Thinking of you, A, and hoping today is going well.

 

[Strings]

A,

I sent you a PM. I had to shorten it a little. They said it was too long. Me, wordy? Never.
Beth

 

[A1A1]

Another yucky day. I am on a downward trend with my "dieting." I ate cake today. I had been dying for a piece of chocolate cake for a couple of days. I couldn't fight the urge any longer. I picked up dd from school and we went to get that piece of cake. I am a little upset---not just because of the cake, but because I have been overdoing everything. I have been eating nuts by the pound. Salad by the truckload. I have just been eating too much. I am not doing things right.

Only good thing, I guess, is that I only had one piece of cake. Previously, I would have bought the whole cake, and would have eaten half at one sitting. Just bought a piece, and had it with a cup of decaf. I got that out of my system, and don't have the desire anymore. I just hope I can get back on track. I am feeling a little sick now.

I am frustrated and losing motivation again. I want to keep going. I will keep going. Just wish this weight would come off more quickly. Cake won't help matters, though.


No more cake.



Breakfast ---- one link of lf chicken with spinach and feta sausage. lc ketchup. salad----lots---the antipasto from last night.

Snack ---- two tons of nuts.

Lunch ---- more antipasto salad and bacon.

snack --- probably more nuts, but I can't remember

Dinner ---- one piece of orange Floridian cake. decaf with cream


I have no motivation to walk on my treadie lately. Maybe tonight. Very worried that I won't be up to speed for the 1/2 marathon. Just counting on a major push when the weather turns more spring-like.

 

[CourtasanSatine]

just wanted to stop by and give you a

 

[DoeWDW]

I know yesterday was a struggle for you A. I hope you're feeling a little better today. Here's some extra sunshine, in case you need it, .

Take good care of yourself today, OK?

 

[marsh0013]

A, i'm sorry you had anohter rough day. but i think you did the right thing with the cake. if it's something that you really wanted, it's a good thing that you decided to have it...and in moderation at that! you could have easily thrown caution to the wind and eaten half a cake like you said you would have done in the past. but you know what? you've become a different person. you are not that same person who would eat the half cake. that is such a positive step!

as for the half marathon - i am sure that this weather is not helping any of us! it's hard to be motivated when it's so nasty outside. we need that sun to brighten up our day (figuratively and literally). i'm sure that spring will bring a new sense of excitement to your training. and don't worry, we've got about 11 months. you're going to do excellent.

i hope you have a better day today. feel better

 

[Strings]

A,

We all need treats sometimes. Yes, you went off plan, but remember, you stopped at only one piece. Nuts are my downfall too. I just had to get rid of them. Take them to school. Let the other teachers eat them. They may be an allowed food, but I can;t control the portion. I put them on my not allowed list. In 6 months I may try to have them again.
all headed your way. I hope today is better.

Beth

 

[CourtasanSatine]

treats keep us sane so don't feel guilty but feel good that you stopped at just a piece. and

 

[A1A1]

Breakfast ---- one scrambled egg, three slices bacon, water

Lunch --- bacon, cheese, lettuce, ranch salad dressing, diet rite orange soda.






I have a crack in my foundation that is allowing water to leak into my basement. I am so scared that I will have a huge repair bill. Also, the cabinets on one wall of my kitchen are pulling away from the wall. That is not good. My house is only 5 years old. It was built on an old creek bed. I am very concerned that the ground is shifting rapidly under the house. I see dollar signs. Many of them. Anyway, I got my exercise in today. It is pouring rain, which is melting the three feet of snow out there. Because of the leak in the basement, I went out to shovel a path to the crack to try to make a trench away from the house there. I am soaked, cold, muddy and sore. I dug a trench into the lawn----read "mud".


DD has tennis club today. I am glad these options are available to her at 6 yo. After these few weeks of tennis, she starts bowling. What fun for her. Glad she has a chance to socialize with other kids. I kept her pretty much sheltered until this year.

I WISH I could:

1. Reduce my portion sizes.
2. Stop eating nuts (Thanks Strings. I am going to keep the nuts out of the cupboard. No more of them for me, because I can't just eat a few.)
3. Exercise more regularly.
4. Take my medication at the same time every day.
5. Get the fire again. I have lost sight of the goal, and of my ability to actually get to the goal again.





Edit-----Edit---------Edit--------Edit--------7:17 pm

I have serious portion issues. I ate four full sized meals today. What is with me?

I had the two meals listed above, then I ate:
Lunch [again(?)] ----- I was reading ZerasPride's journal, and the mock pancakes sounded so good. I made them. They were good. I used 3 egg whites, one whole egg, about 1/3 cup ricotta cheese and cinnamon. Also vanilla. I certainly don't think of three egg whites and one whole egg with a ricotta cheese chaser as a "snack". I don't know what you call it. Anyway, I ate that.

Dinner ----- two chicken sausage patties with iceburg lettuce. Water.

I am very full. The sausage was Italian style, and the patties were on the large side.

I haven't had a single nut today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That is a big triumph.

Going to go upstairs to bed now. Glad to reconnect with my WISH friends. I will post to journals tomorrow.
Bye friends! Goodnight. Thank you for visiting me in my journal...

 

[ZerasPride]

Hi A,

I'm stopping by to check on you my friend. I'm sorry I haven't been around too much lately. I was hoping to find you at a happy place so I am disheartened to hear that all things are not going well for you. You are such a special person and deserve some happiness, peace and success.

I hope you don't have a large repair bill. Owning a home can be a pain in the booty sometimes. I see that you did exercise today, despite everything that is going on around you.

I know you will get that fire back. Even if it's just setting small goals. I try not to look at the big picture sometimes. It can be overwhelming. Sometimes just taking it one day, one hour, one minute, if need be will help get you through because those minutes, hours and days add up over time and can spell success without us being aware we have put all the effort required into making it so.

Please know that you have support here with us. Big hugs from me to you!

 

[Strings]

A,

I am so proud of you. Remember yesterday? You went off program. You were so down on yourself for it. Guess what? You got up, dusted yourself off, and got right back on program. You also exercised today. Bye-bye cake calories. As heavy as the snow is currently, you got a major workout.

I hope things work out with the house. We had some major repairs recently. It can be stressful.

I hope you have a good afternoon. Will you get a chance to do some knitting? That seems to relax you. I'll check in on you later.
Beth