Dan and Kris-
This thread started up when I was taking a break from the Boards.
I read the whole thing a while ago, and I have meant to post, but I know there is nothing that I or anyone else can say which could possibly make you feel any better.
I know that we have not yet actually met, but we have discussed things here on the Disboards, and maybe someday we will actually meet face to face.
For some reason, I felt like I should post today. Maybe I do have something to say that might be of some small help.
Unfortunately, I know a little about how you feel, and what you are going through. I lost my young nephew through what we will just call a medical accident seven years ago. This loss was hard on me, but I cannot even begin to fathom how it felt to my Brother in Law and Sister In Law. I don't like to think about it, and I still won't talk about it, and I was only his uncle.
I know that there is no greater loss than that of a parent losing a child.
Nothing compares to it.
Nothing.
You have my deepest sympathy.
Go ahead and cry. Go ahead and grieve. It hurts. I am sorry to say that it always will. How could it not? But, I also know that you can find some comfort in the love of friends and family, and it is my prayer that you will embrace your family and friends, and that their love will help carry you through your grief. Don't worry about what people say about things getting better, and wonder why you don't feel that way. Stop questioning yourself. Grieve the way you need to. But, accept the love that is offered to you.
That is all I have to say about that.
TCD